`` Broken - Down .

I'm mute for a day

I have not utter a word
Hurts & pains ,

Everything just came back to me once more .

Why does it happen whenever I picked myself up & be a happy girl again ?
Can't I just lead my life normally ?

God , do you really want to see me being tortured ?

4 Nightmares !

I will never forget the timing I woken up .

3 am , 6 am , 8 am , 1145am .

I can't move .
I gave up all my strength to fight my way through .

I screamed , I struggled , I shivered .

My mom saw the whole processed till she had to put me to sleep .

Tears flows ..

It never stops .

I'm both hurt physically & mentally .

I'm back to the same old person again .

I had to start from scratch once more .

I'm exhausted .

Sometimes , I really hate myself ..
I really hate my life .

Sometimes I really wish I wasn't in this world .

All thanks to my loved ones who pulled me through .

But honestly speaking , I do not know how long can I hold on till .

Its tiring me out .

Really tiring me out .

I'm broken down .

Feeling utterly weak .

Till the fact that I am down with fever right now.

I do not want to go to temple whenever I facing this anymore .
Because everytime I do , they would always say the same thing to me.

So what for do I waste my time on this .
I rather stay at home & rest .

Words can't express the feelings that I am having now.