`` Tired .

been feeling rather exhausted todae .
mainly becos i slept at 2am last nite ? was studying abit on hotel security and doing FOM worksheet .

((:

i spent most of my time in sch sleeping especially during F/O lesson .
though its one of my fav sub but all thanks to the trainer , she made me fell aslp .
)):

was being very quiet for the whole day . too tired to even open my mouth . i felt so much like a zombie larhs ! didnt join my sisters for lunch as i was too tired . SORRAYS ! dear dear sent me home after sch . was planning to collect my contact lens in the evening actually but i didnt go in the end . hees . lazy me !

slept from 4pm till 7 pm . dear woke me up . gotta study !
im having my progress test on thurs .

Sigh ~

i can feel the stress is coming .
like what i always told ah ning during lesson ,
i will " JIAN CHI DAO DI " ! ( fight till the end )

xD .

" Work Hard ,

Fight Hard ,

You'll eventually get your results . (: "

` dO they understand ?

its been a wk i last updated .
been very busy with my sch stuffs recently .
SORRAYS !

just wanna vent out my feelings for todae .
hope you guys dun mind .

do parents actually knows how they child think at times ?
do they noe , what they said actually hurt their inner feelings ?
they did .

i felt the hurt after you told me all these .

my heart has been pierced through a thousand times ..

it bleeds .

all i cld do was to remain silent and cry alone .

tears have been running down repeatedly ..

i cried myself to slp .

i cried when i woke up the next morning .

it just flows ..

i know you are worried for me .

i know ..

i know what you are thinking .

i know ..

but cld you just trust me in what im doing ?

sometimes , you guys are so scary till i do not even dare to speak out .

im afraid ..

things may turned out worse .

even i were to tell you ..

will you accept it or reject ?

if you reject ,

how am i surpposed to face it ?

is fortune telling always correct ?

are you sure that it will be 100 % true ?

what if it is wrong ?

i will regret for the rest of my life becos i lost someone in my life .

i just hope you wld support me in whatever i do .

dont stop me ..

dont make me loose my confidence and let me go on with my life.

im sensible enough to do my own thinking .

let me be .

dun stop me .

the more you prevent me from doing ,

the more i wanna do it .

dun make me rebel .

i'm SORRY .

" Just follow your heart

and

Do what you want to do . "

` firewOrks n new HAIRCUT .

went to watch fireworks with nic , mel , evi , aikho , jaslin and dear at esplanade ytd . had my vocal lesson in the afternoon then met my dear dear at town . slowly , jaslin , nic and aikho joined us .

guess what ?
the both of us saw lambo again !!
we were so darn happy ..
till we stayed there for very long .
hahas !
awws ~
i saw my two husbands !
hahas .
RX-8 as well .

=) .

they were actually holding some sorts of mini- car exhibition outside ngee ann . so all of us were looking around .

hearing the engine of cars ,
seeing lamboghini and rx-8 so upclose to me ..
it really melts me !









though i dun really like the colour and the pattern of lambo , but i just love the car of what it is . hees ~
its really unbearable to leave my lambo till they had to drag me away from the car .

hahahs !
I DUN WANNA LEAVE !!!

okays ! its 6pm , so all of us took train to cityhall and walked to esplanade to watch fireworks . standing for hrs is no joke ! it was so darn tiring and hot . practically, we were more like entertaining ourselves than them entertaining us . LOLS !

i really love watching fireworks . its just so beautiful . its specially meaningful becos i watched it together with all my loved ones ! fireworks lasted for abt 10-15mins , then we went to find somewhr to sit to wait for the crowd to disappear ..
and .. we took PICTURES !











when the crowd had finally lighten a little , we walked to citylink to have our dinner at New York New York . the time was already like 10pm already ?
late horrs ?
all of us were starving .

check tis out ! giving you 4-D numbers . LOLs ! :


lastly , all of us went home at 11pm .
((:





LOVELY DAY !

here are some videos to enjoy :

