` . One stage cleared !

woke up at 6 plus to study for front office test . i was so damn exhausted becos i only had 4 hrs of sleep ? there were some answers i forgotten during the test . hopefully i wld pass becos front office is really important to me !

hees ~

just cant afford to fail this subject .
and guess what happened during the test ? my left contact lens dropped out and one small part of the corner piece was teared .
whr did the smaller piece go ? its still stuck on my eye .
gotta get rid of it fast !

so in the end how i survived during the test was being half blinded . i used my left hand to cover my eye while doing the paper . same goes to my BTT !

LOLs .

lesson ends at 4 plus and went to have my BTT .
i was darn scared while doing the test .
the moment i finished , i ran through the whole thing . making sure that everything is going well . then i decided to click END TEST .

when i saw the word PASS ,
ohhhs ~ it really gave me a sense of satisfaction !
quickly went to book my final theory lesson
which is..
tomorrow !

YAYS !

i just cant wait to drive car .

LOLs .

as promised , i told jess i wld upload the photos she did it for me two days ago becos its her first time editing for me . i must say , she really did a good job .





to jessica :
i guess its been quite sometime i last sent you blog messages right ? hahas . i just wanna thank you for making this effort to do these photos . what touches me most was that ours was actually the first one you edited and it turned out so beautiful .

i hope that you are doing fine during the first day of sch .
continue to work hard alright ?
im sure you wld do well even though there will be lots of stress coming up .

take care of yourself and i hope to see you soon .
you are very much MISSED by me !
hees ~

i LOVE you marmie !
mwahhs ~

" you work hard ,
you achieved your statisfaction . "

` special mOments

i am such a horrible gal todae .
making my frens waited for me for 2hrs at bugis library ? whr we planned to meet at 10am in the first place ?

IM SO SORRY GUYS !

ok blur me . missed the bus stop . and we had to walk from bugis junction to the library . darling me went to find kenny and chris at hans .

kenny : wahhhs ! so early arhhs ?

hahas .

i felt so paiseh .
yeahhs ~
and we went to study together .

during lunch break , they really touched me alot ! especially to my preciOus darling jia en . no one has ever done that to me in my life ! she's the first one .
indeed ,
she brought me to tears .
also , thanks to kenny and chris for planning along with her .

((:

kenny gave me the locker keys for me to open so that i cld put my stuffs .
this was what she prepared for me in the locker .

a cake , letter , chocolates :


the locker number , i will never forget . 11-65 :


the reason for her giving me this surprise for becos our 2nd mth anniversary is coming !

i gave her a big HUG *

to darling jia en :
thank you for your gifts ! you have finally succeeded ! it has indeed touched me becos no one has ever done so special to me before in my life .

darling , im so sorry that i have not prepare anything for you yet . but on the very actual day , i will definately gib you smth special . hees ~
the moment i received your gifts , it has brought me to tears .
you gave me your heart .
you gave me your love .

i will never forget this special day you did for me .
you know what ? you really did cheered me up and it seems that all my troubles were gone .
thank you for everything you have done for me darling !

i LOVE you always .
whatever happens , i promise i will always be there for you whenever you needed me .
you & me will never be apart .

mwahhhhhhhhhhs ~ !!

" its not the gift but ..
the thought that counts . "

` baddie cOugh !

was down with very bad cough since ytd .
cldnt have a gd slp the previous nite as i was having very bad sorethroat and now, my voice sound so GAY !

hahs .

thanks to evi sis and colin papa to give me herbal drink though the taste really sux like hell larhs . i had to force myself to drink it .

=S

had my hsekeeping test todae .
i dunno how am i gonna survive becos i almost knocked out during test as i was feeling really terrible .

arghhs ~

KILL ME !

slept the whole afternoon ..

you may say that im weird becos i had no idea why do i felt so happy that im finally sick .
sigh ~
mayb im just too tired that i need a break .

i felt so much like dying now .
my cough is simply , NON-STOP !

anyways ,
this morning i received a news that my cousin has given birth to a healthy baby boy !
i felt so delighted when i heard that .
this means ,
i got a new baby nephew !

((:

it makes me smile .

" a new addition to the family . "

` aloy's bday celebration.

reached home at 12am plus last nite . we organised a bday celebration for aloy at justin's place .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALOY!
i really like his hse man! having a music room of his own. its really damn cool. all along i always wanted to have a music room of my own but sad to say that my place didnt really have the space to do that . also , i love his bed ! so nice to lay on.

been feeling down for the past few days . i was just feeling exhausted . well, at least this day perks me up a little . so it wasnt that bad anymore .

thanks guys for being there with me .

i really dunno whats wrong with this month that one by one is beginning to break down . its not a gd month afterall.

all i can say is that ,

even though i mayb down with my own probs , seeing you guys feeling down somehow affects me as well. no matter what, i'llalways be your listening ear and be there for you wheneveryou needed me.

