Wednesday, August 30, 2006

*_eng.prelim.paper_*

had prelim paper todae. woke up 530am to revise the format. was damn tired ytd after surpporting moii bro's contest. things didnt turn out well. bud they got 2nd. its quite a gd result lo. hee ! well, its just a game. so yup ! just haf fun barhs. wad is over is over le. no point broading over it. bud its a pity dat they didnt won though they shld haf too.

to nic jie : dun b sad or angry anymore okays ? dis is just a contest. take it easy ! all ur hard work haven gone to waste. u still haf ROM to work on. jia you !! =)). in our heart. two of u are our winners le.

eng paper 1 was tougher than paper 2 manx. i did recounts qns. as usual.
QN 3 : write about an occasion when the stress of living in a modern city drives a person over the edge.

i guess i did a gd choice barhs. then section B was writing abt a newspaper article. imagining urself as a student. recruiting native speakers over to singapore to teach us. isit a gd choice. well, think it is barhs.

next, paper 2 , was quite okay. finished just in time. yups ! so all i can say is dat i am praying hard dat i am able to pass moii eng !! i am realli praying hard. wishing so dat i can make it.

todae in sch was kinda slack. we onli haf lesson during chemistry and dats all. wahhas ! was crapping in class and all dat. being beaten by JESSICA !! arghs ! moii hand is still red larhs. thanks to u manx ! ask me run away still holding me. haiyoos ! bud its so funni . arhs !

tml gonna haf teacher's day celebration. its moii last yr celebration teacher's day in STC. i am going to miss the days wid the teachers manx ! i will miss all of them ! whee ! i guess its gonna b a fun day tml especially during ACES exercise ! our dance. haha . i wld try to video it down if i can barhs. hopefully ! pray hard ehhs ?

will update abt tml..........

Monday, August 28, 2006

*_being.bullied_*

can u tell me wad wrong haf i done todae ? why am i being disturbed by almost everyone ? is either being poked, playing of moii hair, "suan-ing" moii etc...

moii clique and "four-eyes" gang especially have been disturbing throughout the day. haiyOOs ! bud i have so much fun. hee hee ! i was actually too tired to take revenge. i was stoning during ss lessons. sandy got fed-up when talking to moii cos i wasnt listening to her wad she talked abt. even if i heard, i didnt actually ans her qns. she got so fed-up dat she decided not to talk to me eventually. hahs ! sorry arhs ! i am realli blur todae. i ans her the wrong ans also. whoa !

have so much fun todae in sch. i just love moii frens to bitx. enjoyed pe lessons todae. we did the fushion dance as well as the syf dance wid the pong pong ! the pong pongs are so ticklish when they get near to u. each person got one. we are surpposed to haf two. bud becos short of pong pong so make it one instead. the pongs pongs are in pathetic state i shld say. becos the strings are getting lesser. we are preparing these dance is for teacher's day celebration. whole sch gonna dance for aces day as well. instead of doing that singapore work-out which is so "lao tu".. u noe ? now is in the 21 century. so must change lehs ! hee ! must b MODERN !! lolls !

sadly moii clique not going sch. cos they find it boring. i shall be a kind soul and accompany sandy. cheryl most prob going sch also barhs. dis is moii last yr celebrating teacher's day in dis sch. so i die die also wanna go. zhen she bu de ! sobs ! just cant wait the day, thurs to arrive. cos we were just gonna haf so much fun.

i wanted so much to take video of it when we are dancing. cos its just so funny and memorable. however, everyone has to do it. bud i will try moii best to take if i can barhs. to make as rememberance. take pics wid moii class and teachers. arhhhhhs !!

i guess everyone is gonna eye on bw when she danced. its realli "pei fu". she can shake so well manx ! when everyone was doing the ending move. our eyes will just move to her. and see her dance. and after seeing it. u will hear laughther and even worse may just roll on the floor and laugh. hahs ! omg ! we sound so bad.

during recess and after sch, moii frens started to ask me abt moii love life. hahs ! and gen was like saying " pls treat ur bf well. cos i noe u will abuse him". i was like, "huh ? since when ". hahs ! i mayb violent in sch bud i am a gentle gurl .. omg ! do u feel like vomitting blood. if u do just do so. cos i admit i am being thick skin which i always will. hahs ! well, all i can say is dat i love moii love life now. and i am realli fortunate to ve him by my side. =))

lit lesson was basically slacking like crazy cos we finished our work fast. heh heh ! dis is the last lesson of lit le. den will go for prelims liaos. finish class at 3.15pm den go hm ! yays ! i haf to run away frm minnie and gen. haf no idea why do they keep on disturbing me for no reasons. arghs !! nvm ! wo ren !!!

went back hm wid jia en. she was actually thinking wad to buy for calvin. hahs ! in the end, i help her think liaos. so u must thank me okays ?! i spend moii time thinking when i was bathing...at home.. i sacrifice abit of moii study time. wahhs ! sound so wei da. bud acutally i am just being "kua zhang". in the bus ask me. when i reached hm, she call me. we were planning for his present.

calvin ! u shld feel touched hors ?! hahs ! 2 gurls are planning wad to get for u for teachers day. bud most of the credit shld goes to jia en. =P .

tml is the finals of kor kor and nicole jie for the contest. hopefully they will win manx ! i gib them all moii support ! moii family will b there. 7pm the voting will start. feel free to go and support them okays ? it is located near carrefour there. =)

okays ! gonna watch tv now. the time now is 8pm. ta-ta !

Saturday, August 26, 2006

*_cousiN wk_*

was reading ah ma and marmie's blog. was wondering...why is like almost everyone around moii seems to b moody. issit becos prelims are coming. and they are feeling too stress ? or wadd ? sometimes i just dun get it. all i can say is dat.
gurls ! take one step at a time okays ? seeing u all like dat also makes me sad. cheer up soon ! anything dun keep within urself. wadever happens i will always stay wid u gurls. just gib me a ring. i will b there. i may not b a gd counsellor bud i will try moii best to help. its okay if u dun wanna tell me ur probs. i wont force u gurls. bud if u nd me one day just gib me a ring.

to ah ma : sry dat i always shi yue ! cos i realli dun mean it. it just happen dat surpposingly dat van didnt wan to stay. bud last min she decided to cos she was feeling very tired. and she wanted to watch the jin san shun. most prob she will stay till night and i cant just abandon her at home yup ? even if i do, i cant bring the present home too wad. all i can say is dat i am realli sorry. i cant make up moii mind at times. i promise u dat there wldnt b a next time unless something crops up yup ? wo bu huei gen ni shi yue le. yuan liang wo barh !!!!!!!! boohooos ~!

ok wad i wanna sae i sae le. dats all i wanna sae to u gurls barhs. just hope dat u gurls feel better.

went out ytd wid van to find her clothes for prom on mon. she surppose to buy jacket actually. bud in the end she bought the dress. yups ! went to fareast to buy. the dress looks gd on her man ! did the right choice. wahs ! i sound like those image consultant manx. still must help her find necklace. whaaha ! nvm. i dun mind helping though. u see, once u help ppl u will just feel so ease and contented. agree ? U OWE ME MONEY GURL !!!!

basically ytd night during our outing, we were crapping most of the time. and i irritated her so much dat she wanted to punch moii face. cos she was feeling so tired after exercising. and i made her walked to the further bus stop instead of the nearer one. wahhahas ! look how black-hearted am i ? hohohos !

todae was moii working day. bud we slept till 12pm. dis cousin of mine. i cant slp in peace ! bud i haf to wake up le larhs. so shld thank her for DISTURBING moii PRECIOUS sleep. lolls ! throwing pillow and soft toys at me. moutain on moii face. yups ! after eating, went to bathe and then i did moii hmwork ! hardworking hors ?

wads ms wee doing while i was doing moii work ? she was happily surfing for dieting stuff. and exercising stuff. let me listen to mr brown stories. its so lame and irritating ! heh heh ! now i noe how to loose moii fats le. frm mon onwardds will b moii exercising moment le. every fri will b going swimming and tanning ! whahaha ! i gonna do dat. a brand new healthy me soon ! wait and see. =P

i sound so confident. hmms ! i must do dat. den i wld haf back moii muscles again. den i wld b fit again. den i can enjoy pe again ! yays ! 5plus went down wid wee wee. went to play badminton at moii hse nearby. unfortunately, the wind was too strong den we cant enjoy our game. so we went to the playground. swing ! heh heh ! back to our childhood days. and we were playing some childish stuff. ha ! i just miss moii childhood days. its so fun !

come to think of it. its realli funni dat. as u are getting older, u wish to b younger. b a kid. and just haf fun all the way. b able to dote and all dat. bud when u are young. u wish to b older, able to b doing wad u wan. able to pursue ur dreams and b like adults. earning money. not nagged by parents and all dat. not being scolded or rather being controlled by them. its just seems so weird. lolls !

yays ! dar will b booking out frm camp tml. and i still deciding whether i shld b fetching him though he wants me to. miss him so much. har..i finished most of moi work le. todae able to finish it. hmmms ! shld i ? haven been pei-ing moii baobeii for a long time.

at a later time, moii notti babe baby cousin will b coming ! see how is she le. arhs ! she is just so adorable and i love her to bits. i am waiting for the december baby !!!!! moii first niece. wahs ! sounds so old. gonna become aunty looo ~!

