`` flashing back ..

these were the pictures we did in sentosa yesterday . all of us were trying to kill time till nite as we had nth better to do .






Wenting sis , are u jealous ? we hug your COCONUT tree ! hahas . =P









Sheet ! i didnt get to drink at cafe del mel becos i was sick . i drank tea instead . how weird can it be ?



left at 9 plus becos i was feeling damn weak at that time already . my flu and cough were getting bad . i was shagged out after trying to cheer jaslin and perk the entire outing up . i understand that you guys have been going through alot and i hope i really did cheer u guys up in the end. mayb not entirely but at least just abit ?

as for todae , my cough went really bad and i totally had no voice in the morning . i was wondering how am i going to go for vocal class ? so i just kept on clearing my throat and i managed to catch some voice back . hahs ! my MCs are over , so its time to return back for vocal class !

i had nitemare in the morning . it was pretty scary and i was kind of affected by it . what scares me most was that , my frens were in the scene as well . nic , dear , jaslin and me . what i remembered was , we were in some kind of house . nic and jas suddenly talk abt christianity and they pulled me along in going church . saying abt jesus christ stuff which im not into it . its pretty scary becos they were not the ones i used to see but the opposite side of them . then dear started pulling me along as well . i was wondering , doesnt dear kind of anti-christianity ? isnt he the same as me ? then why is he pulling me ? i didnt wan to go . i was struggling like hell . in the end , they put me in the dark . that was really torturing . flashbacks flashbacks . many many came back . i woke up in the end . feeling weak . my heartbeat was beating very fast .

when i msged dear , came to realise that , dear had nitemare as well . he had his phobia and i had mine . anyway , i hope this dream of mine will never be true . please do not do this to torture me . i might as well be dead if u guys were to really do that .

alright , whatever it is , im not gonna think abt it anymore . its nice seeing all my vocal classmates in class again . of cos not to forget my teacher as well . the feeling was kinda of weird becos , it has been quite sometime i last went . lesson wasnt bad as we got to learn positive and negative colours. u just got to put in your emotions to sing the tune .

unfortunately , i kind of lost my emotions somehow . cant really express my happy self while others cld do . hahas ! lesson ended at around 145 pm . the rest of my classmates went to ktv . i didnt join them because of my voice . well , there's always next time . =) .

i went off first , was surprised to see dear waiting for me outside . u know what ? both of us cld not believe ourselves that we actually walk from tajong pagar to vivo city . can u imagine how far was it ? it was basically our first time doing this . felt kinda stupid isnt it ? but i pretty enjoy it though . at least it kept my mind off for quite sometime . i felt more refreshing .

however , when i reached vivo .. both of us had flashbacks . we were sitting down . facing the sea . though i was feeling kind of afraid but i told myself to be strong and tried to cheer dear dear up . im glad that i did it !
was pretty proud of myself though ...

no matter what it is , i just gonna tell myself to be strong . obstacles will be coming one by one and im gonna hang on .. battling all the way no matter how hard it is gonna take .

people out there who are facing problems and u are reading this entry of mine . here is a short msg for you ..
tell yourself this like what i have always been telling myself as well .

" be strong ! dun let your negative thoughts pull you down . hang on and battle on with it . life is like a cycle . problems come and go . if u dun overcome it , u will never be a strong person in life . think abt this . in a few yrs time , your life ahead .. imagine once u overcome it , look ! how's beautiful your life is gonna be ? think .. how are u gonna overcome it . you suffer first and then u enjoy . thats how you will be successful in life . "

so JIA YOU ppl .
i know you guys can do it . i hope this short msg of mine does help a little .
Take care !

did this just now to take my mind off for quite sometime. while doing it, i also came to a term that , life is filled with colours as well . u see beautiful colours that attracts you and u see the negative colours which really loathes you . so , why not u mix them together instead ? u get a neutral one and who knows ? u get a beautiful colour out in the end ?



Now , u get wat i meant once i mixed them together ?

" Battle it on ..
and never let it pull you down . "