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Dear, i can't meet u today le..Last min kana recall..Sorry leh

in my heart, i felt so disappointed. i thought my wish came true. i am able to celebrate our 6mth anni wid him. able to treasure the tyme wid him b4 my 'o's. my heart sank so much. i dun blame him. it's his work .. wad can i do ? both of us cant do anything wadd. the surprise i plann for him haf gone to waste. the efforts i put in isnt any use anymore. the present doesnt haf any meaning anymore. cos, by the time i past to him, our anniversary is already over .. so wads the point ? it doesnt haf any meaning ...

yep ! i was tearing in the beginning.. cos all my efforts dat i done in, are GONE ! i am willing to sacrifice some of my study time just to finish dis pressie of his. if i haf noe in the first place, mayb i should not haf rush thru at all.

let me ask u ppl , if dis happens to u .. wld u feel the same too ?

he was msging to me.. calling me.. but i ignored them. i nd some tyme alone.. wei she mo jin tian yao pian pian you call when he is hafing off ? he hardly haf calls on sun .. like i say .. i am not angry wid him . i am just disappointed. in fact, VERY ! i was planning to haf a surprise for him when i met him. when i woke up, the first thing in the morning, i was thinking, wad shld i do ? wads the plan.. i plan everything welly. till i received a msg from him.

haish ! i couldnt slp after dat, i woke up.. i pretended myself to look happy bud i wasnt. my heart was aching so badly. my relatives came to my hse at 3pm plus to play mJ .. for me was spending tyme wid my cousins. i laughed, i smiled. bud all were actually fake ! i wasnt myself in fact. i gobbled up food. i ate non-stop to stuff myself . yep ! u ppl may think i am crazy. bud i just wanna remain myself to be happy. my dad den played a dvd when we were young. its so funni. especially justin dat big fat pig ! =P . he' s so adorable and i'm so chatty. van so tomboyish. all the toot toot faces . lol !

den jia en called me after dat was telling me abt jeff & i msged her. cos i do not wanna say it out. im afraid i may cry again. u noe i am an emotional gurl. tears may just drip down whenever i am sad. so yeps !

dis is wad i told her :
its like imagining u and cal.. u plan so much for him and u surpposed to meet him todae but he canceled. how wld u feel? u wld definately feel the same too right ?

thanx gal ! for calling me and feeling concern even though u haf received so much probs. bud i guess it wld realli take me one day to realli forget abt dis situation bah or rather be back to normal again.

went to chinatown to haf dinner. was so full. den sa kor fetched us home. was thinking of going vivo city after that. and we went ! i love the shops ! i love the clothes ! i love the cinema ! i love everything in vivo city. the place is so big. its like never ending. arhhs ! cant wait to go shoppin man ! wanna buy so many new clothes and bottoms. after 'o's. lets go my shopping mates !

haish ! i am still feeling heartbroken ...

the moment i received ur msg,
my heart sank.
i dun blame u .
its not ur fault .
all i think was,
the things dat i done for u haf gone to waste.
u said u wld gib me smth special dat u haf never done for anyone.
issit just words ?
or issit true ?
mayb u wld even haf forgotten wad u promised me.
i was looking forward for todae.
but i got this result instead.
i felt so heartbroken.
i thought i am able to use dis day to gib u surprises,
to make u feel memorable.
to celebrate our anni.
sadly,
its no use anymore.
i am able to accept other days if u cant make it
but not todae.
u apologised,
i accepted dat.
bcos its not ur fault anw.
u said after my 'o's u wld resigned ur job.
and spend more tyme wid me.
dear,
u dun haf to.
i noe u like dis job.
if u resigned becos of me,
i wld not feel good either.
how i wish,
i am able to forget dis situation.
& treat it like it never happen b4....