Thursday, August 24, 2006

*_prelim.sci.pract_*

haven been slping well for the past 2 days. haf no idea why also. due to stress i guess ? tml night going out wid ms wee to release all moii stress. most prob going to beach or somewhr whr there is river/sea.

able to feel the breeze, the sound of the waves. arhs ! so shuang ! so, next tyme when u wanna find me whenever i am stress, just go to these places. wahs ! i sound like those drama series like dat.

had science pract prelim todae ! for bio is test on peanuts. haf to find how to test for fats in peanut & for chemistry, are tests for gases, the colour, and the number of drops. i screwed up for chem. i spilled or rather, i actually dropped the whole bottle of solution X. and moii uniform contains dat solution. in the end haf to ask mr tan for another bottle. lolls ! i feel so damn blur and hot la ! cos of the bunsen burner. luckily i tied up moii hair . otherwise i gonna haf waterfall already. its gonna b worse if i dun tie up moii hair.

haish ! the number of drops to for solution p and q to turn pink ? i dun even nOe whether i am right. P is surpposed to b more concentrated and i wrote Q instead of P. haish !!!! i am so screwed up for chem. hopefully i pass la ! otherwise moii dis prelim for science is gonna be so DEAD-ED !!

true ! everyone was so heart-broken after the practical cos its so tough. oh well. prelims marhs. they always set harder everytime. hopefuly 'o' lvl its gonna b easier lors. *pray hard*...

went back wid jia en and we were actually complaining abt the practical and discussing the ans. u noe wad ? i saw moii "botak " todae. onli moii classmates noe who am i refering to ! hee . mOii darling is back in the canteen. bud wonder if it is the one always hanging around at the bus stop everytime. i misses it so much ! =)). bud nvm ! at least it flew to the canteen todae. so happy ! lolls. i am mad ! ok i agree !

i am happy becos i saw botak ! and i am heart-broken becos of moii sci prac. haiash ! wad is over is over barhs. i shall not think further. dun wanna end up moiiself being more stress. tml still got geography test on tourism and map reading.

I AM SO TIRED !!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

*_terrible.headache_*

now i noe the reason why these few days moii temper has been getting frm bad to worse. cos i am pms-ing. lolls ! wad the hell manx. i getting violent these few days. moii frens now also get the ans why was i so moody these few days. why did i threw moii temper on fri as well.

haish ! being a female is so ma fan. always have mood-swings. must gib birth. must haf dat period. arghs ! next time when i re-born iwanna b a guy. no worries. come to think of it. its realli funni. wanna noe why ? guys want to be gurl in their next life and gurls wan to b guy in their next life. its like an exchange. bud of cos ! i am not refering to everyone bud some .

hmms ! being a gurl is a nice thing afterall. oh well. in moi next life. i will let god decide wad wld i b barhs. heh heh ! come to think of it again. its so scary when u enter another world. i cant even dare to imagine dat ! when i leave to another world. wad wld it b ? whr wld i end up to ? arhs ! I DUN WANNA DIE !!

been feeling very tired todae. hafing terrible headache. i didnt haf the mood to talk, to joke or rather to do anything. moii headache is so terrible. no appetite to eat either. when i reached home, ate moii lunch den went online for awhile to check moii email. meanwhile was chatting wid moii mom and moii aunties. heh heh ! instead of chatting wid youngsters online. i chat wid the oldies first. lolls !

and u noe wad ?
having the most beautiful thing in my life is moii mom. moii greatest gift. all the while, she is being there for me. i felt so touched when we were chatting on msn. tears slowly dripping down moii eyes. i felt so wrong.
the past,
how i treated her.
how i threw moii temper & she did not even complained anything. though she always nagged at me and i felt irritated at times. bud i noe she meant well. i felt so fortunate to haf such a wonderful mom. i am one of the luckiest gurl so haf such perfect mom !
i so much wanting to say :
"mummy, i love you ! i will make u proud one day ! i promise ! "

4 pm plus i went to slp. dar called me at 5 plus if i'm not wrong. and i didnt noe wad was i murmuring. hahs ! cos all i care abt is go back to slp. oh shucks ! i hope i didnt say anything wrong la hors ?

thx "brother " ! for calling me to wake me up. actually i was to lazy to wake up to. i am so damn tired ! felt much better after moii nap. studied bio abit den haf dinner. now i am in the rm. feeling so slpy. moii batt is going dead soon. arhhs ! bud i ve to chiong to finish up all moii work ! so tired sia. moii mood now isnt going well either... i need a break soon. sooner or later i wld just break down if these goes on. yikes !

Sunday, August 20, 2006

*_celebratE sim"s bday _*

moii eyes were swollen ytd. i guess i cried to slp ytd. kinda badly and i didnt realli haf a gd slp afterall. oh well !! wasnt realli in a gd mood den.

get rdy, and met sim at bus stop. its our date ! hahas. went to marina to bk tickets and den went to burger king to haf our lunch and study. she wasnt in a gd mood and neither do i. bud i managed to crap some stuffs and make her happy. cos i wanna her to feel happy. its her bday celebration ! keke !!

arhhhhs..! we were so hardworking. darling ask me some qns which she dunno. and i helped her wid it. U BETTER KNOW UR MATHS FOUNDATION WELL !! u noe, sometymes u teach her maths, u can DIE !!

so frm 1pm to 330pm, we studied and den walked around marina. cos she was tired. her eyes are gonna close anytime and mine too. was swollen though. so we went to walk around marina b4 the movie starts. we watched click !

the movie is damn nice and so touched ! it reminds me of the greatest gift in lit bk. its so much like it ! treasure ur family and not to take it for granted. its really a touching story in the end. and i cried. or rather both of us cried ! no surprise anw, cos both of us are emotional. come to think of it, i wonder, why are gurls so emotional unlike guys ? hahs !

whee ! we walked to esplanade and den to clark quey and to coffee bean. was taking photos ! i admit dat i wasnt in the mood to take photos todae. and i am not photogenic todae. lolls ! mayb i am too tired barhss..moii dear darling gen !!! couldnt make it in the end cos she was hosting the jap students wid gwen. lolls ! she pang seh us ! oh well. we were not surprised too. cos we knew her "pattern ". hahs !

was walking to clarkquey along the restaurant area and many of the waiter/waitress keep on approaching us whether we wanna order any food frm them. its so many !! so scary ! we quickly walked away and went to coffee bean to haf our dinner.

omg ! i love the salad dere ! so delicious. i am in love wid it. yummmy ! wanted to plan a surprise for her actually to make her feel happy. bud gen wasnt here so the plan has failed. and i totally forgot abt moii present for her. though i pass it earlier on. wanted to disturb her actually. lolls ! after eating, i went back hm by walking straight to funan centre to take 124 back while she walks back to esplanade to meet her mom.

mOii baObeii is going for his reservist trip tml ! hope he is able to take care of himself tml. and i noe he wld. hee ! won't b contacting him for 3-4 days. will b misshing moii baby loads ! =)). `lubb `euu...muacks !

sry darling sim sim !
didnt accompany u back
though i wanted to cos i was rushing back !
bud anw,
i hope u enjoyed urself okays ?
dun feel angry anymore alright ?
dun forget !
darling is always here for u whenever u needed me !
=)).
hope u lyke the pressie i gave it to u..
hope i get the right one for `euu as well..
hahs !
dun worry !
i didnt gib u money tree.
though u thought it was !
=P..
happie be-lated bday !
`lubb `euu..

i felt much better after enjoying the breeze of the river,
letting all mOii troubles out,
letting all the unhappiness i had.
gOing Out to haf some fresh air,
does makes me feel better.
whenever i am unhappy,
i wld always be..
somewhr..
whr there are river, sea..
cos,
i feel relaxed whenever i am there....
darling, thanx for accompanying me todae too.
now,
i am back to moii happy life.
i wish dis wld stay on forever...........
i wanna lead moii happy life !





