想念

想念那幸福的生活。。
想念你的怀抱。。。
想念着你紧紧的牵着我的手。。。
想念着此时此刻你都会说你爱我。。。

心，正在寒酸着。。。

痛

Struggling every night.
Battling those emotional scars.
痛。

Honesty

What's honesty without "trust" & "respect"? 
A decision to trust, a decision to accept, a route to respect because of honesty.  

 

Honesty and integrity produce trust – trust in ourselves and in all those around us. Trust in turn produces confidence which we all need to conquer life’s problems.

“What goes around, comes around” and that’s very true. If we don’t live our lives honestly, we become shrouded in mystery. 

Everything has just been broken, smashed. Talking about actions speaks louder than words. I lost it. The wound in the heart, the emotional scar left behind. 

This jigsaw puzzle, I can no longer complete. 

疑问

好久没写下这笔记了。
不是忘了，而是没时间。 
现在，每分美秒，我都在珍惜着。
因为多数的时间都在忙着工作，根本没时间搓空给自己。
好累。。。。
但，不是每个人都能了解或体谅这份累。。。。

我开始失去和忽略了好多。
最近，心理也渐渐的开始带着疑惑和伤。
何时才能解出这份痛？
何时能够解脱？

Let the interview begins!

开始去面试了！
It's a good start! :D

There are 5 things that you need to take note before you head off for an interview.
1) Get your resume and necessary documents ready - To let your employer know a snapshot of yourself, which includes your background, your skills & capabilities
2) Do your homework, know where you are applying - To show your enthusiasm and desire to work for the company
3) Do Practice Interviews - To build up your confidence
4) Look Professional - To give off the best impression (be confident!)
5) Be Early - To be punctual & responsible

I was pretty excited for my first interview though. Haven't had this for a long time. The last time I had interview formally was during my Shatec days when I was applying for internship. Counting back, WOW! That was about 5 years ago! Time flies!

To make sure that I'm not neglecting any documents, I re-packed my cert file, making sure that everything is included, photocopied & neatly placed. And of cos, GROOMING is very important when it comes to interview because first impression counts!

Iron-ed my clothes, my blazer. And... I went O.O! I haven't been these formal for years.

Looked like some property agent. ;P 

Then, I reminded myself that, being neat is very important. So I went to get my hair tied. And...... 

果然不同！Looks professional 多了！(with the ka-li-pok hair)
哈哈！

好啦！I'M READY TO GO! 

祝我面试成功！尽快找到工作！ 

加油！ 加油！ 加油！

Milestone Achieve!

Milestone achieved! 2 years of hardwork & I'm proud that I've come this far. A big THANK YOU to those who have been supporting me during my difficult times. ❤

That's me preparation for the ceremony. (: 

And here I am receiving my cert on stage ....

WOOOHOOO! 
I received my Bachelor of Commerce, Double majors in Hospitality in Tourism Management & Marketing!  

I was filled with emotions during the ceremony. Words can't describe the joy that I had on that day. That feeling was AWESOME! 

And yes! I can finally bid Goodbye to Kaplan & not going back again. Haha! 

During this 2 years of education, I'm thankful for the wonderful memories I had in school with me. I'm also thankful for the great friends that I've known. We've gone through the toughest moment together, rushing through projects one after another & countless of sleepless nights. Well, I wish you all, all the best for the future & let's continue to keep in contact even though we have gone separate ways for now. (: 

The above photo are my wonderful group members for marketing management. We've gone through SHITS together but I'm so proud we have made this far together. ^^Y 

A pity that for the remaining friends that I've known, graduated different dates. Therefore, I only have this photo with me. Heh! 

Okay! School stuffs aside.
Next thing, I would like to show my appreciation to were the people who came for my graduation ceremony! I felt so LOVED when I came out of the hall with my love ones standing in front of me with gifts on hand. 

MWAHHHHHS! Sending you guys big hugs & flying kisses! 

