｀爱.

I miss those sweetness we had.

I miss those attentions you always gave to me.

I miss our past.

But I know its impossible to replay them anymore.

Can I have them all back?

I find myself fading.

I don't wan to lose you but I think I'm beginning to.

I wish I could talk.

But I'm feeling restricted.

我好辛苦

明明知道了答案

却一直都在逃避

但选择逃避并不是个办法

总有一天，还是要面对现实。

Maybe time, will take me somewhere... ...

The day when I have the courage to voice to you where I want & I should be.

` It's Vouchers Day !

It's been a year since I bought my Macpro.

It's been a year since I last touched my laptop's box.

And it has been a year since I last checked those freebies inside which I got from COMMEX fair 2009.

Just recently, I have been packing my table & made the effort to check the plastic bag of what freebies I've got ! It's like finally right? Bet it has been collecting lots of dusts ! HAHA !

You know what? I actually got a pair of movie tickets for free which I've totally neglected for a year. And thank god I found it becoz'...

as I turned the voucher around ............

SEE THE EXPIRY MONTH

Gosh ! Okay ! That's it !

I'm gonna use it soon !!!!!

So, I date Darling Sim out today as we both know.. The two of us have been going on a rough patch this month. So, let's head out & relax yo ! ;)

Supposed to meet at 1230 but we ended up meeting at 1pm instead.

Well well, the usual us. Thinking that we would be punctual this time round but ended up being late again. WAHAHAHA !

Seriously, we need to quit this habit soon !! If there's any case of emergency in future, I bet we would be the first to die.

Qns : "You know why?"

Ans : "LATE !"

LOL ! Okay ! Touched wood ! =.=

Today, we named our outing as "VOUCHERS DAY"!

As you read through, you'll know why. Heh Heh ! ;)

HERE ARE THE TICKETS

MOVIE SHOWING : LEGEND OF THE FIST

AND OF COS, MOVIES CAN NEVER GO WELL WITHOUT POPCORNS OR SNACKS ! :D

This movie, somehow reminds me of IPman. Samething - Japanese Invasion.

War attacking China & this hero saves the country. Overall, I rated 3/5 for the movie. I love the plot ; how they fought & the schemes to win. Totally engrossed watching when it reaches to those scenes. However, compared myself to Sim. I declare, LOST ! She was more engrossed to the movie than I am. Normally she would finished up and left 1/4 left of popcorns. But today, she neglected those popcorns and ended up, I was the one eating them ! =.=

The way how the main lead fought, gave me an image of Bruce Lee. Donnie Yen definitely plays the second of that when it comes to action scenes ...

1) Bruce Lee 2) Jacky Chan 3) Donnie Yen

These 3 movie actors are really the "SUPERB HEROS". Action movies can never exciting without them. (:

Anyway, coming back to the movie. One thing that I'm against with it was the ending. There was no ending towards it ! The war still continues. Bahhh ! Bet there's gonna be part II just like "IP MAN II". Hate this when it happens. Oh well, its one of the marketing strategy. So, let's just wait for the PART II to arrive. ^^

Alright, next stop....

I got this $3 off coupon from Loreal. And I thought of using it today so I don't have to worry about the expiry dates. Unfortunately, Plaza Singapura's SaSa store does not sell Loreal products. BAHSS ! Looks like I need to look for bigger SaSa shops which sells Maybelline, Silkygirl, Loreal cosmetic products. Shall look for it again next weekend. (:

Okay ! Here's the last one. Sim got this $5 voucher from Mcdonalds' which she has to clear by today. So, we headed to the basement. But unfortunately, becoz' it's a Sunday. Everyone's off day ! All seats are occupied. Therefore, we gave up & decided to head to another Macs' which is actually less crowded.

Liang Court came through our mind ! And we've definately made the right choice out of it !

Though it was packed with people as well, we were really lucky enough to find a good seat at the right time. And the area was so much quieter & peaceful than PS. Well, can't really compare either becoz' it's a shopping mall, located near Orchard Road. Definitely, crowds will come especially to youths.

THE 5 DOLLARS VOUCHER

SIM'S DROOLING OVER HER QUARTER POUNDER

She upsized her meal so I can "Tongbang" her fries & drinks. How sweet right? BAHAHA !

And then, we started pouring out, our problems.

LET'S STAY STRONG TOGETHER DARLING ♥

WE KNOW WE CAN DO IT ! :D

Though both of us were having different issues but we understood what both of us have been going through. This is what I called, DARLINGS ! ^^

I left at 5pm plus as I need to head to my uncle's house to have dinner together with Grandma.

Oh yeah, in case you guys maybe asking how's my grandma.

She is discharged from hospital & is now recuperating her health at home.

I know I've been repeating this many times. But I wanna say this over & over again !

I LOVE HOMECOOK FOOD ! THEY TASTE THE BEST !!!!!

