~~ swimming ~~

dar msg me and he said he read my blog. was apologising to me when i read his msg in the morning. i was tearing abit in the morning becos i felt kinda bad to him. why must i make him guilty even though its not his fault ?

arghs ! wad the hell is wrong wid me ? am i being too nice or wad?

stop thinking abt it anymore !!!

on our way to my mom office were talking lotsa craps. dis jia en i dunno wad has gotten over her dat she is being so mushy to me ! oh my tian ! hahas . she said she is going to build a home for me. all the plants and trees were build by her in sch. we took 195 bus. this bus is so special. they placed a wooden pattern flooring instead of the shiny one and she said she did it just for me. -_-". bud still i prefer the shiny pattern. wahahas ! me and minnie cant stand her sia. 2 yrs later, she's gonna build for me ST GERADINE'S CONVENT ! instead of ST THERESA'S CONVENT . i told her. must haf a model of me cos i'm the founder. the head of the building. seriously, i dun wan such a big hse in my life ! and i dun wan dat location.. cos its so wooluuu ! plus, u ve to climb up the hill everday its very tiring the lehhhs ! opps ! i forgot to ask her for my vehicle as well. LOL !

minnie was saying abt the model.

minnie : er ! can haf model la. bud without the face ! den dat wld look nicer.
me: canot ! must haf the face den look nicer. i am the founder of the sch. so instead of father barre pic, must change to mine !

the 3 of us luff so loudly sia. 2 yrs later, my building will b done ! LOL ! lets wait and see.

went for swimming todae at my mom's office after sch! finally. i am able to swim after waiting for wks. cos whenever i wanna swim, it just pours. thank god ! too bad the sun wasnt hot enough for me to tann. my stamina is so bad now !! i cant even swim fast. minnie and jia en were saying : " ker ! why u swim so slow ? can u swim other style ? better than that frog style ? i noe we are the four frog eyes but u also dun haf to keep swimming dat style marh ! " actually in fact arhs . i only noe frog style/ breast stroke and back stroke. hahs ! so sry arhs. only can see one style or two. i dun realli noe freestyle actually , only for abit cos i learnt that halfway and i stopped my swimming lesson when i was young. =( ..

as water kept on entering my goggles, i haf no choice but to swim without mine. my mom saw and pass me a "STYLO" goggles man !! its so "COOL"! check it out ! they took a pic of me wearing the goggles. i was like wth ! and i happily pose one pic for her. -_-" ..



i agree i look toot ! so just luff if u wan ! some entertainment ? LOL !

okays ! next ... swam a few more laps & i had arm and leg cramps while swimming halfway. this is the result of not swimming for a LOOOOONG PERRRIOD of time !! and i guess i didnt realli actually do a proper warm-up .. swam till 4:15pm, went to bathe and study !!!

till 5:30pm, had my dinner. devil's chicken and coconut jelly .. i ate so full. i burned out some of my calories and now i gained back again !! i must as well dun exercise. haiyOos.. !! waste my effort. bud nvm. keep myself fit for the moment. heh heh ! i am planning to swim every fri to train myself up !! even after 'o's. mayb twice ? wahhas. i'm going mad.

mama brought me wrong clothes !! and i wore the clothes is like so orhhh biang !!! imagine.. yellow fbt singlet wid tube. den brown shorts and sch shoes with sch socks ? cos she forgot to bring my slippers ? eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !!

went home at 630pm plus. waited for that toopd bus 57 for so long. jia en was singing hoping the bus to come faster. sadly, it wasnt any help la. hahs !!

i felt kinda tired. bud somehow i just cant fall aslp. guess there are too many work to do to finish. 2 more wks to go its 'o's.. i realli gotta buck up to do well for my 'o's. i dun wanna retain i dunn wanna end up no whr. i wanna end up in poly or mayb even overseas to do my further studies. i just dun wanna take my 'o's anymore. its realli very tiring ! I CAN DO IT ! =)

i gues i am going to haf aches all over tml ! i am so lan ! let me build up my physical strength first. hehehehehehe !

is there realli a wall between u and me ?
why do i feel dat..
we seem drifting apart somehow ?
i felt the coldness between us..
i dunno wad is happening since sun.
i just wanna clear dis present away !
just stop making me to think abt it.
i'll be fine..
i'll be fine..
bud looks lyke only after my 'o's to pass it to u..
u dun even haf the time to even msg/ call me now.
only during midnite and morning.
its just only msges from u..
how wld i still dare to ask u out ?
sometimes,
i felt so lonely without ur presence..
bud i just kept quiet.
staying in the room and write everynite.
just to imagine dat u are there by myside.
i tried to b happy everyday..
cos i dun wanna u to feel guilty or sad..
bud now, it seem to get deeper and deeper.
u kept apologising to me when u msg me.
i was thinking,
wads e use of saying so many sorries..
but not proving it ?
i kept myself busy everyday..
so as to stop myself to think dat much..
are u able to make me happy again ?
are u able to stop me from thinking ?