Not forgetting, my only grandma who has been taking care of me since the day I was born. 

I'm so happy that I've made my family proud & I'm so glad for not giving up. Looking how proud my family were, just simply fly me over the moon! It was their strong support that made me come this far. 

They have worked so hard for the past 25 years. Its time for me to do my part, step up to the society & provide them of what they deserve! 

Last but not least, sending my credits to my 24/7 boyfriend who has been there with me regardless rain or shine. Thank you so much for everything baby! 

So, this sums up my university journey. Time to prepare my resume, send it out & get ready to face the corporate world! 

HOLA TO A NEW ENVIRONMENT! 

Till We Ain't Strangers Anymore

Till We Ain't Strangers Anymore
Bon Jovi (Feat. Leanne Rimes)

It might be hard to be lovers
But it's harder to be friends
Baby, pull down the covers
It's time you let me in
Maybe light a couple candles
I'll just go ahead and lock the door
If you just talk to me baby
Till we ain't strangers anymore

Lay your head on my pillow
I sit beside you on the bed
Don't you think its time we say
Some things we haven't said
It ain't too late to get back to that place
Back to where, we thought it was before
Why don't you look at me
Till we ain't strangers anymore

Sometimes it's hard to love me
Sometimes it's hard to love you too
I know it's hard believing
That love can pull us through
It would be so easy
To live your life

With one foot out the door
Just hold me baby
Till we ain't strangers anymore

[Solo]

It's hard to find forgiveness
When we just turn out the light
It's hard to say you're sorry
When you can't tell wrong from right
It would be so easy
To spend your whole damn life
Just keeping score
So let's get down to it baby
There ain't no need to lie

Tell me who you think you see
When you look into my eyes
Lets put our two hearts back together
And we'll leave the broken pieces on the floor
Make love with me baby
Till we ain't strangers anymore

We're not strangers anymore
We're not strangers
We're not strangers anymore

How Ready Are You To Fall In Love Again?

Was reading a post from Elizabeth Marie and I came across this:

Falling in love can be one of the most beautiful experiences we will ever have. But things don’t always work out according to plan. As the glow of your love fades into a distant memory, you might find yourself wondering how you could have been so wrong about love, and how sure are you that you’ve found it again. Letting go isn’t easy, but it may be worth after the pain. Who knows? A better person may appear & bring sparkles to your life once more. 

Below are some ways for those who are healing from a break-up & it tells you that how you've moved on with your past relationship and are ready to fall in love again. 

1. You aren’t constantly asking yourself “What if…” It’s normal to look back on past relationships and briefly wonder what could have been different, but if you find yourself permanently rooted in coulda, woulda, shoulda land, it might be a sign that you aren’t ready to move on. There are always going to be things you wish you could change, but it’s impossible to go back in time. Coming to peace with where you are in life and in love isn’t easy, but it’s worth it to be free from the past.

2. You are totally content on your own. When a relationship ends, a knee jerk reaction is to jump head first into the dating game. Sometimes though, it’s best to hold back. Instead of worrying about how to act on a first date and all the stress that comes with dating, take some time to focus on yourself and regroup. This way, when you do meet someone special, you’ll know you want them simply because they’re awesome, not as a distraction to your broken heart.

3. You are being honest with yourself. You know what one of the worst feelings ever is? Dating a guy who is great/amazing/wonderful…only to know deep down in your heart that you just aren’t over your ex yet. Timing really is everything in this situation-no matter how badly you wish you were further along in the healing process, it can’t be rushed.

4. You are open with friends and family. Sure, you don’t have to tell your inner circle everything, but generally speaking if you feel good about something, you want to share it. Introducing a new love to those who are most important to you solidifies to them that you have moved on-and want them to move forward as well.

5. You aren’t hoping for a reconciliation. Some breakups, specifically divorces, are particularly painful and take a toll on every aspect of your life. Even if the relationship was clearly wrong for you, in the back of your mind you might find yourself wishing you and your ex would get back together because it would just be easier.But if you are truly ready to fall in love again, you won’t give up until you’re free from the past and have broken through to the other side.

