PAIN
PAIN !!
my stomach is still pain .. haisyoo . bud luckily i felt much better todae. ((: .. hope e pain wld stop soon barhs . come to think abt it , issit due to exam stress as well ? that's why its causing me the pain ? hmmms ..
during noon , i was shock to received an sms from minnie that they were coming to my hse in 15 mins time. i was like .. ? oh shucks ! i didnt even pack my table.. arhhhs !! and they are coming without telling me earlier ?? i quickly packed my table neater by abit and lied on my bed. hahas ! my stomach was pain .. so i'll just haf to lie on my bed using my pillow to surpport my tummy to reduce the pain . i'm some kind of worm . wriggly around . lolls !
received a call from dar after they came not long ago . he said he received a call & they said he practically haf to travel overseas everywk to do camp for a yr . its starting from next yr onwards . my mind went total blank . i went silent. i felt confused . he asked for my permission . i did not wan to answer . luckily he had a new case & had to hang up the call . i went back to my room and gave a thought . i was thinking , "why must he travel overseas all the time ? whyy ? " .. its okay if its once in a while bud does it haf to be so often ? leaving me alone here ? i thought i am able to spend more time wid him after my 'o's or rather next yr . bud looks like .. its impossible to do dat now . i dunno whether its confirm . he didnt explained to me clearly bud i'll find out soon .
if i say no ..
would u still go ?
would u be happy ?
disappointed wid the ans i given to u?
asking why i dun allow ?
the answers are in the above ..
in conclusion , i will hear from him abt this job again & will decide again barhhhs . i felt so lethargic suddenly . i wasn't crying on the outside but in my heart . i dun wanna hear anymore .
first , he told me that he's going 4 mths training course in australia . it took me quite awhile for me to decide .
secondly , he said he is planning to go for 6 yrs studies & wont be back till 6 yrs later. which is impossible for me to accept dat .
now , its this news ...
i'm clueless . i wont think abt it anymore till my exams are over !!
okays ! back to topic .. the 3 of us were studying our own subjects . jia en and minnie were studying on ss while me concentrating on my bio . i haf to score well for my bio and focus on this sub. cos its my worse sub among the rest. bud of cos i wont neglect my other subjs as well . ((: ..
wow ! i'm so hardworking. keke ! its not for show okays ? i'm realli studying !!
minnie was summarising her ss on my white board . and she said she wrote that for me to learn . hahas ! so sweet of her . thanks sweetie !
wads my darling doing ?!
revising her ss ..
and denn .. i dunno wad the hell happened to them ? they just snatch books away & stop me from revising my work !!
i am left wid these on my bed .. urghs !
minnie : aiyaa ! bu yao yi zhi du shu marhhs . o er ye yao xiu xi yi xia. zhe yang cai neng du de jin qu ma ..
jia en : ya lors ..
okays ! i'm left wid nth . so i just stone on the bed . i was bored.. went out of my room eventually to took a piece of gummy for me to chew. and guess wad? they locked me outside the room !!
me : [ knock the door ! ]
minnie : wait !!
me : [ waited .. thinking wad they are up to ? ]
minnie : ok !! [open the door ]
me : [sit on the chair .. searching for my "lost books " ]
me : whr's my books ?!!!
minnie : go and search lors .
jia en : treasure hunt !
me : aiyoos ! i already gong le la . quick ! whr are my books ? [ still searching ]
minnie : this is ur room. u shld noe whr to find . quick search search !
jia en : its not in my bag !!
hahs ! i was digging her bag actually and made a mess .. =P .. who cares ? i wan my book back. dats my main piority. keke !
me : AIYA ! whr issit ?
minnie : check ur cupboards !!
me : [ searching under my tv cupboard .. ] ohhhs !! my stationaries ! okay . now my books .
jia en : its around ur clothing area .
me : [ open my dressing cupboard ] whr ?!! dun even haf ..
minnie : [ took a peep ] jia en arhhs ?! are u sure u kept there ?
jia en : yupp !
minnie : i dun see any either .
jia en : [ came along to look ] .. nehhhhs !!
me & minnie : [ faints * ] ..
let me show u whr she hides them !
u dun see anything right ? they are just clothes / skirts ..
tala ! its there .. !!
LOL ! its lame.. i noe .. only a gal like her wld hide my books in these kind of places .. haiyoos !
alrighty ! enough of the playing .. lets continue our study .........