((:

alrights, i have some pics with me at justin's place . there are loads more . however, they have yet to send to me .so i shall load the pics which were from my phone and justin's laptop.

aikho looked so cool when she plays the drum:



ahning & me :



my pretty gals :






evi sis & ME :





me & aikho darhling :




my Sayang & ME :





poor bday boy got smashed ! :




nic & mE:





colin & ME:



ok they got high & you dun wanna nOe what they were up to . hahas :



my BFF [ justin]&ME:



group photos :
































" i may look ok on the outside ..
but who knows ,
im just putting a fake mask in front of everyone afterall .. "

`` bad stOmach pains .

was having very bad stomach pain in the morning when i was preparing for sch .
i cld barely get out from my bed .
gradually , i began to feel giddy and develop a slight fever .

went to visit the doc in the morning .
and doc said i was suffering from gastric pains which lead to stress .
i got MC for a day .

i guess i have been stressing myself too much .
work loads have been rising .
tests have been rising too .

i just need to give myself some rest .

SIGH ~

" just give me some time ..
to adapt the life i once had again . "

` overly - exhausted .

break from everything is all i need for now .
im dying of exhaustment and i cld no longer hold it further .
many problems have been occuring and i just wan it to pass .

im tired of everything .
i just wanna exit this route and lead a simple life .
issit so hard to do it ?

i shall let fate to decides my path .
be it "A" or "B".
i will respect it .

im too tired to made anymore decision .
let nature takes it cos ..

" look straight ahead in life ..
and never turn back after you made your decision."

` it mayb the END .

im sorry .
i ve disappointed you guys .
i failed eventually even though all of you have given me moral surpport
and pinned really high hopes on me .
i ve to admit the evaluation was tough .
it was indeed tricky .
thanks for the help that you guys have given and tested me .
i really appreciate it !
i wld be taking on sunday again and im gonna make sure that this time round ,
i wld not be disappointing you guys again .
i PROMISE !

((:

gonna made this a simple entry todae as im feeling really exhausted .

i ve been waiting for you to wish me ..
unfortunately you did not ..
i tried hinting you ...
but sad to say that you did not get it .
all these while i ve been giving you chance ..
trying to hold on the relationship..
making it to stay strong .
but have you even made the effort to do it ?
im sorry , i cld not feel it .
you said you would make up for our anual anni .
but where is it ?
i ve been waiting ...
i see no signs of it !
how long can i hold on ?
do you know how exhausted i felt ?
the way you treated me ,
i felt so hurt .
is there any respect to me ?
time and time again ,
you have been showing me disappointments .
giving me empty promises .
where were you when i was down ?

have you even date me out recently ?

not just becos you wanna collect things from me but just a simple date ?

dun tell me that you have to work or you are tired .

ever since after one year ..
i felt we have somehow drifted apart .
can you tell me..
if you still love me .
do you still wanna carry on this relationship ?
or ..
are you tired of it ?

i dun wan to torture myself anymore .
if you really wanna end this just tell me .
i rather be hurt now than later .

should we end this ?

i dunno whats happening to everyone ? why is everyone around me having problems including me ! im really exhausted . frens finding me to solve their problems where i have mine yet to be solved . its just one mth plus and something have happened to my classmates .

i felt so tired out of the sudden ...
its a terrible heartbreaking day ...

i cried during my bus ride home ...
and now ,
my tears have dried up ..
my heart is starting to bleed ..

" I LOVE YOU .
but i can't hold on further . "

` ` interesting LIFE in school.

its been ages since i last updated my blog . hees ~ been busy with my school work . projects & tests . these two are basically making me going crazy so far . there's simply so much to do .

they are never ending !

though it mayb stressful but not to forget , i have my lovely frens around me. oh god ! they jus made me luff my heads off . funny bunch of peeps !

here are some pics of my sch life ..
during lunch break:


my sch-u:




my name-tag :


justin & nic caught mich sleeping during lesson:




kenny took my phone to take himself cos he doesnt have a camera phone :


colin & jas slapping each other :




my peeps :


our name-tags :


mich , colin & me [ justin & jas being extra by putting two fingers on our heads ]:


ah ning & ME :


yeps ! thats roughly some pics on how i spend my life in sch with my fellow mates .
back to today..woke up at 9am plus . dar called me to wake me up . hees ! then prepared myself for vocal lesson. i sang cao ge ,bei pan.

its not an easy song to sing i shld say. the reason for me for choosing this song is becos ..i really felt the emotion inside me . not saying i was being betrayed larhs . but just emotionally feeling . yarhhs ! and also, it's sendimental . i love this song alot !

during this lesson . i learnt how to sing properly le ! thats gd news . gonna sing this song next wk again to perfect it . plus , will be going kbox together after lesson to enjoy ! bahahahs ~ yupps .we have become frens and exchanged contacts . all of them were really cool.

after dismissal, bid goodbye and went to meet jiaen. wanted to watch spiderman 3 and study. however , tickets were sold out very quickly . thats a sad thing . its so popular ! we didnt fulfilled the things we wanted to do today. we ended up hanging around orchard and ah ping joined us at 6pm for dinner .

really had a great tyme with them !

"though i may not be by your side when you are down at times ..
but always remember ,
you are not alone ..
as my heart and soul wld always be right there for you."