**Does it trigger your thoughts after reading? How ready are you now? :) 
"When you meet someone special, you'll know. Because, your heart will beat more rapidly and you'll start to smile for no reason." 

Cheers! 

X.O.X.O 

坚强

在人生之中总会有失败的时刻。把失败当做是学习的过程。把心看得开。累了就休息一下。跌倒了再爬起来。振作起来，展现出全新的自己。献出更坚强的我。

Girlfriends

Finally, I had a whole day out with my girls. Ever since we've graduated from our diploma, our schedules have been hectic. Meeting out has lessen, barely a whole day out like this. Most of the time, it's just a dinner date.

Happy! Happy! 
It was a day well spent! :D

Here's my #ootd for the day.

Haven't been wearing out my black skirt for a long time. Therefore, I decided to wear it today before it collects more dust. Haha! 

Met my ladies at 2plus in the afternoon & had Tim Ho Wan for lunch. 

It's our first time trying their dim sum. Queue wasn't long. 

And I would like to say, "THE FOOOD IS YUMMMY!" 

Baked Char Siew Paus, Glutinous Rice & Ma Lai Gao (Malay Steam Cake) are the MUST TRY items! However, if you are tempted to get the yam sago as dessert, please don't! It was a disappointment. :( Other than that, it was good & I'm bound to return for their dim sum! 

** Rating: 8.5/10 

Had a slow stroll around Town to digest our heavy tummy & then off to Brunetti at Tanglin Mall for some sweet treats! ❤ 

This is one of my fav place for macarons! 

Recommended this place to them here since they like macarons too! 

A pity, Nutella flavor wasn't available & I didn't get to eat salted caramel too. Boohoo :'( BUT! It's alright! Because I get to tried other flavors too! ((: 

Passion Fruit, Mango, Chocolate, Espresso, Rasberry. 

YUMS! Total satisfaction! 满足感 deep deep! :P 

And here's their ice-cream corner. Many varieties for you to choose. 

A pity that the 3 of us were too full for it. Gotta skip it. :(

Till next time! (: 

The 3 of us spent weee hours in Brunetti. Had our girl talks as usual & I came to realize, how much have we grown since primary school till now. Friends for a decade & even more. Topics have begin to mature, where we began to start having conversations about life, future, career, etc. It changed. Well, it's just signs that we are all getting older. Haha! 

Done with the sweet treats, next stop, recommended California Pizza to them at Forum Shopping Mall. 

Mouth-watering eh? Hehe! 

Mushroom Soup, Caesar Salad & Peking Duck Pizza. 

Nomz Nomz Nomz all the way!! 

This is one of my favorite place for pizza dine-in. The other location will be at Peperoni Pizzeria (Les Amis). 

To rate this, this gotta be 9/10. 

After the heavy indulgence for the entire day, walking is a MUST to reduce our sins! HAHAHA!
Last destination for the night: Esplanade. 

Just in time, we manage to catch the laser show as well. 

Strong breeze, good seats, beautiful scenery, great company, ends the perfect evening! 

Got home & see whats on my table!

Hooooray! 

My hellokitty screen protector which I've ordered from Ebay has arrived! It was quicker than I thought! The delivery came 1 week earlier than I expected. Awesome! 

LOVES ❤

A Happy Wednesday indeed! (: 

There's A Place For Us - Carrie Underwood

"There's A Place For Us" 

Carrie Underwood 

There's a place out there for us
More than just a prayer or anything you've ever dreamed of.
So when you feel like giving up
Cause you don't fit in down here
Fear is crashing in, close your eyes and take my hand yeah.

We can be the kings and queens of anything if we believe.
It's written in the stars that shine above
A world where you and I belong
Where faith and love will keep us strong
Exactly who we are is just enough
There's a place for us, there's a place for us.

