Exams are finally over !
but why is it so .. that i dun the excitedness over it ?
on friday , just as i was abt to move on ... and it really took me quite sometime to forget the scene that really scares me .
unfortunately , it came back again ....
it happened in class . it flashes back my memory . the class was dark . dear and jaslin had to pull me out of the class .
i felt terrible .
i felt breathless .
my pains came back .
why ?!
why did it happen again ?
i got distracted while i was doing my paper . it came back all over and over and over again . then,
i told myself ...
" Geradine ..
be strong ..
be strong ..
do your best for this paper ..
don't get distracted .
its the last ..
the final one .
then there wont be anymore till next sem .
concentrate ! be focus !
Geradine you can .. "
i was shivering .
sigh ~
anyway , paper was alright arhhs . after that , went vivo with dear to relax for awhile before i went home to pack my stuffs and got myself change to meet jaslin .
ate dinner with her at bedok .
finally , i am able to have my ba chor mee !
hees .
been waiting for this day to arrive for centuries !
left the place at 10pm and went over to vanessa's place to celebrate min min's bday . it was a surprise celebration . she didnt noe till we scare her from behind and " pop " !
the cake was out .
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its been such a long time we have last chit chatted with one another . it was fun ! stayed up till 3am plus and we went to slp .
these were some crazy pics we took in vanessa's room ....
mad woman , vanessa :
okays ! i was being dare to kiss JUSTIN WEE by the two mad girls :
she was being dare to kiss someone and she chose : VANESSA ! =) :
at around 5am plus .. i suddenly woke up and saw myself in darkness once again . she switched off the lights . i shivered with fear . i told myself the same thing over and over again .
" its nth .
there's nothing to be afraid of .
just look at the lights outside ..
now, close your eyes and you'll be back to slp . "
thats what i did and it somehow works . van fetched me for vocal lesson . hahas . had a cool ride . it was the first lesson of the day for immediate . it turned out alright afterall . just some theory and stuffs . then , i went home to unpack my stuffs and off to meet dear , darling jia en and her bf-to-be , JJ .
LOLS .
it was a last min decision plan .
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watched invasion at TM . show was not bad arhhs .
toopid cinema so dark again !! it flashes me back and back and back again ! but i chose to remain quiet and be strong .
once again , i felt breathless . dear knew whats wrong . immediately , he attended to me .
throughout the whole journey back , i admit i was feeling a little emo . i was still trying to catch my breath . trying to act strong when im not even one . he knows i was faking . putting a false front in front of him . but he told me , he understands how am i going through .
instead of going back home , the both of us went to vivo instead . i just nd sometime to relax my mind . indeed it did make me better .
Thank you for all the encourgement that you have given me .
Without your surpport , i don't think i can hang on for so long .
It was you who keep me going .
I promise , i'll stay strong .
It was you who keep me going .
I promise , i'll stay strong .
Not a definate but i'll try .
Slowly , this phobia of mine will disappear from me .
awwwws .
i dont noe when will i finally get through this but i'll try .
i'll never give up .
=) .
im feeling much better now .
it didnt affect me as much anymore .
i guess i just need time to really overcome this .
JIA YOUS JIA YOUS !
will be driving for the first time tml . hahas ! hope everything wld go just as fine .
feeling excited yet nervous .
heees ~
a busy day tml .
gonna have class chalet as well .
gonna have class chalet as well .
to my beloved nek nek :
hey this is a little short msg for you okay ? i hope it does make u feel better .
ok here it goes ...
i understand that you have been going through alot these few days .
ok here it goes ...
i understand that you have been going through alot these few days .
though i know all along you have been acting strong but i chose to keep quiet .
becos i was afraid it might somehow reminded you again .
on friday , when we were at bedok .. i cld feel the hurt that you are going through . the problems that you are facing , it isnt easy . plus , when u told me your probs todae , your hurt increased . i know u are tired of these but hang on okays ? hang on strong ... dont ever fall .
you know , the moment you told me that you have no one to share your burdens with ? my heart broke . somehow , i felt myself being a failure as a fren of urs . i may not be your bestfren .. i may not be anything . its just like what you have always told me whenever you wrote emails , friendster comments and letters to me ...
"i'll always be here for you whenever you nd me . 24/7 "
i may not be good in words but there's one thing for sure .. these two ears of mine will always be available for you .. to allow me to hear and for you to vent out your emotions . also , my shoulders are always here for you to lean on whenever you are exhausted.
you know , the moment you told me that you have no one to share your burdens with ? my heart broke . somehow , i felt myself being a failure as a fren of urs . i may not be your bestfren .. i may not be anything . its just like what you have always told me whenever you wrote emails , friendster comments and letters to me ...
"i'll always be here for you whenever you nd me . 24/7 "
i may not be good in words but there's one thing for sure .. these two ears of mine will always be available for you .. to allow me to hear and for you to vent out your emotions . also , my shoulders are always here for you to lean on whenever you are exhausted.
if there's ever ever one day .. you really felt like leaving your home , my doors are always open for you okays ? im sorry i cant you much but i'll try my best whenever i can .
seeing you being so heartbroken , somehow hurts me too .
be strong and im sure you can do it .
JIA YOUS nek nek !
i hope to see you cheer up soon .
i wan back my nek nek .
be strong and im sure you can do it .
JIA YOUS nek nek !
i hope to see you cheer up soon .
i wan back my nek nek .
LOVES ;
mwahhhhs !
" Make the impossible ...
To turn them into possible . "
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