`` Ranting ! @#@#$!@# ~ .

SO CUTE HORRS ?!

Alan was ordering Mcdelivery last night. Was chatting with him on MSN. Then, I said I want it too. Eventually, he got me this ! -___- "

I just find the drawing rather cute actually. Hahs ! After that, I found out Mad got order too which looks more like a " shit " than Chocolate Sundae to the 3 of us. LOL !

Alright , I'm not feeling too good at work today. Partly becoz' I'm alone at the poolside and also met some people whom I can't stand with. I maybe nice, I maybe quiet at times & I know I'm just a new trainee. But that doesn't mean you can step over me. People do have limits too , you know ? Simply hate "suck up(s) " ! @#$@%@$#%#%@#$@#$ !! Sometimes, I really feel like screwing their faces . How nice ahhs ? * evil grins ~

Not going to bother too much. Leave , Check-Out & don't come back anymore ! I'll be happy. Seeing faces & attitudes like this makes me boil. Grrrrrs !

BLAST THE MUSIC !!
There goes , " bom ! bom ! bom ! "
我快要疯掉了 !!

" I will be back .
Wait & see "

`` This is what I've been waiting for ..

I went to visit my family doc on Monday. I got a jab from him. It feels like a mozzie stinging on your leg . Hahs ! Anw, good news is that .... I'm really glad that I made a right choice this time to visit him. Becoz' I really felt much better. My toes are no long tilting up , it went flat on the floor now ! (:

Doc was saying that , due to the blood clot that is still inside my injured area, thats why the blood are not circulating well which causes the pains and swells on my feet. So, I got a jab ! Heh Heh ! See the jab mark on my feet ?

LET'S TAKE A CLOSER LOOK

TALAAAAASSS !!

Yeah , I know this is abit insane, taking my own feet. This is because many people have been rather concern about my leg. Thus, I just post it here so that I wont have to keep on repeating. Anws, Geradine is really thankful for those who are really concerned ! Don't worry, her feet is recovering very soon ! (:

I finally met up with my Vs class on Monday which perks me up quite alot actually. More gossips are coming up. Hahs ! Looks like I've been missing alot uhss ? =P
I really enjoyed being with them .

Work really tires me down alot nowadays. If I become more quiet than usual please do not mind. Been tied down alot of things. I'm really trying my best to adapt now. Heh Heh ! Geradine will try to be as active as before soon ! Wuhooooooooooo ~ !!

" Happy events,
Happy moments (: "

`` Depress-ed Mood .

I'M SCREAMING OUT OF PAIN IN HERE !

My feet is crying

My feet is hurting

It feels so numb

I FELT TERRIBLE ONCE AGAIN

Same leg

The left entire one

Just when will it get cured ?

It's been a month

There goes my missing of another lesson .

It was so numb that I could not even walk nor move.

The feeling was so weird that I could not even sleep well.

I hate this feeling !!

I miss my class , I miss VS4 ! =(

RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHSSSSSS !!!!!!!!!

" Does my happiness only last for a day ?

Get my cured soon please , Get me cured soon "

"

`` Better or Worse ?

An Update on my toe ...
In the midst of recover ! Yays !

You see that ? The before & after ? Hahs ! Its been 4 weeks yet my toe is not going down flat on the floor. Its still tilted up & I'm somehow, not walking normally as yet .

Due to my long standing hours at work , I guess thats why my left leg is becoming even more swollen. It has now spread to my entire feet.

SEE THE DIFFERENCE

Might be going down to see a doc another time round to get it cure fast. Its been almost a month & it's still like this. I think if I were to delay even longer , it might gone even worse. So, better get it seen than sorry. (:

I've been dragging my feet almost everyday to work. I really really wish to be normal soon. T_T

Anw , work has been rather enjoyable. I'm starting to get a better bond with my workplace. Nice people, Nice environment. But honestly speaking, I hate to be station at the pool side. Because, I really dislike the feeling of being alone & not doing anything. At least , in the restaurant itself, I get to learn & have something to do. I'm occupied. Hees !

Thank god that I'm having two days off from work. Otherwise , I'm gonna be so shagged. Mother's day is within this week. At least , I've got the opportunity to spend time with my family too. I miss everyone . Due to my worktime schedule ( afternoon shift ) , I can hardly be with them. Dad works at nite, Mom & Bro will be sleeping the moment I got back home. Tomorrow, will be a good day for me ! xD

Attended Sherlyn Laoshi class. God ! I know I sound horrible. I was really tired. Voice is like getting worse . I didnt even have the time to maintain my voice. I also do not have the stamina to sing. I chose " Lydia " for my exam piece. Unfortunately, my voice did not sound good to her. This song must be taken out. I felt sad at the moment coz' everyone else's voice was so much better than mine. I felt kinda " left behind " . People seemed to improve but I'm still stuck in here. Anw, I picked myself up ! Choose another better song & worked hard . ^^

<< 傻瓜- 温岚 >>

Went to Darling En hse after class. At last , I've managed to "RAPE" her DSLR camera ! I took some artistic shots. Hahs ! She really tempted me to get one. =P

We did some Online shopping , spending sometime together. It's been quite awhile we did that. Borrowed a top from her to prepare myself for my exam performance. Not sure whether it suits me but no harm trying. hahs !

I MISS YOU DARLING !

mwahhhs -

TO ALL MOTHERS :

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY !

你们都是世界上最伟大的女人 !!

TO MY WONDERFUL MOM :

YOU ARE ALWAYS THE BEST !

Without you , this home will never be perfect.

I LOVE YOU MUMMY !

`` Assurance was all I need .

ALL I WANTED

My heart is bleeding inside

It pierced me through

Now tell me what have I done

To make me feel this way

I felt so confuse

I could not sleep at night

Thinking about it all night long

All I wanted was to feel secure

What I need was to be assured

I was just afraid

Of a change in you

Oh ~

All I want was to feel...

Secure

I tried to let go

But it kept haunting me

Those scenes just simply won't let me go

I know I had to move on

To be happy once again

But I'm still stuck in here

B-a-b-y,

All I want was to feel secure

What I need was to be assured

I was just afraid

Of a change in you

Oh~

All i want was to feel ...

Secure

Do you know how it hurts

When it came from somebody else

Both were telling me different stories

I really do not know who to believe

I just need you to tell me once again ...

Yeah eh yeah

Because ...

All I want was to feel secure

What I need was to be assured

I was just afraid

Of a change in you

All I want was to feel ....

Secure

Composer : Geradine Ker

Are all guys the same ? I wonder ...

They hurt the other , & once the other forgives ,

They treat it as though nth has happen.

But deep inside , the other party was feeling very hurt.

As what chinese always say : " 口口说声没关系, 但其实心里还是带着悲伤和伤痛 ."

If they really love their love ones, they should find ways to make them happy once again. But unfortunately, not .

" Broken down.

Picking back bits & pieces on my own . "

`` Musicality route .

I was bored during work. Standing alone in the pool bar doing nothing, stoning away. So to kill time, I wrote some songs. It may not be good coz' that's not my forte for sure. Composing of english songs are much lousier than my chinese one's actually. But I'm still in the midst of working them out, improving them for the better. Therefore to further up my musicality , I have to do this. That's the reason why I took up vocal lessons.

I took up Electone Organ Skills ever since I was 7 yrs old. However, I stopped at 16 yrs old due to the preparation of my 'O's. Since then I've never been practising my organ anymore. It has now turned into rust. I regretted it so much .

Therefore , right now I took back my skills by doing things step by step. First , to take up vocal lessons. Learning how to voice out better, to build out my stability , to remove my stage fright & to picture things out with emotions. Then , I would take keyboard lessons & dance after I have graduated from Shatec. To improve my expressions, stamina & musicianship. Lastly, would be taking up composing of songs . To build up my writing skills and creativity. And that would complete my journey of being an musician/artist. I'm not really sure what should they be called for those who took up all these. They may not be celebrity but probably , the back of the house. Who trained and help those celebrity to groom. That is basically, the dream of what I truely wanna be.

I know the route of entering this career is never easy. But I will put in all my heart and soul to do this. Coz' It's the one that I love. And I will never give up ! (:

I WISH YOU HERE

That night, I was all alone

I had a bad dream

And then I cried myself on bed

When I turn around ,

Till then you were gone

I felt so empty

I miss your presence here

Will you come back to me ?

I wish you here

Just stay right next to me

Come to me

Let me feel you close to me

I wish you here

Holding me tight & not letting go

Coz' the thought of losing you makes me fear

So stay, don't go

I need you here, right now.

The day you went away

I know I had to be on my own

But the thought of you

Been running through my mind

It hurts, you know ?

Can you feel me ?

Can you heal me ?

I wish you here

Just stay right next to me

Come to me

Let me feel you close to me

I wish you here

Holding me tight and not letting go

Coz' the thought of losing you makes me fear

So stay, don't go

I need you here , right now

Can you feel my heart bleeding ?

I'm here all alone

Where are you ?

Can you hear me ?

I need you back ~

I wish you here
Just stay right next to me
Come to me
Let me feel you close to meI wish you here

Holding me tight and not letting go

Coz' the thought of losing you makes me fear

So stay , don't go

I need you here, right now.

Composer : Geradine Ker

我对你的爱

在这一刻的时候

我全心全意

把我放在你的心, 放在我的心

永远不分离

就是在这一天

我会永远记得

你有多么爱我

多么疼我

一直迁就我

没有你, 我的日子该怎么过?

因为我,已经依赖着你

我爱你

我对你的爱有很多的深

不分离

是最美好的回忆

牵着我

紧紧握着我的手

往前走

让我们一起向着美好的未来

就是在这一天

我会永远记得

你有多么爱我

多么疼我

一直迁就我

没有你, 我的日子该怎么过?
因为我,已经依赖着你

我爱你
我对你的爱有很多的深
不分离
是最美好的回忆
牵着我
紧紧握着我的手
往前走
让我们一起向着美好的未来

你笑,你哭

我也会陪伴着你

不会让你一个人去面对

请你让我和你分担

所有的一切

这就是

因为你是我的唯一

我爱你
我对你的爱有很多的深
不分离
是最美好的回忆
牵着我
紧紧握着我的手
往前走
让我们一起向着美好的未来

Composer : Geradine Ker

I will work out the tune soon.(:

Do correct me if there's something wrong with my sentences. I know there are some. Hahas !

" Unchain the melody ,

Feeling you close to me "

`` Terrible -

I wish I had someone to talk to right now .

I wish those people whom I need would be available now.

My dream seems so weird which urges me to tell the people who are involved.

Please don't let this come true.

I begged , I pray , I hope .

" I need a hug so badly,

I don't wanna be left alone. "