Yummmmmmy ~ !

Now my grandma has been discharged. Mom & I are gonna make this a routine every sunday from today onwards. I'm lovin' it for sure! ♥

P.S: Grandma, I wanna say these words to you : " ILOVEYOU!"

"You'll never know how long can a person live.

So treasure it well, before you start regretting."

`` Precious Baby New Home ♥

I'm super dupppperb happy about this !

You may think that I'm insane.

Guess what????

MY PRECIOUS BABY FINALLY HAS A HOME !!! :D:D:D:D:D

Piano lesson was cancelled as Ivan needs to go overseas. So, I shall take this opportunity to do some shopping for my precious baby ♥. It's time that it needs a comfortable home.

A HOUSE

(An airtight container)

IT'S ROOM

A MATTRESS FOR IT TO REST COMFORTABLY

(A Towel for stability)

SILICA GEL TO ABSORB MOISTURE

THIS IS HOW THE GEL LOOKS LIKE

A LAUNDRY BAG TO FILL SILICA GEL IN

AND THAT FORMS A COMFY PILLOW FOR MY PRECIOUS BABY (:

TO PREVENT IT FROM ANY INJURIES, STORE IT IN A ZIPLOCK BAG

SO HERE YOU GO, COMFORTABLY RESTING

IT FITS PERFECTLY :D

TADA ~~ MY PRECIOUS BABY NEW HOME ♥

I'm so proud of my precious baby's new home !

So proud to the extend that I kept on announcing to my mom till she got quite irritated by me. HAHAS !

Mom : " Ya ! Ya ! Ya ! Since you did the inside.. Why not decorate the outside too?"

=.="

Well, actually she makes a point in there. Maybe I'll do that when I'm free to make it feels like an upgraded premium home. HAHA !

Yeah ~ I'm totally insane. =P

Well, since I can't keep pets at home so why not pamper the things I love instead?

People buy homes & furnitures for their living pets, I shall buy homes & furnitures for my non living "pets". HEH HEH !

I need to be where I need to be.

I don't have the mood to do anything.

撑着？还是。。慢慢的放下？

I'm seriously getting tired of this kind of love.

Why do I have to always plan?

Why do I always have to give in everytime?

Why do I always get excuses whenever I asked to join my family.

Why must it always be one sided?

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY ?!!!

I know recently I've been posting unhappy thoughts.

But I seriously need to vent them out.

It's getting torturing inside me.

I don't dare to tell him.

I'm feeling restricted......

I'm afraid things may go worse.

I don't know.

It may just be an excuse to me.

There are so many things to think.

So many things to bother.

Im not stress.

Its not about work.

Its the setbacks that I've been receiving.

My own personal problems ; friends, family, love

Whatever it is,

Don't worry, I have & I will live strong.

KEPPELBAY, I need to be there.

I need the serene sea & the breeze.

``Disappointed.

You think you're hurt.

I'm not hurt as well ?

I never felt so piss with you before

Come on !

Wake up to reality !

It's time to face the fact & stop hiding yourself in that tiny hole !

Why do I have to say this instead of just give you the consolation?

That's becoz !

I NEED TO WAKE YOU UP !

Stop having the attention.

You need to be stronger my friend.

Whenever I asked you, you never tell me.

It always after the day after.

And I always felt I'm the last to know.

I already told you I'm not siding him.

I'm just judging base on what I know & how I felt.

I'm haven't even said finish.

And you just base on your intention that I was siding him.

Kept on saying : "FINE FINE FINE"

But have you ever thought, what I meant?

YOU CAN BLAME ME ALL YOU WANT FOR NOT BEING UNDERSTANDING.

BUT I NEED YOU TO KNOW, IT'S TIME TO GROW & BE STRONGER.

Give a thorough thought to yourself !

You're 21, already an adult.

I don't need to say much.

FML dudes.

"My hands are shivering as I typed.

My heart bleeds & tears flow as I thought."

Unappreciated

Say that I'm being sensitive, for all that anyone can think of.

I believe that everyone has feelings, don't they?

As you looked at the photo above,

you're the butterfly & here I am reaching my hands to you.

But I was pushed away.

You said you didnt wanna talk & I respected that.

I left you alone & let you have some deep thoughts.

But as I was on the web, I saw the posts to your friends.

How thankful you are.

You shared, talking to your friends happily but I was kept in the dark.

Don't be mistaken, I'm not forcing you to share me your problems.

Nor would I expect any repay in return.

But in friendship, importance plays alot in me.

How much do I meant ?

Knowing you for years.

Compared to other friends of yours, the duration of knowing them was lesser.

Yet, I'm not the person.

Hey,

Ain't we close?

Ain't we, what we claimed as "soul-sisters"?

I was once hurt.

And this time is happening again.

I felt the pinch in my heart.

As I typed, my eyes turned teary.