Saturday, August 19, 2006

*_PISSED.OFF_*

surpposed to meet ms wee the da xiao jie..lolls ! when i prepared, everything rdy, lucky i was online. saw justin online. and checked out wid him c if she is rdy. never did i noe that she was still slp. and he is proud to say dat. lolls ! when he told me dat she said she wasnt going out. i was like wth ? den she msg me and said she is not meeting me already as she doesnt haf the $$ to go out. i was like ?! i knew it ! cos i bet wid her dat she may last min back-out. and its so true. hahs !

haish ! i do everything nice nice le. den say don wan go out. so wo zhi hao stay at hm for the moment first lors. called sim whether she is going out. cos she said she wanna go out and study. budden i rejected ytd cos i meeting ms wee marhs. when i caleld her, she said she is going out wid her family. asked me if i wanna go along. i rather not. feel so extra. better not b extra ehhs ? keke !

den msg dar. if he was free. cos he also asked me ytd. bud too bad he got st.john stuffs to settle. so forget abt it lors. just nice moii 2 "brothers" ask me whether wanna meet them. bud i rejected them eventually. cos moii mom asked me to go out wid her to check out some stuffs. pei mama more impt hors ? see i am so fillial. sry brothers !

took 131 and walk to city hall mrt station. saw moii sch students.all moii juniors. hahs ! i donated to help them.

one of them asked me: "are u frm STC ?"
me: yea !
her : cool ! haf u graduated ?
me: no. still studying in sch .
her : cool
her : thank you !
me : thanks ! bye ! =))

moii mom was seeing all the stc gurls doing the redcross flag day. see all ur shi mei. i was like. yayayayayay ! went to buy sim's pressie. den was looking the stuffs she wants. and also went to hp shop ! singtel. heh heh ! saw the N80 phone. i am so in love wid that phone la !! was hafing promotion. and moii mom was actually considering abt it. N80 for $498 + 6280 free. its worth it doesnt it ?

haish ! i shall not pin so much hope for it. who knows moii mom may changed her mind anytime. moreover, she wont spend so much money on phone. will see how barhs. hopefully she wld get one. oh well ! pray hard !

went to bm after dat..den went to hse coffee shop to buy food for moii bro. and i saw mr sng ! at first i wasnt sure whether it was him. cos he was carrying his baby. i was thinking. this guy looks so much like him and he told us b4 his wife gave birth le. and its true its him !

moii mom ruined everything ! i wanted to say hi to him bud was afraid he cant recognised me ! so i decided not to for the moment until i collected the food. moii mom happily talked so loud asking mr sng to b moii tuition teacher and all dat. ! he can hear everything ! i was so damn malu. i was so damn pissed off ! its not onli dis la. she talked somemore abt him. and we were just beside him. she say she wouldnt even hear. mr sng's ear is very sharp !

i seriously so pissed off !!!!!!!! wanted to say hi till i dun even dare to at all ! i walked away frm him. i realli dun dare to face him in the end. i sprint. u noe? when i was pissed off. i tend to wlk very fast. sometimes i may even run ! i wont even feel tired at all.

reached home. i was actually throwing moii temper. thinking of dat situation is realli damn pissed off ! arghs ! qi si wo le !! moii fav teacher. in front of moii fav teacher !!!!!!!!!!?? she did dis... u dun nd face ! i nd face the la ! all along, i am a person who "ai mian zi " ...i just don like to lose face in front of a person i know. `euu noe ? nvm if u dun understand. i understand jiu gou le !

arghhhhs !!!!! realli cant stand it !! I CANT STAND IT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PISSED OFF !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, August 18, 2006

*_oral.exams_*

3 things occured in one day. whoas ! dats quite alot ehhs ? i dunno. many things happen todae to mOii. well. had a mini argument wid shi hui todae. den, maths tests, first impression talk and eng oral.

wonder which shld i start first ?
okay. i shall start beginning during recess till dat barhs. alright ?

the problem goes like dis..
shi hui was actually suggesting dat the both of us to sit wid cheryl. ok lors. so, they shift to the right more. so dat the both of us can join in. i wanted to sit wid cheryl and shi hui sitting beside me as me and shi hui will fight when we write. she insist on sitting wid cheryl. she wants to be in the middle. cant she understand dat we will fight when we write ? den i was like. ok lor! fine ! den i sit wid lee shan lors. and she doesnt wan. she wants to sit wid me. cos she was afraid dat no one will talk to her. in moii mind i was like come-on larhs. cheryl will still talk to u and all dat wad. u dun ve to stick to me sometimes.

i beginning to feel fed-up. becos i had enough. and i said "its either u sit in the corner or we both dun join table and sit behind. okays ? its ur choice. i go toilet. i gib u think. when i am back. u decide barhs and let me noe. "

when i'm back. moii table was at the corner and her table was beside cheryl. i had enough !! i simply had enough. arghs ! i was realli boiling mad. i push moii table behind. bang here and there. i was like " cant u just understand the fact that we will fight ?! " think of others as well la ! she kept quiet. i dun wanna shout anymore and create more trouble. enough is enough. den i just push moii table beside her. and sit down. i shouted "sit la ! why are u standing ? " she kept quiet again.

she was saying "nvm. i shall sit alone behind". in moii mind. i dun wan her to b alone. i dun wan her to feel sad as well. so i let her and let her sat beside cheryl lors. haish ! nvm. i walked out of the classrm and went for maths lesson. nana was actually trying to cool me down.

i asked her : do i look very scary just now ?
her : yup ! very scary .

i was like omg ! dis is moii first time loosing moii temper in class la. seriously. everyone has a limit. once u go overboard, u wld tend to loose ur temper right ? isnt dat so. for 5 yrs already leh. been frens for 5 yrs already. wadever her attitude is. i already controlled till now. i just dun wanna make moii frens unhappy la. seriously. bud, it has just reached moii limit. and i just had no choice bud to realli loose moii temper.

had maths tests. some of the qns was kinda tough and tricky ! didnt haf the time to do finish. especially the graph. arhs ! time management i must train myself. in the end i gave up and hand up the maths paper. whoa ! why is teacher setting so hard manx ?! trained ourselves up ? mayb. den during prelims and 'o's we can do well. heheheheh ! i agree on dat !

after maths, went back to class. she was crying telling cheryl dat cheryl wants me to sit wid her. which is not true. god punished her for sitting alone. dats simply not true at all. i noe wads her attitude like. so i just left her alone. not talking to her till oral ends. i just nd some time to cool down also.

had assembly talk abt images. like how u dress, make-up and all dat for ur graduation ceremony. its interesting. they are frm first impression. its so interesting hearing them talk. too bad we had to leave for our orals preparation. so sad haf to leave ! =(

went down . shi hui wanted to eat cos she was afraid of getting gastric during examination. she went off. and i was suggesting one of them to follow her cos i dun wan her to b alone. come to think of it. am i actually being too nice ? i guess i was overly concern for her barhs. cos i noe her well i guess. bud luckily minnie's clique was there. msg jess actually. so yups ! lucky she wasnt alone afterall.

me, sandy, cheryl, nana and moon went to toilet outside to haf a gd chat. talking all the craps. den mrs chua came. chat for awhile. and here comes the oral exams.

moii god ! i am so damn nervous. i was the 2nd one. the whole topic was abt friendship and studies. the pict description. i wonder if the examiners did hear wad i was talking ? dey were asking the qns which i already said them out. hahas ! bud nvm larhs. conversation was quite ok. i manage to talk alot. hee ! was quite satisfied abt it. cos i made moii stand. keke !

waited 1 hr for dat ah ma ! she is so slow. surpposed to meet wee wee todae. and she said she was too tired to go out. so meet her tml instead. and i saw shi hui. yups ! and we started talking. things were back to normal. she told me she was just testing moii reaction. in moii mind i was like wth ?! i just kept quiet. gib her the guai lan look. hahs ! we were talking abt the oral stuffs. went upstairs together to see who has finished. found cheryl outside library toilet. shi hui went to toilet. she was actually asking me. "didnt u two quarrelled just now ". oh well ! everything is fine now. yups ?! i dun wanna blow up the matter and b a petty woman also. its just a small matter onli .

on mon, haf to think how to sit manx ! i will b sitting beside cheryl. den dat woman go sit whr ? unless i sit behind wid her again lors. keke ! i shall b a kind soul ! wahahaha ! the 3 of us waited for the rest.