` Blessings !

todae is my happiest day of my life !!
many many great things happened for the day.
whees ~

had so much fun in sch though lessons were bOring becos i was with my sisters ! hahas. they were so fun to be with larhs .
check out the video and you will know why ...



went to ikea after sch as the sisters wanna look around for furnitures and stuffs .
ohhhhhs ~
we took photos !
hees ..

on our way to ikea :


at the entrance of ikea :


mum mum :


awwws ~ he gave me flower :


act like a boss ! :


my "bodyguard" behind . hahas ! :


while exiting ikea ,
i saw something i always wanted to see .
MY HUSBAND !!!!
LAMBOGHINI SPYDER GALLARDO !

my reaction was like ...
OMG !!!
i hugged dear dear immediately for so long .
smiling away ..
and i dun wanna let go !

hahas !

i was so darn happy becos it was my first time looking at it and it's also our first time witnessing lamboghini together which we always wanted to .
its so fated !

oppps ...
then i saw eyes staring at me . i felt so paiseh cos i didnt realise that i was hugging him for so long . i just felt so high !
hahas .

SORRY SISTERS and BROTHERS !

=) .

walked to queensway after that to buy my contact lens . mich wanted to do it too . so , we did it together .
hees .

left at 6 plus ... while exiting , dear dear and i saw RX 8 . another one of our fav car ! o_O . both of us felt so happy . then , all of us went seperate ways . dear accompanied me home and nic joined us along as we were all on the way .

wheeets ~
its such a blessing todae !

ever since we've been together ,
everything seems to be in a right way .
i just hope it wld remain like this forever ...

i LOVE him !

" You made my heartbeat faster each time ,

whenever im wth you .. "

` BLISSFUL !

its been quite sometime i last updated my blog .
get ready , its gonna be a long long entry .
hees .

150707 , sunday :
went to bukit timah for hot spring .
LOLs .
dad fetched us there and we met de tiu and aunty nancy . thought it was gonna be fun , never did we expect , it turned out to be like this .





you chose your own pail and teh-tarek !


oh let me tell you smth .. the water is damn hot okay ??!!!!

one feet getting in :


and finally , the other one !
HOT :


look at my red feet :


soaking our feet for 1/2 hr , it began to pour . so all of us had to hide in the shelter while the men went to get their cars and off to sembawang for dinner !
ate at our fav thai food restaurant .
hees .
then , all of us went over to de tiu hse as the adults wanna play MJ !

reached home at 12 plus .
tired tired tired !

16 july 2007 , mon :
this day is a very very special day to me . why ? becos someone gave me a touching surprise and he really touched my heart till i cried. he proposed his love to me .

this was the plan .. 9am . he reached sch . together with jie ning . nic surpposed to reach at that timing too . however , he was late so aloy took over instead . then ah ning purposely waited for me at the locker level for my arrival . justin was hiding one corner .

when i reached sch , i saw jie ning . i went to open my locker .
and this was what i saw :



the phone began to rang and it appeared ..
" Justin Loves Gerrx "

i teared immediately when i saw it . i picked up his call using his phone . however , i was speechless . so i told him i'll see him in class . i didnt know he was peeping at me secretly . then , jie ning began to pass me the things he wanna give me .

he cant enter the locker area as its female premises . so jie ning had to take over .

1 ) lamboghini paper bag ( he knows i love lambo )


2) plant ( he hopes our relationship wld last forever )


3) Love letter ( he took alot of effort in writing chinese )
4) Mr smiley ( he wants me to be happy always )

at that point of them , i wanted to hug him but he wasnt there . so , the both of us went to class instead . but i have no idea , when i saw him , i dunno what to react but just said " thank you " to him . LOLs .

ok lorrs . then all our frens pang seh us . left the two of us sitting with each other . hahas . honestly speaking , i felt awkard becos i do not know what to say . it left me thinking for a long time .

at 310pm .. i decided to give him an answer . i accepted him and wrote him a letter as return . i gave myself another chance of falling in love again . i do admit that i have feelings for him as well recently becos i felt really comfortable whenever im with him . he brighten up my whole life . the feeling of being with him is really different from my ex .