Say that I'm jealous, say that I'm too sensitive or rather emotional.

Probably, I do not even understand at all.

"关心的太多，回报的。。。更加伤。"

I cared too much.

Ended up, Unappreciated

Also, come to think of it...

I am the one who initiates for the outings or catch-ups most of the time.

Have you asked me out before? Seldom.

Reaching to this point,

I should take a step back out now.

I won't question "Why" anymore.

It's not that I don't wanna make the effort to improve this friendship of ours..

But becoz' I don't wanna end up getting hurt again.

I made too much & I'm getting exhausted.

Anw, I just wanna let you know,

I'm always here whenever you need me.

That's all I have to say.

"Due to someone special that you lost, changed you unknowingly.

You didn't even realise, my friend."

<< 乌云密布>>

心理好多话想说

但，真的不知该从那里开始。。

好暗，好漆黑。。。。。

现在，我只想要找到灯光。

So many things have been happening.

I have tons of things yet to settle.

Darkness is all I see for now.

Walking is the only solution to find the light of my path.

I need someone right now...

But I still, feel alone.

有时候，我觉得好没用。

只能听。。却不能做什么来补偿这一切。

好心疼，好痛。

Whenever you received news of your love one is suffering in pain,

It pinches your heart for not being able to have the ability & power to protect her.

Therefore, all I can do is to watch and hear from afar.

"God, please bless her & my dad to remain healthy.

Protect them in your arms from any harm.

Thank you! "

写着写着。。。。。。

突然停了下来

脑海里变得一片空白。

I do not know how to phrase my words anymore.

Too many to describe till it turns blank.

I'm choked-up .....

" If only he knows,

If only he feels me ..

Y'know, I really miss the sweetness we used to have..

But right now, it's slowly fading away."

Bobbi Brown Brushes

BOBBI BROWN BRUSHES

Yay !!

Finally I got a proper brush set for myself & what makes it better is that, it comes along with a bag to store. (:

Though I took the risk of ordering it online. Whether the brand is real or fake it doesn't matter either. You know what? Upon receiving it, it really makes me feel.... I made the right choice ! Becoz' the brushes turned out to be really good ! I like the texture of it. Really lucky of me :D

To end this,

I have attached a video on how to wash your brushes in a nice & budget way.

TRUST ME, IT REALLY WORKS ! (:

Sumptuous Spread....

Dearie's mom bought us this pair of couple tee to match with the pillow case I've got for him. Now we've got a complete set ! So cute of his mom. HEEHEE !

THANK YOU AUNTY ! :D

Usual saturdays, headed to OB for piano. Finally, I see my Darling Sim in class !

Knowing that I'll be alone for the moment, she was such an angel to me by keeping me company till Dearie's arrival as he was late.

THANK YOU DARLING ! ♥

Headed to TANGS together to get Dearie's mom birthday gift.

Selected 2 lovely gifts. A light blue scarf & a pair of ear-rings. Both of us love it & I hope she loves it too. (:

Just in time after purchasing, dearie reached & Sim needed to head home to study. So... we bid goodbye from there & went our own ways. Looking at Tangs plastic bag & wrapping, it was definitely not appropriate/presentable for a gift ! Therefore, dearie & I headed to Taka to search for one and thank god, we found it !

TADAAAAA !!

Totally fits to what I wanted it to be. (:

Though the packaging was rather costly but due to urgent needs, will have to agree to it. Anyway, I'm very satisfied with it !

Hang around Town for awhile. It was really a bad day for me. Not gonna mention anymore otherwise I would be running a black face again. HAHA !

THANKS BABY FOR LISTENING TO ALL MY GRUMBLES !

Ever since, I "resign" working in a hotel-line ... I never wore high heels since then. Therefore, I thought of wearing it today to fit my dress outfit & I wanna have the "feel" of wearing high heels once more. To my regret, I ended up having 4 blisters & my poor feet cried in pain the whole day. I can barely walk comfortably. T_T

I NEEDA PRACTICE TO GET USED TO WALKING WITH HEELS AGAIN !!!!!

At the same time to train myself to be more lady-like.

Hohohohoho ~

Headed to Crowne Plaza Hotel at T3 Changi Airport to have buffet dinner with his family. Buffet Spread was rather good but according to dearie, today wasn't the best. Well, probably it was my first time here. Each person cost about $52 ++. Will definitely take into consideration bringing my mom here for her birthday as she once mentioned to me, she is interested to dine in here for her birthday. HEH !

Their cold dishes were really fresh. But I preferred their desserts more than their appetizers. A pity that I do not take Oyster. Otherwise, it would be really awesome !

Headed to his home for awhile.

Seeing his mom feeling happy makes me contented. Happy faces are all I wanna see. (:

At about 10pm + , dearie sent me home.

NOW I'M FINALLY SMILING :D

"Started a day with a gloom,

Ended a night with a smile."