1 hr..!! 1 hr..!! jia en is finally out. omg !! i think more than a hr lehs ! so lonng. went back wid priya and her. walk talking abt oral till home. haiyOOs..

went back home bathe. den went out to buy dinner wid nicole jie. she was talking to me abt her slimming programme and all dat. moii god ! its such torturing la ! poor gal haf to suffer like hell. dis cannot eat dat canno eat. its also harming ur body health also. she vomitted somemore as she cant take it. yikes ! going on diet arhs. realli haf to suffer alot. haf to think twice okays ? bud if yea wana realli look good. den no choice larhs. hahs ! chatted so much todae wid her.

bud reallii think abt slimming arhs ! reali very scary lehs. must suffer like hell. to maintain a nice figure. tsk tsk tsk !! had dinner. they went out. me and moii dad left at hm. mama went mj wid her frens.

i am so tired !! moii eyes are closing anytime. sry if i didnt write properly todae. hahas ! i am too tired to think liaos.

*_oral.exams_*

3 things occured in one day. whoas ! dats quite alot ehhs ? i dunno. many things happen todae to mOii. well. had a mini argument wid shi hui todae. den, maths tests, first impression talk and eng oral.

wonder which shld i start first ?
okay. i shall start beginning during recess till dat barhs. alright ?

the problem goes like dis..
shi hui was actually suggesting dat the both of us to sit wid cheryl. ok lors. so, they shift to the right more. so dat the both of us can join in. i wanted to sit wid cheryl and shi hui sitting beside me as me and shi hui will fight when we write. she insist on sitting wid cheryl. she wants to be in the middle. cant she understand dat we will fight when we write ? den i was like. ok lor! fine ! den i sit wid lee shan lors. and she doesnt wan. she wants to sit wid me. cos she was afraid dat no one will talk to her. in moii mind i was like come-on larhs. cheryl will still talk to u and all dat wad. u dun ve to stick to me sometimes.

i beginning to feel fed-up. becos i had enough. and i said "its either u sit in the corner or we both dun join table and sit behind. okays ? its ur choice. i go toilet. i gib u think. when i am back. u decide barhs and let me noe. "

when i'm back. moii table was at the corner and her table was beside cheryl. i had enough !! i simply had enough. arghs ! i was realli boiling mad. i push moii table behind. bang here and there. i was like " cant u just understand the fact that we will fight ?! " think of others as well la ! she kept quiet. i dun wanna shout anymore and create more trouble. enough is enough. den i just push moii table beside her. and sit down. i shouted "sit la ! why are u standing ? " she kept quiet again.

she was saying "nvm. i shall sit alone behind". in moii mind. i dun wan her to b alone. i dun wan her to feel sad as well. so i let her and let her sat beside cheryl lors. haish ! nvm. i walked out of the classrm and went for maths lesson. nana was actually trying to cool me down.

i asked her : do i look very scary just now ?
her : yup ! very scary .

i was like omg ! dis is moii first time loosing moii temper in class la. seriously. everyone has a limit. once u go overboard, u wld tend to loose ur temper right ? isnt dat so. for 5 yrs already leh. been frens for 5 yrs already. wadever her attitude is. i already controlled till now. i just dun wanna make moii frens unhappy la. seriously. bud, it has just reached moii limit. and i just had no choice bud to realli loose moii temper.

had maths tests. some of the qns was kinda tough and tricky ! didnt haf the time to do finish. especially the graph. arhs ! time management i must train myself. in the end i gave up and hand up the maths paper. whoa ! why is teacher setting so hard manx ?! trained ourselves up ? mayb. den during prelims and 'o's we can do well. heheheheh ! i agree on dat !

after maths, went back to class. she was crying telling cheryl dat cheryl wants me to sit wid her. which is not true. god punished her for sitting alone. dats simply not true at all. i noe wads her attitude like. so i just left her alone. not talking to her till oral ends. i just nd some time to cool down also.

had assembly talk abt images. like how u dress, make-up and all dat for ur graduation ceremony. its interesting. they are frm first impression. its so interesting hearing them talk. too bad we had to leave for our orals preparation. so sad haf to leave ! =(

went down . shi hui wanted to eat cos she was afraid of getting gastric during examination. she went off. and i was suggesting one of them to follow her cos i dun wan her to b alone. come to think of it. am i actually being too nice ? i guess i was overly concern for her barhs. cos i noe her well i guess. bud luckily minnie's clique was there. msg jess actually. so yups ! lucky she wasnt alone afterall.

me, sandy, cheryl, nana and moon went to toilet outside to haf a gd chat. talking all the craps. den mrs chua came. chat for awhile. and here comes the oral exams.

moii god ! i am so damn nervous. i was the 2nd one. the whole topic was abt friendship and studies. the pict description. i wonder if the examiners did hear wad i was talking ? dey were asking the qns which i already said them out. hahas ! bud nvm larhs. conversation was quite ok. i manage to talk alot. hee ! was quite satisfied abt it. cos i made moii stand. keke !

waited 1 hr for dat ah ma ! she is so slow. surpposed to meet wee wee todae. and she said she was too tired to go out. so meet her tml instead. and i saw shi hui. yups ! and we started talking. things were back to normal. she told me she was just testing moii reaction. in moii mind i was like wth ?! i just kept quiet. gib her the guai lan look. hahs ! we were talking abt the oral stuffs. went upstairs together to see who has finished. found cheryl outside library toilet. shi hui went to toilet. she was actually asking me. "didnt u two quarrelled just now ". oh well ! everything is fine now. yups ?! i dun wanna blow up the matter and b a petty woman also. its just a small matter onli .

on mon, haf to think how to sit manx ! i will b sitting beside cheryl. den dat woman go sit whr ? unless i sit behind wid her again lors. keke ! i shall b a kind soul ! wahahaha ! the 3 of us waited for the rest.

1 hr..!! 1 hr..!! jia en is finally out. omg !! i think more than a hr lehs ! so lonng. went back wid priya and her. walk talking abt oral till home. haiyOOs..

went back home bathe. den went out to buy dinner wid nicole jie. she was talking to me abt her slimming programme and all dat. moii god ! its such torturing la ! poor gal haf to suffer like hell. dis cannot eat dat canno eat. its also harming ur body health also. she vomitted somemore as she cant take it. yikes ! going on diet arhs. realli haf to suffer alot. haf to think twice okays ? bud if yea wana realli look good. den no choice larhs. hahs ! chatted so much todae wid her.

bud reallii think abt slimming arhs ! reali very scary lehs. must suffer like hell. to maintain a nice figure. tsk tsk tsk !! had dinner. they went out. me and moii dad left at hm. mama went mj wid her frens.

i am so tired !! moii eyes are closing anytime. sry if i didnt write properly todae. hahas ! i am too tired to think liaos.

yays ! dar just called me and told me he gortt 200 dollars cos he gortt full marks for his shooting. and he was actually imagine dat dat was wee wee. and shoot her. i was like yea right ?! u hate her so much arhs ? heh heh ! clap clap for him. gd job ! next mon gonna go for $400. whee ! can i get half ? hahas !! confirm he will say.......its for himelf. self-fish ! =P. i nd so much for wad? hahas ! feel happy for him. and congrats ! =)) <33...!! missing him loads !!

Thursday, August 17, 2006

*_preparation for eng oral tml_*

arhs ! so fast. tml is eng 'o' lvl oral le. somemore i am the 2nd one. omg ! so scary ! facing tml teachers frm other schs. was thinking, wad if the two of them looked very fierce and strict. never smile at all. u may think i am thinking too much. bud the prob is...wad if it is realli the truth ! wont that b facing hell ? hahas ! den frm nervous. become very nervous. when u read, u start stuttering. eeee !

better not look at them better when reading or during picture discussion. otherwise i really going to b gone case. and there goes by oral. i cant afford to fail lehs. one fail moii eng will fail. and there goes moii 'o' lvl. i may ended up no whr but to re-sit. choy !! touch wood.

gonna haf maths test tml also. paper 2. aiyOos. so i ve 2 things to prepare.

these few days i been very tired. moii eyes are closing anytime. and ytd i was actually loosing moii temper any oh how. i guess i ve been too tired. so many work to do. once there is hmwork. one whole pile will come. when there isn't. there realli isnt any . been doing work till midnight plus.

gonna slp early todae so dat tml i can concentrate during moii tests, lessons and oral exams barhs. wish me luck okays ?!
hope it turns well.

oh mOii darling sim sim,
happy 17th bday !
heh heh !
sry arhs.
i cant find the webcam box.
wait till i found it den i pass it to u okays ?
seeing u ..
hafing so many pressie..
makes me jealous...
wahhs !
anw, enjoy ur celebration these two days !
dun forget our date on sun yups ?
<3>
`muacks !

