I've been living this pain for 4 years. Thinking that everything was over. But never did I expect, I was back to where I was. I was a fool to have believe someone whom I can lean on would be able to give me the strength to pull me through. However, I was wrong. I've lost myself further.
The reason for me typing this, is not to gain sympathy from people. But is to remind me to be independent. Hurt will eventually grow deeper when the person whom you expected to be with wasn't being to show the love and care.
I'll be away for the time being. To recuperate till 我找回了自己。
Depending on sleeping pills are what I've always hated most. But I had no choice to do so in order to put myself to sleep.
Till then ......
Forgive me for being like this.”