`` Totally Lost -

People used to envy me with my love life.

But as times flow, it's now the opposite way.

虽然我已知道答案，但一直都再逃避现实。

在多年之上，我根本无法放得下。

" I'm stuck & lost.

All along I've been awaiting, you never once approached & asked why."

`` Final Showdown !

SCAPE PERFORMANCE HAS FINALLY COME TO AN END !

- Great job guys ! It was totally an awesome experience. SUCCESS ! (:

More photos to come....

It was a pity, my camera was spoilt. T_T . Time to get a new one soon.

Will be awaiting for them to send me the photos !

Though I know, my nervousness has somehow overcome me. Causing to loose my balance during turns, but I'm really glad that I did not forget my moves ! There's still room for improvements.

This song has given me lots of experience & memories behind as both, me & Fiona had put in lots of effort for this event. Including all Performing Crew members. OB has become our 2nd home to us. After school/work, we would just rushed down to school & practised till late at night. Having less than 5 hrs of slp daily during our last wk of practise. It was really tiring. However, come to think of it, everything was worth it after all.

Below, will be my thank you speeches to some people ....

( I know some nt read this, bt still, I will do it as this comes from the bottom of my heart )

PEGGY - Thanks for lending me your dance shoes !

ALICIA - Thanks for for lending me your bracelet !

CHEF JON - Despite you having midnight shift, you still made the effort to come down. Thank you for your support & presence. Very much appreciated !

SISTERS ( wenting, aikho & jaslin ) & COCO - All of you were so tired from work & you still made your way down to give me your supports. Thank you so much ! LOVES !

CAILING LOVER - Even though you missed the performance, but I really appreciate your presence here lover. It was a pity, that I did not manage to take a pic with you. With no worries, there's always next time. (:

OBMF PEEPS - Thanks for cheering & supporting us always. You guys really rock !

HUANJIE LAOSHI - Without you, there wouldn't be us. Thank you for giving us this opportunity & having faith in us. Without your time & 指导, 买买买 would not be as good as now.

FIONA : Girl, No more 买买买 for us already ! Hahs ! I know this song has turned to our nightmare. Hearing & practising almost everyday. As for now, we can finally have a break ! (: Anw, my long long message for you has been written for you in my previous post & I know I've been saying this alot of time but I still wanna thank you for everything. Love you girl !

Everyone went high after performances. Headed to HK Cafe for supper. I guess, OB can become the VIP for HK Cafe. The usual dining spot. Lols ! Some crazy people played some crazy games. It was really hilarious. We stayed till restaurant closed. 2am ? I guess. Hahs !

Finally, everyone parted their ways & I walked along Orchard alone .......................

It was quiet & relaxing .............

Supposed to be an happy event but I ended up feeling upset. So much so, how I wish someone I know would approached me & give me hug. Lending me his/her shoulders for me to cry on.

" It was my first,

And I see no sight of you. "

`` SCAPE PERFORMANCE -

SCAPE CHINESE CONFESSION

Date : 23 January 2010

Time : 8pm - 11pm

Venue : Open area between Ngee Ann City & Wisma Atria

VISIT : http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=248525964006&index=1 ( for further details)

DO COME DOWN & GIVE US YOUR SUPPORT ! (:

With lots amount of hardwork, tomorrow is gonna be the day. Though was disappointed that one of the item has been removed due to neglection of practise. But I'm really glad, we managed to pull through for this item.

Fiona & I will be singing and dancing for the very first time. And also, this wld be my first, being able to stand on stage, performing in front of so many audiences. " Thank you god for giving me this chance. "

To Fiona :

Girl, thank you for your patience & guidiance in regards to my dance moves & singing. I know teaching me is very heart boiling as you have to stand all my nonsense & craziness during practices. Come to think of it, I actually provided you with some entertainment in return so that we wld nt be so stress up. =P.