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

*_halfdead_*

was reading jia en's and jess blog. haish ! why did things goes like dis. i noe in sch they may pretend nth has happen. smiling as b4. happily. bud i noe in their heart is actually sinking.

hey gurls !
wad i wanna say i already tagged in ur blog le.
no matter wad.
i will always b here for u gurls.
sometimes its okay if u dun wanna tell me.
i understand how u gurls felt. bud whenever u nd me,
i will always b there for u okays ? *
hugs.
i dun wanna see u gurls so heartbroken.
deep inside ur heart i noe it hurts badly. it takes time to heal.
when u nd a shoulder to cry on,
mine is always here for u.
when u nd someone to talk to,
i am always available.
when u feel lonely and u nd some accompaniment,
just gib me a ring,
i will b there to meet u.
ok gurls ?
just dun wanna see u gurls so solem.
<3 u gurls loads. muacks!

busy day todae. bud i had lots of fun during bio lessons when doing experiment. just love doing experiment manx ! i love chem and bio practical ! its just so fun. minnie and i were actually hafing a fight over the sink. heh heh ! in moii bench. i was actually called a plumber. lols ! whenever the sink got chocked, its always me dealing wid it. yikes ! though its yucky bud no choice la. i dun mind helping though. keke!

after bio lesson, on our way back to class. minnie and jia en were actually playing wid moii pony tail. like i said b4 ! i noe it looks short and cute ! bud u dun ve to always play wid it la ! moii hair messy i very heartpain u noe!? spend so much time tying it. i actually gave up eventually and let them do all they wan bud not so hard. bud they overdo it. and i ran away. hahs ! they were laughing. thanks sandy for saving moii life !! =))..

hmmms !! maths lesson was kinda slack. mr low onli gone thru our maths test correction. fri we are gonna haf paper 2 . which i hate most actually. i love paper 1 more than paper 2. the band 2 and 3 students are having tests. except us the band 1 students being so slacky. bud mr low is gonna find work for us to do tml.

arhhs ! i am feelin so slpy and tired. had accts remedial den oral practise wid mrs shankar. it was so fun la !! we were luffing like hell in the library. mrs shankar too. she cant stand it anymore. all of us burst out of laughter. hahas ! me and sandy were doing picture discussion. den nana joined in too. we were actually crapping alot of stuffs. i can actually said so much u noe ? so many things in moii mind. when i discuss it wid sandy.

till its moii turn wid mrs shankar. moii mind just went blank ! why arhhs ? why issit so ? if not can score great marks le lors. haishyOos. i guess i am nervous la. keep on hesitating. arghs ! must build up moii confidence. it ended abt 430pm. quickly took bus home. bathe and prepare for moii tuition at 6pm.

rush issn't it ? wanting to prepare for moi maths test on fri marhs. no choice. eng 'o' lvl exam oral are reaching on fri too. so haf to prepare alot of stuffs. this wk is gonna b a busy wk !

okays ! gotta finish up moii ss work le. tml must hand in. mr tan wants to mark it. gotta postponed the remedial wid him to thurs le. cos fri got oral. den i had smth on after dat. i wont b able to meet him though. hopefully he wld b available on thurs or tml barhs.

Monday, August 14, 2006

*_pE.phObia_*

yays ! finally uploaded all the pics and resizing them. so many of them. lolls! here it goes. sit back ! relax ! and enjoy seeing the pics.

at hOme,
mOii, jess and en:
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shi hui's perming hair :
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don't u think she looks like the kung fu hustle actress as the wife ? wahahs ! =X

after curl :
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doIng hair-do : moii mom was actually tooking over moii job. busy taking photos. keke!
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before leaving ,
family portrait :
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Part 2 :
in sch auditorium,
mOii and sandy :
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cheryl and her darling[jo] :
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cheryl and ai yue:
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mOii dotters :
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mOii & cheryl :
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mOii and ah ma :
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mOii & mOmmi :
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mOii & xiaomeii:
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mOii and minnie :
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sandy and cheryl :
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mOii and shi hui:
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now, grp photos :
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finally.
moiiself back frm sch :
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that's all. hope u enjoy seeing all the pretty babes. keke !!

last bud not least :
the best couple in 5J ,
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wahhahas! they are going kill me when they see this. bud anyway, not to wory. they are not real couples. they are just posing it for fun ehhs ? dun think y y..=))

sch was actually fun todae. i was dead tired todae. had pe todae. i gonna haf phobia of pe soon. we had captain's ball todae. we were actually the leading team at first. bud eventually we lost in the end. 10-6. arhhs! haf to run for like 4 rounds ? i couldn't take it. vomitted again. this is the 2nd time i took pe. and i vomitted again. yikes ! so afraid of the next pe lesson again man !

after pe, the whole lessons i was actually stoning during lessons. i was so damn tired. i noe i am physically unfit. i haven been exercising for more than 1/2 a yr!! due to moii injury last time. gotta train up moiiself already. moii muscles haf all strink to fats. eeee !! cannot le. i made a decision. after 'o's ! dats it ! moii physically training is going to b like b4. exercising at moii mom office. swimmming, gym, badminton. wadever. trained up moiiself and b fit again !! i wan moii muscles back ! wahahahs.

i somehow miss hafing organ lessons todae. i am so used to going for lessons every mon and now i am at home resting. studying. haish !! i just cant wait for moii 'o's to finish. and i can do wadever things i wan already. how wonderful wld it b ?

i can pursue moii dreams...........

Sunday, August 13, 2006

*_entertainiNg.hp.service_*

okays ! frens been asking me. why didnt i upload pics in moii blog ? i admit..i am too lazy to upload. and it takes alot of tyme. wahahs ! mayb tml i shall upload barhs. not to worry. loads and loads of pics. wahhhs! gonna take centuries of time. lolls!

woke up at 10 am plus. quickly prepare moii stuffs. went to ah pek hse to pray ah gong. todae is his death anniversary. how i wish i cld see him ... i am serious and not joking. how i wish i can personally see him and ah ma. its been 2 yrs i haven been seeing ah gong and 11 yrs i hafen been seeing ah ma..missing them so so much. i jus love ah ma's cooking. her dumplings, curry..yum !!

ah gong used to bring me down to play ground during the evening and also buy me ice-cream..lots of stuff. i still remember the tyme when he catched a rabbit downstairs. he injured his leg so badly. heart so achy ! i adore the rabbit alot.

oh well. dat was in the past. shall not go on further....

hmms !! stayed till abt 3 plus. went home. cos i was bored there. studied abit and went dinner wid sim. cos she said she hafing dinner alone. similar as me. so we went to hf to haf dinner ! had yoshinoya ! yummy ! i dun understand why. these two days. moii appetite been kinda big. haf been eating non-stop. or issit becos i been on diet due to moii dress ? hahas ! bud i admit ! i didnt went on diet. cos i dun !!

after dinner. walked around hf. was kinda bored actually cos dere was nth to shop. decided to enter BIG store. sim was looking thru phones. deciding wad phones to buy. on of the sales man came. i guess he was new cos he didnt even noe the pricing of the phones and the functions as well. the way he talk is so damn funni. he need to ask his fren for help !

den another sales man came. den the main one came ! are we attracting the salesmen to us or wad ? basically almost all are attending to us la ! hahs. one of the salesman was actually attending to sim. and sim is such a fussy pot ! towards phone especially. dis not nice dat not nice. eee!! the function good anot. the memory so little and all dat. the sales man also buay ta han. lolls !!

one thing i actually felt very uncomfortable was one of the salesman at the other corner was actually staring at me. kept on looking. when i was looking at him he turned away and looked back again. yikes !!

when we were abt to leave the place the salesman was actually asking sim,
him : how old are u?
sim: 19
i was like, since when u are 19 yrs old.
him: u dun looked like u are 19 yrs old.
me thinking : she looks younger hors ?
him : u looked more matured. look more around 20 to 21 yrs old.
i was like : huh ?! since when sim going to b aunty already ? hahahs !! =X [sim is going to kill me when she sees dis.]
sim: ohh! no la! i around 19 +
i was like : u 19 den 19 la! still must add the plus meh ? haiyOos..!!

lols !! she left her email on a piece of paper ..
him : wahs! ur handwritting very swee lehs!!
us : hahas !
him : why not u leave ur number also ? den when i send u email i contact u lors.
sim : oh ! moii handphone spoil le. so dats why i need a new phone.
i was like : smart gurl ! was abt to tell u not to gib him.

den bid gdbye and walked off. so entertaining manx ! hahas ! first time we had dis kind of sales service. so friendly. lolls! crap so much somemore. its 9pm ! tyme to go home. tml still got sch...haishhhh !! thinking abt seeing frens. it makes me happy again ! i miss u babes !!

