woke up at 530am todae. took a cab to woodlands check point and reached there at abt 645am . i was actually worried during the immigration check point. cos moii passport photo was taken like donno how many ages ago ? ever since i was in pri 1 or smth ? from young till now, i haf changed so much . i always got caught by the immigration officers whenever i get into immigration point. warning me to change photos. hahs ! i always wanted to . bud always forgot . after my 'o's , gonna change my passport photo to play safe . hees !
went to batu pahat by van .. had 12 passengers in the van . i know non of them except my aunty . i guess the rest were all my aunty's fren cos she's the organiser .
during the whole journey , i was thinking of dar . i miss him so much suddenly. mayb becos todae's our anniversary ? hahas ! wishing so much he was beside me during the trip . holding his hand , hugging him , lying on his shoulders ... blah blah blah ~ my mind was full of him. hehs !
it was a sucess for me this time. no immigration officer stopped me ! phew ~ .. a great sign ehhs ? it was abt 2 1/2 hr journey to batu pahat . half way of our journey , we went to coffeeshop to haf our breakfast . had chee chiong fan. moii mom had yong tau fu as well as my aunty . i was pretty bored during this trip . all were bascially adults ?!!! how am i going to socialise ?? hahas !! even if i talked to them, they were speaking to me in dialects . and u noe .. my dialect sux like hell . hahs ! i am so poor wid it. TRAIN ME !!
after breakfast , went back to the van . there's one aunty being so "lucky" dat she stepped onto a dog poo . oh my tian !! everyone was like, she has got first prize ! lolls . alrighty ! everyone is present in the van .. it's time to set off to our first destination of temple tour . they named it "mo goot . " ( touched bone temple ) . not even 1/4 of the journey , the van broke down in the middle of the road ?!!! hahs . till the two guys haf to help the driver to push the van outside to the corner of the road. so dat it does not block the way . then , the driver immediately call the mechanician to fix the van. it took basically abt an hr . all of us haf to get out of the van . waited under the hot sun . while getting out , mom broke her sandle's stripe . okays ! 3 incidents happen so far . all the aunties were saying . " wahhhs ! todae so heng arhhhs ! "
we walked down to the grass patch . then , mummy was actually complaining abt the ants on the grass patch .
her : careful !! there got alot of ants . sweep away . its crawling to ur leg .
me : aiya ! everywhr also got ants. afterall they are black . they wont bite. haiyoos . no nd scared la.
her : the ants are very BIG !!! wad if they are red ??
me : i dun see any red ants. they are black !
hahs . not surprised actually. she cant stand dirty places unlike me. heh heh ! at least i am still able to adapt . wahhs ~ .. 1 hr is up . yeahs ! the van is ready . time to get into the van and head to the touch bone temple. mom and me not going eventually .. as her sandles broke so gotta buy new one. the rest went and den me and mom as well as 2 aunties went shopping at summit shopping centre. its been quite sometime i last went dere. the place didnt change much .
mom bought a nice sandles for herself and i found a nice white heels for my graduation day. it cost $30 . not cheap actually. i guess its the height of the heels. its like so high ?!! hahas . the height is abt 3-4 inches . i will adapt ! hee . i love that heels pretty much . never regret buying it . i can wear for graduation and moii bro's rom nite. ((: .. saw another shoe which i was in love wid it. however,there wasnt enough time. too bad ! so cant try that pair.)) : .. saw alot of nice clothings while walking pass the shops. oh my ! temptaions of shopping is COMING !!! RESIST ! RESISTS! RESISTS !! head straight back to the van after an hr later and pick the rest up at the touch bone temple .. 12pm , we went for lunch ..
lunch food wasnt that bad .. it was kinda nice. he drove us to shi ba luo han restaurant . after lunch , we head straight to shi ba luo han temple. that's the purpose of me travelling to batu pahat. cos the master asked me to re-write my chinese name . changed my chinese character . now, that i finished my hmwork , its time to let him check . 4th incident , it was RAINING damn heavily ! me and mom were sheltering each other .
i love this temple. i simply love this temple. it just made me haf a comfortable feeling. i just feel so relaxed when i sat down and prayed to god in the main area . this area does not nd joss sticks but just sit down in a round carpet .. facing the god and pray . i felt so peaceful and stress free. its like my 2nd home . its a heavenly place i shld say . my troubles just gone away like dat. =D . after praying, took number to see master . waited for an hr and its our turn.
b4 that , me and mom were actually guessing wad the master wld say to us . hahs ! it was real funni . guessing each other lives. lolls ! she actually wanted me to see him first so dat she's able to listen to wad shi fu said to me . bud i insisted on her seeing him first. so dat , she can listen during my turn ma. isnt it the same after all ? both of us were fighting for numbers. childish us . blehhs ~ that's my life between me and my mom . interesting ehhs ?
its my turn for now . passed to him my bk . he nodded his head and said it was gd. i was afraid he wld reject and asked me to write again. phew ~ . guess wad ? he knows everything abt me . its realli a miracle . i didnt say a single thing. he knows wad i want in life.
this was wad he told me :
during the 3 yrs . u will face alot of challenges. life wldnt be as simple as wad u think it wld be for u . just like now . it wld worse than wad u ve gone thru . for now , u ve the keen of studying bud u just could not absorb wad u haf learnt . somtimes u dun even noe which sub to start studying . after studying one, u wld go for another . whether u retain or not .. it does not matter. i know u are very worried for this. not to worry . after ur life in polytechinic , when u enter to university , things wld change the other way round . u wld haf a bright future . study courses that regards to office work . ur future occupation is becoming a secretary or accountant . u wld become a strong woman . hafing a high position in the company . just do ur best for now. dun worry too much . wad most impt is ur future .
u ve grown up ! pls , help ur mom to do some hse chores . do not overtire her . ur room is terribly messy ! i dun even noe how to describe them .. hahas !
regarding ur dreams of becoming a singer is just ur hobby next time . though u may haf the chance of becoming bud it wld be just temporary and not last long .
so , study hard and be a gd gal alright ? ur health is alright. just dat ur hormones are changing . thats why u are feeling weak at times. ask ur mom to boil some chinese meds . it wld strengthen ur body health okay ?
arhhhs ! wad he say was so damn right . its fake for not believing him . ah kim was the last one seeing him . den we went to "tua pek gong " temple next . prayed in the temple den mom saw another shi fu again .
i was beside her . noe wad ? its the same as wad the shi ba luo han shi fu said to my mom . health is most impt to her for now . she wld feel weak anytime. her health is getting very weak. hafing insufficient of slp or rather unable to slp at times at nite . worrying for dis and dat . if this goes on . something terrible might happen .
my heart sank when i heard that . how much my mom haf suffered . how great she was being a 24 "xiao" mother. whr can u ever find a great mom like her on earth . being me ? sometimes a spoilt brat asking her to do things .. cos from young, my mom been spoiling me . doing things for me all the time . same goes to my elder brother as well . she has been doing so much for the two of us.. spoiling us .. its time for me to be independent and help her wid hsework chores for now. i am a grown up gal. no longer a kid . its time for me to help and not letting her to do all the work by herself . its time for me to take over . i'm not going to let her suffer anymore. NEVER ! like wad shi ba luo han shi fu haf told me. even if i travel to overseas, i am able to surpport myself as well .
2 masters haf said the same thing to her . how cld i not believe wad they told her ? for now, i just wan my mom to take care of her health most impt . i dun wan her to fall sick ever again .. it realli just made my heart break . on our way to tibits shop , its our last destination . i was crying in my heart. while listening to music, thinking abt it further. i cld no longer take it bud cried in the van silently .
i was wondering whether i did the right choice of going .
if i didnt go ,
mayb i wldnt haf know abt this.
i wld kept in the dark & not feel unhappy abt it .
now dat i noe ,
abt my future ..
abt my mom's condition ..
it realli worries me ..
bud if i didnt go ,
i wldnt haf noe the truth .
it wld hurt me even further ...
sigh ~
i felt confuse at that times . i dunno whether seeing fortune telling is a gd thing or not . yes, seeing fortune .. u may noe whr ur future lies . bud after seeing it , it just kept u worrying abt it. thinking more and more . haishh ! i dun even noe wad am i talking abt also . just some sorts of rubbish ..
went to slp eventually in the van . took a rest. i was hafing terrible headaches for the whole day . didnt feel dat well . we reached the tibits stall and bought some !! yummmy .. they taste nice. I LOVE IT ! its our last destination for the journey . 6pm .. its time to head back to johore to ve our dinner . 2 1/2 hrs back again . long hoorrs ? i totally knocked out in e van . look how tired i was ??
i love the dinner i ate in johore! the food is simply delicious ... wanna go back again someday . heh ~! reached sg at around 945pm .. head back home around 10 plus . took 963 back from marsiling . the driver dropped us there .
so 4 "great" incidents happen todae :
1 ) aunty stepped onto dog shit
2) van broke down
3) mom's slipper broke
4) raining
now that i ve reached home . i am still feeling down somehow . just dun feel like doing anything . bud not to worry . it wont affect my studies . nth will affect my studies ! i'm pushing all my stuffs aside. i leave it all to fate to decide . wadever the master says . i will take precaution . still , i will take note whr my future lies . now that i noe.. i'm prepared for it ! i am willing to take up wadever challenges god haf given me. i wil be strong ! i'm ready for it !
to marmie & ah ma :
hey gals ! i understand how u gals felt when u gals realli nd sometime alone . this was wad i am feeling now . though at times , i may wanna tell u gals , bud i just do not know how to put them . its alright if u gals do not wish to tell me. dun ve to say sorry . its ur choice yupps ? i wont force u bud to tell me on ur own willingness . by reading u gals blog . i know how u gals felt and i wont pursue further till u gals wanna tell me one day .
ah ma , i am glad dat u are feeling better now and is now back to normal . that's kinda gd sign ehhs ? keep on going like dis alrightts ? noe wad ? i felt that the two of us seems to haf a cycle of feelings. when u are feeling sad , i'm always ok . when i'm troubled , u are ok . weird cycle ehhs ? hahas . bud at least we can console each other hoorrs. ;))
we left wid abt 4 papers . jia yous ! dun stress urselves too much . i love u gals loads .. !!
see u marmie on mon !
see u ah ma on wed !
mwahhhhs ~
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