Anyway, really, thank you so much for everything. I was once stiff. I still remember those words which you always repeat to me. " GERADINE 坐下 ！GERADINE 坐下 ！GERADINE 眼神 ！ " And now, we have completed & finalized our moves. Without you, I guess, I would still be like a tree trunk ! Haha !

During this period of time, I really enjoyed & had lotsa fun practising with you. Learning different kind of moves & be more "hiao". Hehs ! Let's Jia You for tomorrow. Make it our best shot. Prove to everyone else, we can do it ! LOVE YOU GIRL ! JYJYJY !

TO ALL OB PERFORMING CREW MATES ,

LET'S ALL JY TOGETHER & MAKE THE BEST OF IT ! (:

`` 8 Hours More -

As I viewed by blog, I find its getting more & more pathetic. Tried finding a nice skin to replace this, but its so difficult to find a suitable one. Now, my wallpaper is gone ! T_T .

Anyway, just a day more & I'll be turning 21.

The day of growing be an adult, the day to be an independent WOMAN. I'm taking the key ! (:

Yeah, I caps the word, " WOMAN " as I'm no longer the small girl who used to get spoilt & pamperped by my family. I'm standing on my own feet now. Though not really in terms of finance due to low salary as I'm currently under attachment. But ! I'm no longer take money from my parents anymore. ^^Y ! - thats something to be proud of ya ? hehs !

21st ?!

I JUST WANNA BE A STRONGER & HAPPIER PERSON !

& to be able to provide my family a better life in future. (:

Lastly, thanks to all who wished me in advanced. ♥

Will be spending my birthday at work, working midnight shift. T_T. - something special uhhs? * winks

" Though its nothing something to look forward to.

But I'll be happy for sure ! "

`` SIGH - -

My schedule for next week has been out :

MON TUE WED THURS FRI SAT SUN

A A C C OFF B B

When I found out that I had to work C shift on my birthday, 14 January........

My heart sank totally. But anyway, let's look on the bright side. It wasn't that bad afterall. Quiet, Peaceful night ? I'm still able to have dinner with my family. (:

Though its 21st, however, I felt that it's just like any normal day. Nothing special, nothing to look forward to. The only thing was ... I'm getting older. The age + 1 . LOLS !

It's so hard to catch a breath.

Has been very fed up & stress with things recently. I'll just have to re-plan my schedules all over again. SIGH -

@#$%$####$%^^$#@@$#@#%^&&%$#@#$#@ !!!!!

ROARS !

Right now, I'm more worried about the Wake Up call. As guest made a phone call and complained that there wasn't any wake up call given last nite. I'm so afraid that it would be me. My mind is full of it now........ I'm gonna be so dead tml if it's me. Crossing my fingers ***

" There's nothing more I could say.

I don't look forward anymore. "

``HAPPY NEW YEAR ! 2010 -

Somehow different this year. I had to work on 31st December & was on midnight shift together with my mommy, April & Sir Sopi. Very interesting but busy night.

When clock strikes 12am. Everyone started to let their hair loose & enjoy the night ! People going round with poppers, popping around. Me & April were having war with poppers. I see guests looking at us, must be wondering " why are these crazy women doing when they are suppose to be working ?! " Well, its New Year ! (: Let's just make it an exception.

It was my first midnight shift & I was pretty surprise that I was able to stay awake till 10am. Maybe becos it was a busy night with lots of phone calls received and paper work to be done.

Anyways ...................

HAPPY NEW YEAR !

- WELCOMING 2010 -

New year resolution ?

• Give me the strength to pull through another year as year 2009 was really tough.
• Be more positive & become a happier person
• Less forgetful at work
• Better planning of schedules
• Better health
• Going a step further to my musical skills
• Starting to think/plan for my future
• Get my driving license
• More performances
• University
• Financial plannings
• etc etc .................

Guess 2010 is gonna be another busy yr for me. JYJY !

Many resolutions for this coming year. I will definately work hard to fulfil them.

" I saw those signs ...

I felt them , but it's restricting me. "