When the water meets the sky
Where your heart is free and hope comes back to life
When these broken hands are whole again
We'll find what we've been waiting for
We were made for so much more

We can be the kings and queens of anything if we believe.
It's written in the stars that shine above
A world where you and I belong
Where faith and love will keep us strong
Exactly who we are is just enough
There's a place for us, there's a place for us

So hold on, hold on
There's a place for us

We can be the kings and queens of anything if we believe.
It's written in the stars that shine above
A world where you and I belong
Where faith and love will keep us strong
Exactly who we are is just enough
Exactly who we are is just enough
There's a place for us

Bring Me The Night - Sam Tsui & Kina Grannis

"Bring Me The Night"
Sam Tsui (feat. Kina Grannis)

Measuring days in the spaces between our goodbyes
Learning to wait through the endless parade
Of our same old see-you-next-time's
But when I close my eyes, the miles melt away
Like you're here in my arms at the end of the day

So bring me the night, send out the stars
Cause when I'm dreaming we don't seem so far
Darken the sky, and light up the moon
So that somehow you'll be here with me soon
Bring me the night
Bring me the night
That brings me to you
You

Swear I don't know if the days are as slow as they seem
Wondering when you'll be with me again and this
Finally can be more than just a dream
But when I close my eyes, I want only to stay
Where the farthest you are is a heartbeat away

So bring me the night, send out the stars
Cause when I'm dreaming we don't seem so far
Darken the sky, and light up the moon
So that somehow you'll be here with me soon
Bring me the night
Bring me the night
That brings me to you

And it's enough, knowing you are calling to me
While we're dreaming beneath the same moon
All it takes is imagining you so that I can get through
One more long and lonely day

So bring the night, tell me it's near
Give me the chance to to pretend to you're here
Darken the sky and light up the moon,
Please bring it soon

So bring me the night, send out the stars
Cause when I'm dreaming we don't seem so far
Darken the sky, and light up the moon
So that somehow you'll be here with me soon
Bring me the night,
Bring me the night,
Bring me the night,
Bring me the night
That brings me to you

Exam

Wake up. Eat. Study. Sleep.
Here's my daily routine now for this entire week. Grounding myself at home, mugging hard for my exam.

I'm a practical person, never a person who does well for theory.
Therefore, I never like exams, never LOOOOVE it.
That stress & tension that occurs inside you, whooosh! Can simply drive you nuts!

To lighten my mood a little, I pop some petit plus cheese flavor snack to ease my hungry growling stomach. This is my all time favorite snack! Once you put that ONE biscuit in your mouth, you never wanna stop. Hehehe! Love it! ❤

Go try if you have not!
Trust me, you will fall in love with this snack! Especially for those who are cheese lovers!
Alright, back to mugging for now till Sat!
All the best to me for my paper! (:

CHAOS! 
x.o.x.o

Bonding with Lovelle

Gonna miss this naughty babe when her mummy returns from her vacation tomorrow. During this 10 days with her as a role of an aunt has become a routine for me & I've grown so attached to her. Checking her from morning to night, carrying her & patting her to sleep, making sure that she sleeps well. Changing shifts with Grandma, taking turns to look after this naughty babe. The moment I woke up from my sleep, the first thing I would do is to walk out of my room and look for her. This little princess of ours has indeed liven up our house with her excited & happy screams during play time, cranky cries, hungry cries, attention craving cries to be carried, adorable big smiles that melt our hearts during chat time, and her superb acting skill when she pretends to be sleepy so that she gets to be carried & rocked to sleep but end up with big big eyes looking innocently at us. Will definitely be missing her noise till the end of the month. (:

Looking after her has made me realize it's indeed not an easy task to look after a baby (feeding her every 3 hours, change diapers, bathe her, attend to her needs, etc.). But watching her growing healthily, being happy is what all parents would wish for for their child. All the exhaustion that you had will naturally go away. And during this journey with your child, you will graudally learn & begin to appreciate your parents more for all the efforts they have done looking after you.