Saturday, August 12, 2006

*_graduation.phOto.taking_*

todae was realli a memorable day. a day once in a life time. heh heh ! graduation photo taking session. these two gurls. sandy and cheryl came to moii hse at 8am plus and dey waited outside. poor thing. cos dey were afraid to go in. they tried calling me for several times bud i didnt ans as i was bathing. hahs ! till moii mom opened the door and found them outside moii hse. lolls !

i went to change. and got into moii white dress. whee !! sandy looks so pretty. haven seen her so pretty b4. so adorable. helped her make-up as well. 9am plus the rest came. 8 of them came to moii hse ok ? lolls ! i said b4 in moii previous entry, wahahas !! it was so messy. rushing here and dere. helping them to put on make up and hair. poor van has to help me out also. perming hair for shi hui and ai yue.. not bad hors ? volunteer service.whr to find such a nice person ? dun nd pay. wahahs !!

moii dad saw us and he was happily taking video cam of us. haiyOos. taking here and there. whee ! 11.15pm. all the white babes went to take bus and went to sch together. it was so funni. and we gain alot of attention ehhs. especially in the bus. omg ! had class photo taking and individual photo taking. took lots of photo. =))

after dat went home to bathe. and change to out wid van to harbour front. she was actually dying to look for blades. both of us went crazy finding blades. thanks to her man !! lols. sun bian. i was looking for the nike bag. brown and pink hand bag. i am in love wid that bag i saw previously. bud it wasnt on display le. i am afraid dat it is out of stock le. =P. they onli had the sling one on display. =(. the pricing was around $69 for the sling. so i think its around dat pricing also barhs. i guess. when i wanna buy, there wldnt b any more le. boohoos !

didnt find any blades at harbour front so went to queensway instead. dunno wad happen to dis woman !! keep on seeing the wrong number bus. and she was complaining that she was very sleepy. not enough slp. dots dots. wake her up so early. hahs ! ok la moii fault la !! sorry lors. wo you bu shi you yi de. =P

walked round queensway and we couldnt find any blades again !! i was so sure dat queensway sell blades cos i saw them recently ago onli. i was crapping wid her dat she doesnt haf the fate to buy blades todae. lolls !! and finally we found it ! yays ! it was actually on the 3rd floor. van was hafing a hard time trying the blades. cos her feet size was too big. and the salesman was actually shock when he heard her shoe size was 7-8. hahas! elephant leg..

yays! she bought the blades cos she needed it tml for sch. weird right ? hafing lessons on sun. lolls. first time heard of it manx. went to moii hse carpark nearby. went to the top lvl to practise blading. and we had so much fun. had all the screaming and laughter. i molested van by accident when i was trying to blade. opps ! =X. hahs ! i am not pervert. not to worry. its just an ACCIDENT !! both of us were sweating like hell. arhs !! blading is so fun.. gonna learn soon. keke ! after van knows how to blade. it wld b moii turn. =)). den next wld b ice-skating. wahahs !!

reached home. haf a gd dinner and gd bathe. and watched finish the 7pm show. went to moii rm and upload the photos. so nice !! =)). was chatting wid dear also on the phone. multi-tasking. heh heh !! dis van was so damn noisy dat i cld hardly hear wads he toking. dunno wad happen to her also. so hyper-active todae. like me! whaahs .. !!

haiyOOs.. !! such a memorable day todae. so many great happenings happened todae. how i wish dis wld b like dat everyday. how wonderful wld it b? everything turned out well.

going to moii uncle's hse tml. moii grandfather's death anniversary tml. miss him so much...

i found back moii path..
i hope dis wld remained forever..
keep all moii unhappiness away..
throw all moii troubles away...
the good comes..
and
the bad goes...
if dis remained forever..
i wld b the happiest gurl in the world..

Friday, August 11, 2006

*_phOto.taking.tml_*

sch re-open todae after national day holiday. haiyOos. why cant dey just extend the holiday ? den like is..can rest one more day. wahahs !! i wan holiday so badly. wheehee !!

didnt realli haf the mood to revise accounts todae. hafing mock in the afternoon. the paper, i gonna b deaded. pass i guess its a moderate barhs. everyone didnt realli haf the mood to study/ revise actually..lolls !! i cant balance !! i forgot wad is capital employed !! i forgot disposal acct. yikes !! pray hard..!! let me pray hard..!! it goes ok for me. hohohos!

tml is sch graduation photo taking. our class were actually discussing more on the photo taking stuffs than accounts paper. lolls! everyone is like excited for tml's event. wearing white. little "angels" wahhhs.!! our sch tradition. its a yearly tradition. most of us were actually worrying dat the sch may not accept the clothes dat we wear. cos strict marhs. cannot too exposed and all dat. dis cannot dat cannot. moii frens were actually suggesting on wearing bikini. whee-euu-weet ! sexy ladies arhs ?

basically tml i haf to wake up very early tml at around 7am plus cos sandy is coming at 8-8.30am..and the rest of moii clique. 7 gurls are coming to moii hse at 9am. i was actually crapping wid them to gib me $50 for consultation fees. hairdo + make-up. lolls! can open shop liao arhhs !! opening hrs 8-10am. lolls.

arhs !! just cant wait for tml to come. i am actually feeling excited. bud still thinking wad accessories to match moii dress. haiyOos. headache lehs. so rush ! haf to report to sch at 1145am tml..

angels frm moii hse going to sch. 8 gurls wearing white somemore. aiyOOs. as long as not at nite can le la hors ? keke!

we were actually going more on wedding dinner than for graduation photo taking. hahs ! shi hui was joking dat i am the bride and they are the bride's maid. i was like dotx dotx!! i den dun wan to marry so fast.. uh-uh..!! no way. XXXXXX...

finish paper at 4.30pm todae. quickly rush hm to meet sim. gotta collect accessories frm her plus handbag. thank you darling for lending me! dun worry..ur things are safely in moii hands ehhs ? keke!

after meeting sim, went to adelphi to meet moii mom. got appt there. rush here and there. i was so tired dat i was too lazy to walk to city link to buy moii necklace liaos. haha! though the accessories are nice. didnt buy ytd cos wanted to show moii mom actually. haish ! shld ve bought ytd. and sim was actually blaming me for not buying ytd. cos she simply love dat necklace alot. I M SORRY !! I DIDNT MEAN IT !! DUN BLAME ME !! boohooos..=X

reached home around 9plus. vanessa came to moii hse as she was too bored at home. got nth to do. so ask her come moii hse lors. got company. me and her. heh heh! gonna watch movie vcd. dunno wad she brought. i not slping early tonite !

see me in panda eyes tml morning when i wake up barhs... =P

happy 4th month anniversary dar !
didnt realli get to tok to u todae.
u were busy doing ur reservice.
when i called u,
u were slping.
hearing ur voice.
so tired.
haishyOos.
ke lian the baobeii !
hope dat dis month wld b a happy month for us
&
keep all the unhappy moments we had previously away.
i love u and always will.
promise !
muacks !

Thursday, August 10, 2006

*_felt.betta_*

felt much better todae. =)). moii mood has turned better. so dat shld b a gd sign barh huh ?

went out to far east wid sim to get moii white dress. yays ! i finally gortt dat dress after thinking for 2 days. keke ! thanks darling for accompanying me and lending ur bag and belt. hohos !

tml gonna get moii necklace or rather moii accessories at citylink. saw some there. its nice.especially the necklace. since i meeting moii mom tml around dere. i shall bring her there to buy it. keke !

time flies and tml is another sch day le. den sat is gonna b the graduation photo taking. soon..!! prelims are coming. okays ! i shall not think too much. otherwise i wld just go crazy. too much of thinking can make u go crazy u noe ? especially when u realli feel bad. arghs !! dun do dat.. moii advice !!

dunno wad happen to moii right hand todae. moii thumb bleed for no reason and it came out blue black on moii hand. yikes. and sim was trying to sae its dat "thing". pls dun scare me la!! haiyOooos..i noe now 7th month. bud u dun haf to do dis to me to further moii thinking right ? bish *

gonna haf mock exam tml. accounts ! though its one of moii fav subj. bud somehow i am lagging already. dd & provision for depreciation. dat topic !! i am still unfamilar. was practising just now. disposal and doubtful debts. i dunno how to do. tml gonna ask qns. otherwise dis paper i gonna b deaded ! eek !

wish moii luck for tml mock barhs. =))..