5.30pm .. they took a break while i continued mine. they were actually surfing the web ..
these gals . played some slow musics. making me falling aslp too !! i was feeling abit troubled too . so i just took a short nap . never did i thought, they took a pic of me !
hahas ! they said this pic makes me look like star fish . bud i called myself turtle. why ? because there is a minnie mouse cushion on my back ! & i treat that as my shell . cute issnt it ? i'm a special and unique tortise !
dis jia en !! added more soft toys on my back . minnie squashed/flattened me wid that . arhhhs ! poor me .. boohooos ! :'((
i am feeling so dead . LOL ! its 6pm . minnie gotta leave . so i sent her off my hse & bid gd bye to her while darling went off at 7pm . oh well . dats my day todae wid these two MAD gals ! hahas .
went back to my room to pack my stuffs & was reading jess's blog .
to my dotter, geradine:
i'm sorry for making you worried just because of me. sorry for not replying ure sms. i read it immediately when you sent, but i just didn't have the mood to reply to any sms-es ytd.that night was very bad. and it was already 2am - 3am plus. i wouldn't want to be soo inconsiderate as to call and disturb you just to tell you my sorrows.i'm always a problematic girl. i don't wish to burden you more with my problems.dotter, i know you're always here with me. i really appreciate it alot.i'm very thankful to have you and my marmie. no words could really express my feelings to you both.i promise you, you will definitely leave one big footprint in my heart.because i will never forget you at all. thank you for everything.and sorry for what i've done to myself.
to my marmie, jess :
marmie arhhs marmie .. u dun haf to say sry . its not ur fault . its okay ! i understand dat u do not haf the mood to reply my msg. i dun blame u . like i said b4 , its alright for me no matter how late it is. moreover , i wasnt aslp at that time . so, its okay for u to call me . if telling to me ur sorrows does makes u feel better , den go ahead and call me . dun always say dat u are bringing burden to me . u are not ! neither u are a problematic gal . i noe wad u are facing now and i understand how u feel . i'm willing to be ur listening ear no matter wad .
marmie , when i'm sad , u are there for me as well . showering me wid concern and care . sometimes even brightening up my life wid ur crazy actions . its my turn to do my part as ur dotter . did i ever complain to u when u told me ur problems ?
dun hurt urself anymore nor suffer alone. remember , i am always here .. just ring me .. no matter how bad the situation is . i'm here to accompany u till u are better . i promise u . i wont leave u alright ? i'm always here . take lotsa care ! love u !
well , frens been suffering wid troubles . so its my job to help them when they approached me barhs .
thanks darling - sim for sharing me ur problems as well . dun forget ! during dec , our outing . our date . plus , our gift for one another . we ve in mind . hees ! gosh ! i miss our past tymes we had together . the fun we had . we just wont get bored wid one another . we'll just keep ourselves busy wid entertainment no matter how bored we are . i'm missing u loads . hoping to see u soon . ((:
abt ur blog entries arhhs . u dun ve to caps my name la. i noe u love me loads . bud also dun ve to do dat marhs . hahs ! yupps . dun say dat too soon. soon .. u will find one. wahhaahs ! i know u too well ... =P !!
to ahma / darling , jia en :
i'm glad u are sharing ur probs to me now . i said many many times .. no matter how late it is just gib me a ring if u need someone to talk to . i wld pick up and u wont hear any complains from me . dats a gurantee ! i noe dat sometimes u just need sometime alone to do some reflection .. bud if there's one day u need me , just ring me ! dun cry alone in ur room anymore & stop keeping things to urself anymore !! think again , why am i here for ? i'm not some invisible sole okays ?
btw , thanks for todae's accompaniment ! u gurls did a very "GOOD JOB" TO ME !! urghs !
mum's is back for dinner at 745pm . was kinda pissed off wid my bro though . just becos i accidentally off the internet wireless server switch ? he was so pek chek ?? soccer is indeed so impt to him .. he is doing soccer betting on the net ..
i admit that it was my fault as well . i was so used to switch off the main switch after finish using the comp . its connected to the main plug . and i just off the main switch. so , that's why the the wireless server is off . i always got scolding from becos of this situation . arhhhs ! i'm praying hard that i will not off the main switch ever again ! otherwise i wld get another scolding from him & he wld gib me a black face .
my mom was telling me dat he was jus showing young master attitude. just ignore . LOL ! anw, i'm used to it. i've been staying wid him 17 yrs . his temper . i can understand very well .just like my dad . like father like son . hahs !
dad made orange juice for us . i came to a conclusion dat .. i cant drink orange juice whenever my 'best fren" came, i wld just end up hafing diahorrea & causin stomach pains . no drinking of fresh milk as well . okays ! noted for me !
dar is going for his fren 21 st bday tonite . he was surprised dat i allowed him to drink as much as he can. cos, normally i wld not allow him to drink . hahs ! dunno wad has gotten over me . he said i ve eaten wrong medicine. that's so unlikely of me. since i said den just let it be barhs . hope he's able to enjoy himself . i understand he's tired from his work . he doesnt haf a life . all day long its all abt work work work . its time for a day to enjoy himself.
i'm still feeling troubled ..
i ve no idea wad isst abt ..
i'm just feeling uncomfortable ..
wad has gotten over me ?
i'm clueless ..
No comments:
Post a Comment