`` To Stay or Leave ?

好久没唱歌了。

真的好想恋唱歌的感觉。

在家，一边听音乐。。。。

另一旁，疯疯癫癫的乱翻唱。

好享受这种感觉。

好自在。

但现在的我，一个月后才能再做这样。

Extracted my wisdom tooth a week ago. Having soft diet for now. And upon extraction, doc advised me to extract the rest of my wisdom teeth becoz' it's redundant. Well, I do not know if she's telling me the truth out of concern or, she wants to earn more money for her clinic. Base on my friends who have wisdom teeth, they are basically much older than me are still having their wisdom tooth & have yet to be extracted. Bleh ! Just finding excuses to myself. Haha ! =P

Well, this would be base on individuals ? I guess.

I do not disagree with the doc as well. Since she said that its best to remove it, so let's do it soon to prevent any pains or problems to my gums in future. (: But I'll do it one at a time. Next week gonna extract the other upper tooth one. And the last one will follow the week after next, which is located at bottom left. And this simply needs surgery becoz' my gums are covering. S.S

I hate it when it comes to surgery. I was never afraid of the process. But what makes me step back was the after process. I remembered 2 years ago when I had my surgery for the 1st wisdom tooth, it was a torture. Sleepless nights, couldn't eat, crying in pain. I really hope it's not gonna hurt that much anymore. HeeeHee. (:

Anw, enough of wisdom tooth.

I've been in dilemma for very long if I should stay or leave P.Crew. Also, I think that its time to make a decision soon before the next vocal lesson starts & 验收 is coming up. Honestly speaking, I do not know if I'm able to cope. I will require 1 month of break for recuperation becoz' of the extraction/surgery & also, I had to deal with family situation which is gonna be held on the 1st week of Nov as per my mom.

As vocal lessons have always been held at very last minute becoz she is from M'sia, its really difficult to decide. Sometimes, when I got caught up with work, I have to miss. With the 验收 coming up soon. I have no idea when its gonna happen. Probably in November. I will loose the confidence. Knowing that I have stage fright and with the less amount of time I can practice, I would end up embarrassing myself. =(

We all know that the management has been changed & taken over. The company has turned to be competitive. P.Crews are drifting away. Many are leaving & so do I felt I am too. But what drives me on was the passion that I've always love doing. I do not want to waste the opportunity I was given.

Maybe, I should take a break again like what I did when I was having my attachment. And when I'm ready, I'll look for opportunities again. I do not want to create any pressure to myself. Music has always been what I love doing since young. I want to enjoy and not to feel pressurized.

To stay or to leave ?

I have to come to a decision soon.

"This is not the end,

It's just the beginning. "