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

*_wads.wrong.widd.mOii ? _*

on the start of august.things haf never go well for me. everyday do i haf to cry to slp ? or whenever i am alone, i just feel so terrible. i seriously dunno wads bothering mOii. am i suffering frm depression or wad ? i going crazy soon. tears rolling down moii eyes everyday. haish !

i guess, dis month is not moii month barhs. all probs start occuring to moii. one by one.

ytd went out wid dar after shopping wid shi hui and jia en for class graduation photo taking on sat. bought alot of stuff. and i going broke soon !! didnt actually haf the mood to shop. i was kinda quiet. bud i tried to speak up and joke somehow. making moiiself better and also the 2 gurls.

had heart to heart talk ytd wid dar. face to face around marina. he was actually asking me wads wrong wid me. why was i so quiet ? why am i always keeping quiet ? and not telling him moii probs ?

the prob in moii..i always keep quiet and keep things to moiiself. if u see me keeping quiet all the while. dis means something is going wrong wid moii. i always bottled moii things up becos i dunn wanna ppl to worry for me. everyone is tired. i noe. dar is already so tired wid his reservice or even work and i dun wanna tired him further. haish ! bud in the end he found out. i just dunno how to express moiiself out. why is dis soo ?? i eventually cried in front of him cos i felt so terrible. i cant take it anymore. how much i wanted to shout out loud. venting all moii angers, moii sorrows, moii pains, moii troubles away to the sea or river. bud i am in public. i cant do it. and i dun wanna scare him too.

he's already so tired. he wanted to go back. and van was late. i asked him to go off first bud he insist not to. so i haf no choice. ytd outing was terrible between me and him. haish !

ytd was the first time i watched fireworks wid him. it did make me feel abit better. it was simply beautiful. how i wish i can b like the fireworks. being shoot up and den beautiful sparks came out. how wonderful it can b. troubles wld just fade away.

i just haf to find moii way back !! i cant hold it longer..... !!

so many ppl were dere. it was realli crowded.

after he left went to meet sher. den van. watched moii super ex-gf. van's mood wasnt actually well too. she spilled the drink at burger king den she just dashed out. i guess she was also feeling so stressed up and she cried. seeing her like dat also makes me worry. why is everyone like dis..one by one..?? bud luckily, her mood went back to normal. so dat makes me feel eased..

the movie was kinda funni. everyone was laughin like hell. i dunno why me, moiiself, i cant laugh it out. i cant. throughout the show i just smile. dats all. de tiu fetched us hm after dat. i was seriously tired.

went to van hse to stay overnight.. reached hm at 3 plus am ytd. and i was crying to slp while listening to music. felt so terrible. i was alone in vanessa's rm as she was doing her comp work. mayb i just nd some time alone somehow barhs. like i said b4. i can onli express moiiself thru music. i wanted to go to the beach so much. bud just who can accompany me ? sch work is just to much. test are coming up pretty soon. prelims as well. whr can i find time to go ? moreover, now is 7th month. i cant go back late. otherwise moii month wld nag. arghs ! its just getting me crazy .

cant realli get to slp. cried whenever i wake up. listening to music to make me feel better.. i simply dunno wad to do wid moiiself. felt so .......so..........EMPTY ..

going to sa kor hse later to celebrate national day.
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY !!

i am feeling so terrible..
so
so
terrible..
the feeling,
inside moii heart,
the weight,
its getting heavier.
how am i gonna release them ?
how ?
how ?
wads exactly wrong wid moii ?
i seriously dunno.
i haf no idea
whr is the happy side of girl i used to b ?
it seems like its fading away ..
how can i find back moii path ?
haish..

Monday, August 07, 2006

*_haish_*

i am so so tired. slept for onli abt lyke 3 hrs plus. cos ytd, nicole jie, qianxiang and wendi as well as moii mom or bro was playing mj till like 4am plus ? dey talked so loud dat i hardly get moii slp till 2 plus manx !

woke up at 5.15am plus just to wake dar up. going for reservice todae. and he still dare to say i didnt gave him morning call ! cos he cant recall. i am so heartbroken ! arghs! hahs. if i noe i talked to him more. bud i admit i was also into sleepy mode cos once i heard his voice, den i say bye bye le. still ask me slp somemore. so i just put down lors.

woke up at 6am plus to prepare for sch. den gave him another call. last call b4 he goes for reservice. gonna miss him loads. =)) ..

sch todae was kinda boring...also dunno wada talk abt. all i nOe is i am feeling very very very slpy. Zzzz..! bud luckily i didnt slp in class. wheehee! so guai of me. bleahs!

reached hm abt 3 plus. was actually chatting wid van and sher. going night movie tml wid them. planning to watch CLICK. hee! either this or super ex-gf. will decide tml when we meet barhs.

practised moii improvisation and went for moii last organ class todae. haish ! zhen she bu de. i wont b hafing organ class till moii 'o's finish le. haishhh !! next wk gonna go back for class to return to teacher her scores for songs because i am still short of one. oh well. just concentrate on moii 'o's first and not think of other thing else barhs.

was surprise dat dar called me after moii class end cos he says he was going for reservice den how can he bk out and go hm ? hahs! den i realise oh yea arhs! moii bro is also like dis. its the same thing. lolls! how toot of moii. dunno why after toking to him or rather after hanging up wid him. i felt so unhappy suddenly. in the bus especially. when i was on moii way hm wid moii mom. sitting. look out the window. listening to moii mp3. i felt so tensed up. so stress. i nd a break ! i am feeling so terrible. i held on moii tears. somehow, it just dripped down. i was covering moiiself. pretending dat something went in to moii eyes and wipe it away.

i felt so tired..i am seriously tired...like i said b4. i haf never felt better ever since the start of aug. issit a bad month for mOii..?? i cant imagine moiiself when prelims are getting nearer. i guess i wld just go havock !

yays! finally moii sony ericsson is back ! after servicing! i gonna sell dis phone quick b4 anything bad happens again. arghs ! i am afraid of dat phone brand liaos. for a moment i not gonna buy dat brand. 3 times! i went to service it. omg !! hmms! bud still thinking wad type of phone to buy lehs. any ideas? keke !

gonna meet shi hui and jia en tml in the early afternoon tml for graduation clothes which needed on the 12 aug for photo taking. must wear white. as wad the sch says. make us look like fairy angels ! wahhhs..!! lol.
evening gonna meet dar forawhile when he bk out at 5pm.
den meet van and sher at 9-10 plus for movie. !!

wahs! tml gonna b a busy wk. hope tml wld make me feel better barhs...
i seriously nd a BREAK !!

Saturday, August 05, 2006

*_citispa.beauty_*

arhhhs !! am i bein wrong tying a pony tail ?? why is everyone trying to disturb me whenever i tie moii ponytail. i noe its cute !! bud pls stop the temptation. heh !! cos i use alot of effort to tie u noe ? once it gets messy, i will be heartache. lolls !!

todae during mt lesson. ms lee was actually catching all gurls who are not taking chinese this yr to go up to the hall for some talk. its abt us writing for those woman who are in prison. trying to encourage them to look on the bright side of life either in prison or when they are release. they will always b remembered. all of us care for them. we gib them a second chance to change for a better. getting into prison doesnt end ur destination just like dat. u still can lead on..u still can b succesful. so, its not the end yet ehhs ? continue ur journey.. and dun gib up. =))

she was actually trying to ask us to write a letter to them. after writing we wld haf to hand up to the teachers and den they will correct the mistakes and eventually sent to the prison.

i dun mind doing dat though. its a good deed ehhs ? she was joking wid us. our CIP hrs. all MT gals are involved. so all of us cant run away. deh deh !! we cant escape. on mon, we will start on the letter writing and ms lee will b expecting those gals who took o lvl chinese last yr to b dere.

i dunno wad happen to me todae in sch. i just felt so moody. so damn moody..i dun even haf the mood to do anything. or issit i am too tired? studied too late ytd. wonder if i overwork moiiself without knowing. mrs low, moii geog teacher was actually asking me if i'm alrite. cos i just stone at the paper without knowing. hahs !! moii mind wasnt even working at all. when she looked at me, she was asking me if i'm ok. cos i dont look ok to her at all. uh-oh !! she was going through the mock exam ans. so far, i think i will either just pass or fail barhs. i dunno! i pass i am happy liaos. cos i noe i didnt do well for dis paper. no time to finish !! sometimes arhs, u studied so hard, when u do the paper, u haf so many things to write, till u do not haf enough time to finish even though u noe how to ans them. it can b quite annoying lehs! agree ??

had bio test todae. i am gonna fail real badly. i actually didnt study the topic on biotech. its was last min study during morning assembly and i cant even absorb in la !! nothing goes inside. oh shucks manx. i onli read thru inheritance. i didnt haf the time to study biotech.

the question came out:
1) wads the difference between bacteria and fungi ?
2) explain the process of yougurt making.

arhhhs !! these two questions came out and i do not how to ans. moii ans are rubbish !! mrs leong is gonna b disappointed manx. haish !! not onli her bud me as well. luckily this is test. if this is prelim. i gonna kill moiiself manx. cannot !! prelim i must definately remember. die die also must study finish. burn oil !!!!

had lit mock exam also. heh heh !! i manage to finish !! yays !! the questions turn out ok. those questions came out i was actually prepared. so, heng arhs !! =)). the paper finished at 3.30pm and daddy fetch me home.

quickly rush home and bathe. den kor kor called me telling me that they are in the top 5 already. so happy ! quickly go and bathe and den daddy borrowed sa tiu van. so drove us there including sa kor along too. basically dis competition is abt perfect couple. if i am not wrong its er..citispa beauty something. i cant remember actually. sry stm arhs. no choice. =X. it wld b shown on channel 8. i am not sure which day wld b showed on. bud sooner or later they will advertise la. so moii bro and his gf will confirm b on tv !! =)). 5 wks later. =). episode 7. watch out for it ehhs ??

rush all the way there b4 5pm. nicole jie was actually late and everyone waited for her. i mean the contestants cos she had her exam papers todae. she didnt haf the mood to do actually. she was telling us dat while doing the paper, she was so stress up cos moii mom kept on calling her. 19 missed calls frm her phone and 14 missed calls frm the other phone. everytime the phone rang/vibrate, she felt so gan jiong. faster finish the paper. hahs !! luckily she managed to rush down in time. thank god. the 3 host are chen zhi cai, michelle chia and terence chao. michelle chia !! moii god. she is so damn pretty. her figure ! is realli very perfect. omg !! so in love wid her. how i wish i am like dat. wahhhhhhhs!! eyes big big. lolls !! sa kor was in love wid chen zhi cai. cos she says he is very friendly and shuai !! hahs. kept on seeing him and wanted to take photo wid him. so funni.

i didnt expect dat there were so many surpporters frm our side. hahs! abt 10 over. so funni. all call their kakis to come. vanessa was actually interviewed by them asking her why she chose them as the perfect match. whoa !! watch her out ehhs ?? also 2 of our side also got interviewed. we were actually given balloons and relatives and parents are not surpposed to vote as they haf to b fair. yeps ! bud we are cheater bugs! omg !! =X

bud even though we are not there, they also haf high chance cos alot of ppl also vote for them when i saw those outsiders being interviewed. =)) and guess wads the outcome ? the both of them haf 16 balloons wid them !! oh moii god. u see the way we chiong to them. so funni. the rest got abt 5 or 3 to 4 lors. hahs. the situation was so funni..so eventually dey got into the top 3. cos they have the highest vote! after being selected the top 3, they wld b in the finals. going for treatments and photoshoot. wah ! free treatments lehs. both of them were so happy. hahs! so will see them on tv further. before and after. weet-euu-weet !!

if they win the final round, they wld b getting wedding package free. everything provided worth $10 000. $500 cash and treatments everything provided. shiok hors? den wedding dun nd worry abt the amount to pay for the weddin fee. how nice... hee !! finale round wld b through sms vote. pray hard dat they will win barhs. =))

i will never forget the time todae they participate in this competition. mommy was so damn happy. went to long beach to haf dinner. den, all of them came to moii hse to play mJ. nicole jie jie's mom and her sis went back home and qianxiang came over. wid his gf. yeps !!

such a lovely day. !! tml gonna collect moii phone. i hope moii phone is not going to go wrong anymore. bud i am prepared to buy a new one!! hohohos. which model lehs ? i am still clueless. i wan mini O2....bud no money..unless dar strike 4D. lolls. he promise me dat. i shall not forget. =P. so i shall budget first buy normal phones. keke !! anyone got any gd phones to intro ??

Thursday, August 03, 2006

*_unfit_*

guess wad ? todae i went for pe. moii frens were like "ker is finally doing PE!! yay!! WELCOME !! " clap clap. cheers! wahhs. i was like. heh heh !! so happy for me to do pe ehhs ? just so conincidence, minnie is also doing PE too and we are wearing the same new pe shirt. high 5 gal !!

played captains ball todae and ran 3 rounds round the track. captains ball was realli tiring. i was the goal keeper. hahs ! catching the balls & i've been hit by shalini and got molested by her serveral times. lolls ! poor me. moii first day of pe. wahh! so fierce.

mr francis : ehs! stop molesting geradine la !

i was laughin away manx. natasha became the flower pot. lolls !! after pe, went for maths lesson den to CME. wasnt feeling well frm dat moment. felt like puking and eventually went to the washrm and puke all water out. guess i am realli unfit. haven been doing PE for such a long time or rather been exercising. went to gym during recess and tried out all equipments. whoa !! i am so tempted to go to gym to train moiiself up. especially moii muscles and stomach area. hohos! let me decide when barhs. hmms..

after recess had eng period. got back moii oral results. the comment was.." she is very quiet. nd to giv more opinions." i was like. ehhh ?! oral also can tell whether am i quiet anot ? bud i admit that. i am a quiet person since young. i hardly talk onli dis yr i changed. cos i realised..being quiet its not a gd thing afterall. sometimes u just nd to talk out den ppl will noe u more. keeping quiet all the way isnt a gd way also. u cant express urself. i also wann thank dar for helping to realise dat.cos he is the one who make me changed. onli after he came along den i began to open up abit. so dar, just gib me some time okays ? i will changed. =)). as long as u are happy. i will b.

reflecting moii past time just made me sad. ytd i was reflecting abt it. somehow i just cried. how hurtful i actually was. how i overcome it. this yr i changed alot. i realise. its time to grow up ehhs ?? think maturely. expose to environment more and not just hide in one corner and do nth. cos its just wouldnt help. i am 17 yrs old already. i'm no longer a kid so its time to move on..isnt it so ? at the same time. i ve to b strong too. i ve to b tough. i am just so weak.

b4 knowing him, i always bottled up moii feelings. wadeva probs i haf i always kept to moiiself. i hardly share wid any one. all i do is just a bk and music. to write down to play, to sing. to release all moii troubles away and going to the beach, facing the sea. the windy breeze is just so relaxing. yupps !! onli after i met him, den i became to open up moii feelings to ppl. so all i can say is.. dar ! thank you ! thank you for changing me.

did compre for eng. the passage was so damn hard !! i cant even understand wads the question is talking abt. so challenging. haishyoo!

gonna haf bio test and lit mock exams. so many things to study. i dunno how to start !! 3 tests in one wk. and they are all reading types. arhhhhs ! HELP ME! LOLS. just wish me luck tml barhs.

just came to noe that moii bro and his gf joined a match make couple contest tml. hahs!! i wish them luck. hohos !! can win ten thousand ohhhs.. c who got the most fu qi lian i think. i am not sure too. hope they can win manx !! den wedding subsidies can minus out looo.. hohohohos..=)

hope they can get into finals..!! jia you barhs. our whole family are surpporting u !!

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

*_crazY.day_*

yays! i am so happy. finally moii comp is back in action after for so long and its kept in moii rmm.. keke! den i dun haf to go to moii bro's rm to use the comp liaos. suddenly using the keyboard again and mouse feels so werid. mayb i am used to using moii bro's laptop barhs. =))

i shall haf an opening ceremony for moii comp after so long. ta la!! clap clap !! 1st aug 2006, tues. opening ceremony !! *cheers*. lolls!

sound crazy ehhs ?? ok ! back to the topic.

sch has been so fun these few days. i just love moii frens to bitx manx! hmms. bud wondering why...why are all moii frens disturbing me for no reasons ?? until i so pek chek by them. wahhs! i well already come take revenge issit ?? its either i've been tickled by them, poke by them, call me names..or wadeva ways they can get to do me. lolls! haiyOos. or issit becos i finally tied moi hair todae after 2 yrs plus ?? hmms. think abt it. i haven been tieing hair for so long and i almost late for sch just becos i tied moii hair for too long. lolls! sounds weird hors ?? bud its the truth. no choice la.long time no tie hair. and now i am back to tieing moii hair, not used to it. moreover moii skills are gone liaos! lolls.

i love moii pony tail !! hee. short short. cute cute. agree moii frens ?? decided to tie moii hair le. cos its long and weather been hot these few days. yups !! and guess how many hair clips i put on moii hair ?? 16 !! hohohos. pro hors ??

geography mock exam. gonna be deaded. instead our class wont b doing well either. cos all of us didnt finish. there are so many things to write. and i lost 8 marks. or rather more than that la. i didnt finish the paper. 45mins. i depended more on the 1st qns. cos i wrote alot!! so many things to write. hohos.

went back hm widd dotter. fri gonna haf lit mock. aiyOOoos. nd to study so many things.. so gonna b bk worm for 2 days ?? wahahs ... O_o..