` accounts paper #1

had migraine this morning when i woke up . my head hurts terribly . Just had to control my pain while studying . i am falling sick ! had slight cough and flu since ytd nite . oh wellls ~ .. felt much better when i went to sch . the pain doesnt hurt anymore. but my ucler on my tongue hurts real badly. OUCH ! urghs ! i cant even pronounce properly for goodness sake. it's like some kind of ppl who haf short tongue ? the feeling is so uncomfortable and pain. YIKES ! it grew real big. bahahas ~ i kept on biting it to numb the feel. i felt so much better ..

accounts paper 1 was pretty much ok than the paper two . i am kinda satisfied wid it . =) . SMILES ! XD ... went out of audi after paper .. den we went to collect our question papers from a piles of boxes. ITS ALOT ! imagine more than hundred over scripts in a few boxes ? u haf to search for ur name like crazy ? its maddness !

Ms goh came out while we were searching for our papers . she mentioned abt prom nite stuffs .. asking us if we are going .. all of us do not dare to ans her as all of us were not going . bud eventually we haf to . cos she's the person who do not like ppl to be quiet when she's asking someone question ?? so , we said no & she was asking why .. basically ... its due to the dressing restriction . we came to noe from our present stc gals dat they were hafing dressing restriction. u just haf to cover up everything .. u can't wear tube , spagetti top .. blah blah blah .. also, u ve to buy new clothes , new accessories for ur dressing ? haf to spend again. sigh ~ we are not rich nor are we working. we wld just go broke anytime if we kept on spending on events. again, its all abt money !!!! $$$$$$$$ .. i wan $$$$$$$$$$$ .. if only $$ just drop down from the sky . wahhhs ! how nice wld it be ? hahs . in my dreams ! lolls. fat hope for that !

she cld not believe wad we said becos she says it was not true. till we told her the truth . she didnt noe abt this . lolls ! she said she wld look onto this matter. she was kinda upset that alot of gals were not going actually . we cant tell her dat we are hafing events such chalets after that or rather going elsewhr to celebrate our own . she wld kill us for good ! we dun wanna die in her hands. hahs ! so just kept it from her. =X . in the end, she sadly went back in to the auditorium . i felt kinda bad to her for awhile . but it was back to normal after that. hees ! . wad we told her was the truth .. so there's nth for us to feel guilty anw ..

we stayed back in sch for awhile discussing abt the chalet stuffs. especially the food. does anyone knows whr to get cheap food ??? we are still searching high and low for it . bahahs ~ going to buy the stuffs on the 21st after our grad rehersal . or mayb 23 rd ? will re-confirm again. oh my ! i cant wait till that day comes. hee ~ didi was actually talking abt korean spicy rice cake at vivo . i am dying to try dat dish !! pls bring me goooooooo ... =S ! lolls .

then, i didnt realise that i did not switch on the phone till i was going back. i received a msg from jia en. poor her. waited for me for 20 mins ???? but she went home eventually as she thought i went home . by the time i replied her , she's already in the bus . hahs ! sry darling for dat .. i felt so bad . my fault . keke ! narhs ! gib u kiss ! confirm u wld b happy again .

oh my ! i felt so thick skin. anw, i am known for that. no surprise ! hee hee hee ! i went online and cheryl showed me smth from youtube. omg ! the babies are so cute. it realli somehow makes my day . i was smiling and luffing abt it . they are simply so adorable.
enjoy these 3 short videos . hees !







saw it ? cute issit it ? hees . if only i haf these cheerful babies . how nice. it simply makes my day ! =) .. will it come true ? prayshard* ((: ..

was talking to adrian at around3 plus. he was telling me his probs . i felt bad again that he seems to be like talking to wall rather than the feel of talking to me ? becos, i was keeping very quiet most of the time. not givng him advices . not telling him how i felt abt the situation but just letting him talking to me all the way . all thanks to my ulcer. it was hurting so badly .. apologies to u. my pronouciation sux at that time as well as he can't understand wad was i talking at times . hahs ! i dun wanna hang up his call fast because he was feeling troubled . well , at least he has let them out to me ..

to adrian :
thanks for being truthful to me & also trusting me even though i do not know u for that long period of time. regarding whether i shld be trueful to you .. sharing my probs to you .. i guess its not the time as yet . i felt a distant . i may try slowly next time but for now, its a no . i dun feel comfortable as yet. sorry . you may feel that this is unfair .. why am i being able to be ur listening ear .. helping u to vent out ur probs but why cant i do the same to you ? jus gib me some time for that . like i wrote in my previous entry if u haf read. i just nd sometime to open myself out becos i'm just so used to suffering alone. thanks for volunteering to be my listening ear . i appreciate ur concern yupps ? thanks alot .

stop thinking that u ve end ur route . stop thinking that ur life is useless for now. stop thinking that u are reaching death ! its time to stop thinking of it ! let me tell u this, u haf not. come on brother ! u are still young .. life is still long for u . why must u pull urself down and remain at that route ? making ur life worse becos of her ? plenty of gals are out there. who knows you may found a better MRS RIGHT ?

yes, u may say .. u wld not .. there wouldnt be a chance. becos , u just cant forget abt her . the prob in u is dat u have not move on . u have not tried. okays ! mayb u haf . but its tough . i noe. i understand for that. it takes time . u love her alot. yea ! that's true . u may think that there's a chance and hope for the two of u to get together again . however, the other party wants u to forget abt her . even though the two of u may not be couples again . the two of u can still be gd frens afterall. wouldnt that be better ? i'm not asking u to forget her totally becos i noe its simply too cruel for u to do dat. but at least just move on ? this sentence may make u think .. why are they so many ppl around u asking u to move on .. & not staying on to woo her back . den i ask u dis .. wld u be happy once again ? or feeling hurtful instead that u cant win her back .

the reason why she wants u to forget her dats becos she doesnt wan u to pin any hopes of the two of u being together anymore . she has someone in mind. even though u chase her back ... can u gurantee that the two of u mayb happy & blissful ? or just end up wid arguments & hurt again ? can u gain the trust once again ? think abt it b4 u made the decision . yes, she may be talking to other guys instead of talking to u . give her some time. like i say , she doesnt wan to get too close to u once again . she's afraid that u cant forget abt her & not moving on . that's the main thing she's afraid of . exams haf already started . she no longer talks to them till 'o's are over . so u may try again till exams are over ? mayb she wld talk to u once again like frens as b4 ? no harm trying . i noe u can do it .

also , the reason i do not wanna help u that's becos the thinking between two of u are different. she may think wad she's doing is right .. bud u think the other way round .. i do not noe how to put it. but that's wad i feel . the thinking is just not the same .. get wad i mean ? if this goes on , when the two of u are together .. it wld end up arguement / quarrels and therefore . it comes another hurtful break up . then , wads the point of being together den ? i do not see it . i hope u wld understand ..

i apologise for not telling u some probs abt en dat u do not noe due to some reasons. becos i haf promised her not to tell anyone unless i am given the permission to. if i do that , i wld be betraying her trust . as a gd fren of hers , i'm sorry . i cant do that . i am doing part of my job .

dun always think that .. once u got her back .. u wld b happy. without thinking much . haf u think of the consequences ? if u ve not. think abt it again b4 u make ur move. i can't stop u for making ur own decision. cos dats ur choice. i am just telling u as a part of ur fren how i felt alright ? i aplogise if u felt hurt after reading this msg. but i just do not wan u to hurt further .

i haf heard alot from my frens . guys , girls dat they are unable to move on after their break ups . let me gib u an example for one .. a guy who also haf a similar probs as u . i am not making this story up but its for real . its up to u whether u believe it or not. this guy haf been wid this gal for 3 yrs ++ . its more than you .. he told me he cant forget abt her . he rather end up dead cos the feeling is simply too hurtful for him . the reason for the breakup becos the gurl feels that he does not spend enough time wid her during his army days . slowly, their relationship drifted apart. further and further away . he wanted her back so much . he thinks back abt the past .. the memories they once had together . he told me , he cld not find anyone better than her .. just like you ..

he has ord for now .. for yrs. he waited . there wasnt news from her. he tried contacting her. unfortunately he cant.. she has changed her number . he was working . he found a new job and a gal who has been real sweet to him. a gal who helped him so much. he finally found his MRS RIGHT . he has move on eventually . he did it.

if he can , then why cant u ? again , u may think.. u may not be as lucky as him . how cld i be so lucky to find my MRS RIGHT ? u haf not tried. how wld u noe ? think positively ! there's a long route ahead of u .. keep on trying. do not gib up . one day u wld eventually do it . trust me for that . stop sticking to the same route anymore . move on boy ! i wish u all the best ! jia yous !

remember that u are always not alone . but a fren here to listen ur problems no matter wad happens yea ? take care boy ! =)

went out wid my mom to check my contact lens at queensway at 6 plus .. had mac for dinner. arhhhs ! i haven had that for a long time .. though my ucler hurts , but i dun gib a damn . i just ate as per normal . hee hee ! okays . off to check my contacts . and guess wad ? i went all the way there and this guy say there's no nd to check my contacts at all ? becos its due to lack of proteins dats why i felt irritation in my eyes ? oh my . why did i went all the way there for nth ? urghhhhs ! i can study at home instead of going there lorrs .

nvm . let me think it this way . keep me away from bks. hahahs ! saw some nice handbags at queensway .omg ! i am so in love wid it. however, i wasnt interested in buying them. i do not haf the mood to . do not noe why is it so . i felt so much like going home instead of walking around. mayb becos i am just so used to staying at home for a long period of time ? lolls .

whee ~ . now im back home . i doubt i gonna touch my bks for todae. thinking abt exams. im left wid science ( chem / bio ) paper. yays ! just one more paper and im free ! able to celebrate my mei mei 13th bday . erin . though i haf not met her b4. i only noe her for days . sames goes wid jia en . bud i just look so forward meeting her .celebrating bday wid her for the first time wid jess and jia en as well . its a family outing. =)) . me and jia en were like so excited abt it? planning bday gifts for her. its not just simple gifts but nice gifts . thinking back again, we only know each other for days and yet we treat her so nice. its as if like we haf know her for long ! hahas . this mei of mine is simply adorable. i love her to bits ! mwahhhs ~