`` BIG BLOW

WHY ?!

Why do you have to keep torturing me ?

Do you want me to turn into madness ?

Do you really want to turn me to an unknown person ?

Please do not force me to become someone I don't know.

I just received a letter not long ago.

It's not a good one afterall .

I somehow felt cheated .

Problems after problems .
One after another .

Tell me , how am i surppose to take it ?

Can you teach me how ?

My heart just simply aches so badly .

How i wish I could just run ..

Just continue running ..

So that I am able to free myself for the moment .

But I know I can't .

I have to face it .

However , my energy level is running low .
I am about to fall .
I felt as if I had just been shot and drop dead .

" God ,

please give me the strength ..

I need it .

Desperately need it . "