((:

this time is really blissful .

baby ,
I LOVE YOU always !!

we were really stress after sch as all my classmates were disturbing us . hahas ! sending their congrats to us and we felt as if we were getting married lorrs . but anw , we do not mind at all .
im proud to announce this relationship .

that's how we began our fairytale ........
and
he sent me home on the very first day .

180707 , wed :
spent my nite doing jie ning's belated present till 2am last nite . so tired lors . poor sisters end up turning in late becos of her present !! what we planned was ignoring her for the day till we surprise her by hiding the present under her table .

hees ~

we felt so bad when we done it becos her expression was really moody . she must be thinking , why were we treating her this way ?
i APOLOGISE !!!

however , i was glad that she was really touched and we gave her a big hug !
took pics after sch in class ...

WE ARE ONE BIG FAMILY :










the page which i did at home [ our msges page ] :




her pressie :


My sisters & I [ took some time ago ] :
















me & DEAR :






edited by sis wenting :


all of us left class at 5 plus . dear went off first cos he's going home with nic and aloy . he hugged and kissed me on my cheek . when my classmates saw and they were like .. " ENCORE " .
both of us were so shy larhhhs .

` xD

to my ning ning :
my ning ning ! i will never abandon you no matter what happens except for todae larhs . i didnt mean to . hope you forgive all of us okay ? seeing you cry todae really touch my heart becos all our hard work had succeeded .

also , my match maker ! hahas .
thank you for bringing us together regardless how stress you were . poor you got to be someone's doctor everytime . but dun worry . we wont disappoint you but instead , giving you smiles and more smiles each day alright ?

you are really a great fren of mine .
in class , you know me best ! and i cant afford myself to lose you .
same goes to you .. i will always be with you whenever you needed me alrights ?
24/7 ..
always and always .
may our friendship last forever !!

i LOVE you !
mwwaaahhhhhs .

to my preciOus bOy :
dear , you really brighten up my life whenever im with you .
you erased "him" from my life .
you have always been with me whenever im down .
you know my feelings , you know me well .
you understand my inside out without me telling you .

as days passed ,
i know you longer ,
then i realise ,
we do shared alot of similarities .
don't we ?
hees .

thank you for everything ..
especially on 160707 . i will never forget that incident .
you touched me most and made me tear .
not tears of hurt but tears of joy that i have found someone who love me for who im .

baby ,
i promise you ..
i will cherish you .
i will stay with you no matter what happens ..
through thick and thin .
i will never let you go .
because ..
i love you more as each day goes by .

i just wanna tell you ...
i LOVE you always .
muacks !

" Love is beautiful ..
when it come to this . "

` GOODBYE to my beloved toys .

many many many people say my blog cannot be read . so for the convience for them , i gotta change to a new one .
must THANK ME okay ?!!!!
awwwws ~
i miss my old one . i spent so much tyme on it yet, it cannot be read after a while .
so saddddd ~
booohooos .

T_T .

feeling damn tired todae . i cld not wake up till my mom got to really shake me .
rahhhhs ~
i was so sleepy that i cld not even balance myself when i was out of my hse and the funniest thing was , i actually can bang the lift door when going out ?

what the heck ?
GERADINE ,
WAKE UP LARHHHHS !!

hahs .

toopid me .
okays ~ dad fetched me to sch . it was alright todae. ning ning and i got high ! hahas . can u believe it ? we got very good chemistry todae . interesting hors ? =) . sch ended at 12 plus and had lunch with them at westmall .

left at 150pm as i gotta rush home . justin accompanied me home . awwwws ~ i felt so touched . i was so afraid that he wld get lost larhs after i alight from my stop . so i kept on msging him .

