`` Mentality ill.

I thought I was ready. I thought things were improving. I thought I was stronger.

But everything of what I've thought, turned out to be an ultimate wrong mind-set!

Lying on the bed at night & fears start coming by.

I couldn't control what my mind was thinking, it just happen all over again.

To test on my bravery was a sign of stupidity. I was just being a smart alec. I failed - badly!

At the very end, I can only blame myself for causing this.

"You expected what the scenes are like. You truly know your phobia you had over the years. Yet despite all the warning signs, you didn't care at all. You went ahead thinking that you will be fine. And now that you've watched. So what if the show was nice? Just look at what you've done to yourself! You deserve this."

I hated it so much, the mental torture was unbearable. Who likes those bad feelings anyway. But hey! Though I may have been blaming myself umpteen times of what I've created, I'm not regretting it. At the very least I know, where have I been standing all along. So, no matter how many times I fall, I will still continue to try. And as I'm trying, please grant me the strength to carry on.

`` Black Swan.

Caught the movie "Black Swan" with dearie today.

Though it's not my cup of tea. But this movie is an eye opening one!

Go catch it even if you have not done so. (:

" Fears will definitely come rolling after you when you want to make things perfect. But in order to conquer the Black Swan, you'll have to first conquer yourself ; the enemy. Don't let them destroy you."

`` Piano & Impressario Semi-Finals.

Simply love these two bunches ladies ♥

I started with them, I learnt with them & I enjoyed my class with them.

The room would be so dead/lifeless if there wasn't us. OPPS ! =X

And to the matter of fact, Xing always vomits blood whenever he teaches us. hehehhe!

I'm working hard for piano right now. Hoping the day when I can 自弹自唱 & create a cover of my own. To me, is an enjoyment!

Afterwhich, headed to IMM immediately to support Simpli5 & Miaoru's Impressario Semi-Finals.

A pity that we couldn't make it in time.

But base from Miaoru's camera which I had seen & listened, both Simpli5 & Miaoru did well though.

Stayed with them till the results were out. It was a real pity that they didnt made it to the Finals. Though disappointing & knowing that it was a "kay-long" one. I believe that, to them.. It's not about winning as a priority. Instead, it was the learning process & the experience they had.

Awaiting for Zach's photos to be out.

Looking at his lens & the effect it turned out, I think it's also time for me to get one too.

Bahahahs! :P

`` Peng San ~

First day of work, came home with a very bad cough.

Honestly speaking, I had no idea how did it happen.

Initially, I though I was recovering. But that proves me wrong when I was home.

I was down with ...

BAD BAD BAD COUGH !!! >.<

I couldn't get to sleep.

Gradually, I was down with fever as well.

Now my voice has returned to where it sounds when I was ill a week ago.

DEEEP & IT GOES LOW low low low low ~~

BAHHHS !

My body has "peng san"

Couldn't tahan anymore. Headed to the doctor as I wanna get myself cured.

This time, no more mom's prescription but a real doctor's prescription!

These medications are gonna last me for the next 5 days.

Hopefully I'll be well by then. (:

｀ 兔年行大运！

“ 新的一年，

新的到来。

祝福大家。。。

心想事成,

身体健康，

万事顺利,

财源广进 ，

好运当头！

大(DUA) HUAT AHHHHH !!”

Chinese new year has always been my favorite event of the year.

It brightens up the mood of everywhere.

You see your family members getting together.

This has always been the best time of the year!

2011's CNY is a long holiday for everyone for us.

5 weeks of break from work.

It's been awhile since I felt so relax. =D

Here's my dressing for the past 5 days....

DAY 1

RED NAILS, RED FEET, ALL READY FOR THE NEW YEAR !

DAY 2

DAY 3

DAY 4

Getting tired of my faces uhhs?

More to come for the upcoming posts. =S

Alrights! Enough of clothings, now comes the main part for the new year.

DECORATIONS !!

NOT TOO MUCH OF IT, JUST SIMPLE ONES

PREPARING LOTS OF ANG BAOS FOR MY PARENTS

KNOWING THAT ALL FOOD STALLS FOR BE CLOSE FOR CNY, HERE'S MY FIRST BREAKFAST : "PANDAN CAKE"

FINALLY A PROPER WATCH FOR MYSELF

MOM & I DID THIS TOGETHER OUT OF FUN.

(But I'm not really sure if this is correct, when mom insist that it is. haha! it looks weird somewhere.)

WEARING THESE RINGS EVERY CNY, ALWAYS REMIND ME OF MY GRANDPARENTS

Every first day of chinese new year, our first stop will always be at my big uncle's place. To pray to our ancestors, including my grandparents as well. Whenever there's big occassions like this, my uncle would always cook big feast for us. And I've always love his cooking since young. It's the best! Why? Becoz' its home cook !! That's the reason why I've always love home cook food all along. The love & warmth, the taste of it tasted so special that it can never be found outside. Not even those hawker stalls. (:

THIS YEAR MEAL, "MEE SUA" =D

More to come for the new year!

Spending these special occasions wisely & loving every single day spent.

Though tiring, but I'm enjoying the company of everyone. (: