`` 辛苦 -

Without hands , you would not be able to clap.

Initially thought that everything is going back to where we were.

But now , it's shaken once more.

I'm starting to wonder if he's really the one who I can rely on ?

The person who can give me the secure ...

The person who understands & know my needs..

Today , it has come to the point that , I'm exhausted with the things that is going on now.

My heart is struggling .

I'm suffocating .....

I'm drowning ....

好辛苦。

心好痛。

有时，真的好想放弃。

" Maybe we've never understand what we want .

Maybe the problem still lies in the same place all along . "

`` Different -

Things felt so different once you are in another dept. Colleagues were right & I do agree with them. F&B is a place which tortures you physically.... while Front Office is a place which tortures your mind the most. That's why I've been getting tired easily these days.

Today is the fifth day in my new dept. Slowly trying to adapt the changes. People there are nice , teaching me patiently despite the mistakes I made. But I know I definately have to learn everything fast. Day by day I feel my stress load is arising ...

Oh wells , just gotta hang in there & be strong.

" Sometimes I felt like crying ...

Sometimes I felt like giving up . "

`` Hello , Front Office !

Reported 10am in Front Desk. Did nothing much by just reading notes and some paper work. Ms Susan , the FO manager brief-ed us some things to be taken note in the hotel. It was definately a hell-lots to learn. And now that I'm in reservation dept , I need to learn my rooms well to sell. Gotta start studying tonight ! hahas.

I'm starting to miss my F&B mates . Visited them in the afternoon & I felted so welcome. (:

Waiting for them to send me the photos so that I'm able to upload them. Heehees !

Anw, I wanna thank to those who msg me in the morning just to wish me on my first day in FO. I was deeply touched. It was really sweet of you all .

" Viewing my phone umpteen times.

Hoping that person could be you .

I received none in the end .

It strikes me through. "

`` A Brand New Start .

My long-distance cousins bought me this dress & I've decided to wear them on this day.
Today would be a brand new start for me ... Everything new. (:

I'm no longer wearing the ring but it would be hang around my neck with the necklace u gave me.
To know, my love for you will always be there.

Went off to Gallery Hotel & dine in to Zenden to have dinner with all the Trainees. It was a nice gathering with lots of catch up & fun. I really miss the times we all had together as trainees. Crapping , fooling around in restaurant. We even played games and joke around when there were no guests dining in. We learnt & teach as one.

It was oktober fest season from Oct 1 till the 11. Thus, our restaurant was promoting German food & Erdinger Beer. I should say the white beer was really good. It suits me but I didnt wana drink. I haven't been feeing well these days. Starting to develop cough and my acidity sickness is acting up again. ):

Anw , Dinner was great ! XD

A BELATED BDAY PRESSIE FROM ZH TO KELLY

Guess what ? Most people would just buy a wrapping paper to wrap a gift right ? But this girl uses ribbon to wrap a present. Hahs ! How unique could it be.

KELLY & ZHIHUI

US WITH ERDINGER HAT

- salim , kelly , me & zhihui

Not forgetting it's a Friday night . Which means , there will be an Erdinger Model to promote the German Beer. How could we miss out her ?! Hehs.

LUCKY NICK WAS BEING SURROUNDED WITH GIRLS.

Bahahas !

Enough of group photos , time to open up her present !

THERE SHE GOES UNWRAPPING

ROUNDS & ROUNDS

OKAY ... FINALLY WE ARE SEEING SOMETHING ...

( see the green colour spot ? )

SEE THE ROLLS OF RIBBON

heh ! heh !

ALMOST DONE !

( keep on rolling .. rolling ... rolling .. )

TADA !

- a personalized drawing by Zhihui -

It was a waterproof camera with diving of not deeper than 3M. I should say , the name she drew, was beautifully done.

After which , we went to have Gelato ice cream after dinner and walked around Clarke Quay area. Time flies & it was getting late. Had to work morning shift tomoroow. Therefore, I left at 9.30pm.

Next meet up would be on Monday & I'm looking forward to it. (:

Just a day more & I'll be leaving F&B.

Hello ! to Front office.

" All along , I have been deceiving myself.

Even if I can't , I had to. "

`` I'll be strong .

Sometimes , things turn out to be so unpredictable ...

By the time you realise when things go wrong , things do change .

Therefore, we both came to this decision ...

To leave & have a break from each other for the time being .

I guess that would be the best solution for now .

When time is up , we may be gone forever or be back again .

We won't know . Will let fate make the decision for us.

I may be utterly hurt right now & it's hard for me to stand up .

But I promise , I will strong & move on with my life.

Whenever you see GERADINE ,

You will still see her smiling always . (:

" I'll wait till the day you return.

My doors are open wide for you whenever you are in need. ily. "

`` - Pierced ..

I've been pierced through a thousand knifes in my heart .

A sudden shock to my life .

I felt I'm dying ...

I don't have the strength to carry on anymore ...

I don't wan to lose ...

I need him ...

`` 我累了 ..

我静静的不说，不代表一切都美好。

挽回以前的过去，我真的好思念。

也许一切的改变 ，我无法接受。

也许。。也也许。。

是我太在意。

过了一天又一天。。

等待这你的改变。

过了一月又一月。。

相信一定会更好。

但一切的所做所为，我错了。

我累了，

你知道吗？

有时候，我真的好想放开手。

但因为爱还在，而让我坚持了这份感情。

我愿意做那傻乎乎的女人。

痴痴的等待。。

我在等。。。 你发现到吗？

无所谓, 我也会假装我 okay 。

但因为爱还在，而让我坚持了下去。

直到有一天，我真的累过度，

就会再次和你说声， goodbye。

每当我伤或哭，

你都会说着 : " I'll change "

但一切的改变都只会呆那一下下。

过了一会儿，你又回到以前的你。

你叫我如何去信, 如何去做,

让我回到那段甜密的爱情？

I don't know what to say to express myself out.

Thus, I decided to write a song out of it.

It may not be good , I know.

But its totally how am I feeling right now.

When it's time to let go ,

I'll do so .

That's the time when I'm really tired of everything .

I'll disppear.