So, start showing your appreciation to your parents, show them your love to them & spend as much time as you can if you have not. Don't regret when it's too late.

x.o.x.o 
Words from her aunt (姑姑) ❤

3.5 months old Lovelle 

Finger linking good! 

Cheeky Girl :P 

Change in Hairstyle

For 5 years, I've been having straight hair with bangs like this...

Because of my thick hair, I perspire & get sticky easily which made me very uncomfortable most of the time. As a result, the 'hair-conscious-me' had to tie my hair up no matter what. I'm very picky when it comes to my hair and I get very annoyed easily when my hair is in a mess. 

Yes! yes! yes!, I'm a hair neat freak! Hahahaha! Usually, I would tie my hair like this most of the time. 

Most of you should know as I always take photos in this hairstyle. I guess, you guys are tired of seeing this hairstyle too right?

Well, well..... 

You know what? Gerry is finally going for a change!

#Likefinally (-_-)

 But she is still deciding. 

I was playing around with my hair after I got home from dinner. 

After messing and changing sides of my parting, then I went O.O! Not bad! Then I start researching what kind of change should I go for. 

Perms? 

Waves? 

How about these? 

Aren't they pretty? I probably should start saving money to have those waves. Oh $$$$. 

Should I? 

And then I saw this pretty hairstyle! ❤______❤

Thinking.... thinking.... thinking..... 

Unsolved Riddles

Just when you thought everything have just fall into place....
Everything seems perfect in your eyes.
The uncertainties been raised & you thought it's been cleared.
BUT! when it happens, it collapsed.
And, it's just this "ONE THING" that hurts & its exhausting you out so much.
It replays all over again.
So, it was never solved. Never been solved.

Maybe I'll just have to give up ONE to put this to an end.

P.S: I wish, this could be over soon.
*** As the rain starts to pour, so are my tears.

A Mother's Love

"A fetus’s home, like a cocoon,

For nine months is in a womb.

And soon it travels in the outer world,

A cranky and tender little baby girl.

Hearing her baby’s cry,

The mother falls at ease and sighs.

She cuddles her child gently,

And the child falls asleep gradually.

Being overwhelmed she begins to weep,

As she watches her little angel sleep,

She is astound by natures grace,

How her flesh and blood she can embrace."
- Zainab Attari

I feel your worries and your concerns. But your daughter is a grown up now.
Let me fall and pick myself up on my own mistakes.

I apologize if I may have said things that are hurtful. 

But those words, weren't meant by heart.

I appreciate all the advises you gave, and how much you've supported me during my difficult times.
But mummy, forgive me. Your daughter is not an expressive person. 

Please put your trust and faith in me.
I'm a grown up now. Let me make my own decisions even if you think I may be wrong at times.
I do know & understand how painful it is to see your own daughter getting hurt.
But if you were to keep protecting with your shields, this daughter of yours will be never able to learn how to stand on her own feet. 

Let her be independent.

Let her grow.

One day, you'll be proud of her.
I love you. 

Future

You'll never see a rainbow after a stormy rain if you keep holding on to your defences too tightly. 

It's time to release & learn how to let it go.

Open up. 

Don't let the past haunt you down. 

The future, can be beautiful too. 

Time

现在的我，终于找回了自己。
谢谢，让我认识了你。

I believe, time will take my fears away.
To the day when I'm able take a step forward,
Make my jump to leap of faith to where we want it to be.

Time will tell...

Additional 3 more months

Results are released. Checked!
Stared at the screen, stone for a few mins, not knowing what to do or how should I react to it.
No, I did not do well. Not making it for one module is just too depressing especially when this trimester is suppose to be my last. I looked forward to grad, so much! No one knows.

So for now, instead of graduating in Aug, its been extended to Dec (additional of 3 more months). I will work doubly hard for it. No more failing! I've fallen & I won't allow myself to fall again.

JIAYOU GERRY! (: