me, dar , en, ping and gen went to zoological gardens together . it was indeed an enjoyable day .
pictures tells it all becos i didnt have the mood to blog them .
i'm SORRY .
ah dar choosing his small umbrella :
waterfall :
the animals in zoo :
two of them HUGGING . so sweet ! :
the utans sure noe how to pose :
the monkeys "sayang-ing " :
animal dustbins :
us :
i'm not even 1/2 the height of the polar bear :
they took us secretly from behind :
directory in zoo :
we BITE crocodiles ! rrawwwhss :
Jia en said he looked like a school BOY :
they sure LOVE dustbins :
ping wid her BEST FREN :
meh meh and me :
meh meh sneeze on my ! so i had to wash my hands :
following the seal's statue :
after taking so many , forgotten to take one wid dar . however , he doesnt wan to .. so, forget it . i dont force ppl if he or she is unwilling to .
he went home while the rest of us went to cine to have dinner at kobayashi wid des. i was indeed feeling very lethargic . i scare my frens . they thought i was suffering from some depression . however , thanks to them . they cheered me up .
ping and me at kobayashi :
then went suntec together as ping wants to get sistership rings wid jia en and me . chose this one under lotsa stress . anw, it costs $ 5 .
took bus home wid ping and reached home at around 10pm plus .
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as for todae .. i ve not been sleeping for 24 hours .
tears have been flowing down repeatingly .
my eyes are terribly red and swollen .
im seriously exhausted .
its our FIRST YEAR !
do you noe how impt the day is to me ?
for one month of hard work ...
its my ever first time i composed a song for someone . i just wanna play for someone special in my life .
letters , wishes , lyrics, poems ... etc... etc ...
were all GONE !
i smashed everything up .
how hurt can i feel ?
promises are just empty . i felt lost . i really felt lost . there's nth i can do bud just cry my whole heart out !
you have to work . what can i do ?
i have given up in pinning high hopes .
i have given up on all the efforts i have done .
i even teared the stuffs away .
can you imagine how hurtful i was ?
when i chatted with you last nite , you even fell aslp !
do you even spare a thought for me ?
you may say you will make it up for me .
however , the actual day is over !
would i even feel that its SPECIAL ?
i dunno .
i won't even noe when will i be free .
i just wanna spend my most memorable day with you before i start school .
during the 6 months anni ,
you could not make it
i already felt hurt enough.
for one yr ,
it hurts me MOST .
i once told myself before ,
if he's unable to fulfil the promises hemade tome during the first yr anniversary ,
i dunno wad i wld do .
how hurtful wld i felt .
now,
i finally realise the pain .
OH GOD !
i am feeling so torturing .
the pain inside my heart wld takes a long tyme to be healed .
what can i actually do to make myself feel better ?
in order to ease my hurt a little ,
came to realise that my sisters did not go for camp . which surprised me .
so, i asked them to come over and accompany me .
hopefully they wld be able cheer me up somehow to make me feel better.
anw,
HAPPY FIRST YEAR ANNIVERSARY .
" i spent this very special day ...
ALONE ! "
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