LOLs .

yeahs . i was feeling abit down becos soon , i wld have to leave all my soft toys , burning them away . i can no longer keep them by myside in order to do me good .
sigh ~
it really makes my heartbreak .
i cant even bid them goodbye .
i cant even see them .
my mom burnt them all .
i can no longer touch them nor hug it anymore .
i cant look back but just walk straight home .

all these are due to personal reasons . i cant reveal them . i'm sorry .

i teared in my room silently .
becos all of them gave me beautiful memories .
its really unbearable to let them go .
i'll miss them all .

had nitemare the day before . the feeling is back . yes , i felt terrible . i cldnt slp for the whole nite . all i did was tearing and thugging myself tightly . switching on the lights immediately to make me feel secure . from that nite onwards , im afraid of the dark . i can no longer keep myself in dark places anymore . this phobia wld keep me for long .

many things wld happen from now onwards .
sufferings wld occur .
but i promise myself, i will stay strong no matter what happens and go through this .
im glad i have many loved ones with me .
without them , i wouldn't know how am i gonna survive .

THANK YOU SO MUCH !
I LOVE YOU ALL !

mwwwaaahs .

to all my frens around me :
im sorry if i neglected you guys whenever u guys are having problems .
im sorry that i have not been spending time with you all these days .
i , myself do felt a change in me .
sometimes i asked myself , have i really changed ?
change to someone whom i donno ?
i felt like a stranger at times .
someone who feels lonely and a person who have no idea what she is doing .

after reading some of my frens blog ,
i really felt pretty down .
down to the fact that i have neglected them .
down to the fact that i cared only for myself and not for them . i was being self-centred .
down to the fact that i have failed to do my duty as a fren or darling .

i felt such a failure as a good fren of yours .
in this blog of mine,
i deeply apologise to you guys !
IM SERIOUSLY SORRY for what i have done .

meanwhile , i hope you wld give me some time to adapt my life and understand what am i going through . but no matter what happens , i will always be with you guys . i KEEP THIS PROMISE OF MINE ! i may not be verbal on phone but on msn or email but i wld definately bring my advises to you all and make you smile regardless what situations you are going through.

take care my lovely frens .
my heart wld always be with you .
it will never change till the day i leave this world .
i love you all .

" finally , i cld erase you from my mind ...
no longer thinking of you anymore . "

` my very FIRST time !

i teared last nite ,

the reason being so was becos ...

you came across my mind once again .

I MISS YOU SO ....

sigh ~

can you tell me what shld i do to erase him from my mind ? i just feel so terrible whenever i miss him or think of him .

rahhhhhhhs !

save me !

first day of sch todae was damn boring . i dun like most of the trainers becos their attitude is really sucky .

how am i gonna survive for the whole semester part 2 ?!!!!

duhhhhs ~

sch ends at 5 and went back by bus . then dad brought us to botanic gardens to have dinner . hahas ! nice atmostphere ehhs ? had good food . =) . after that , we went walking around botanic gardens . weeets ~ i love spending time with my family cos i can feel the warmth from them . however , sometimes , whenever i see my bro & sis-in-law being so loving together , i can sense jealousy around me becos it reminds me of him again .

haishhhhhhh !

alrights , what cheers me up most was my dad actually drove us to see lamboghini !!!

heys !

that's what i always wanted to see okays ? and fortunately , i got to see it todae ! its my soooo very first time watching it ! real one somemore !

((:

went to MR TOMMIE GOH place . dad drove round the place and it was damn huge ! omg ~ he is like so RICH ? becos there are 7 cars parking over there .

too bad i cant take photos becos it was too dark plus i cant see clearly . i cld only see the front part . it's so damn beautiful !

LAMBORGHINI , if i cld marry you , I WILL with all my heart and soul becos im so IN LOVE with you !

LOLS .

just in case some of you do not know how lambo looks like ..

here it goes ..

his "car park" :

my HUSBAND :

i'm so gonna get you ONE DAY !

my dream car .

` xD

" Learn to let it go
and,
Move on to your next part of life . "