`` My fault ?

These are the gifts that dear bought for me from m'sia .
Cute Hello Kitty Keyboard :


Customize Shirt :


x'mas is OVER ! hope you guys really enjoyed your x'mas yea ?
somehow , other than receiving gifts , i really dont feel the mood of celebrating x'mas at all . i just felt something is just missing . however , i do not know what was it . maybe for this yr , many things just cracks up . hahas ! I don't know . just feeling so cranky about it .

i wanna be with my frens .

but i seemed to neglect them .

i wanna spend time with my love one .

however , i could hardly do so.

i wanna spend time with my family .

unfortunately , i cld barely find time for myself too .

so , the only thing i could do to make myself feel better is to pen down all my feelings here .

i just felt that everything seemed to be my wrong for now.

i can do nothing but to blame myself .

they have said to me about their feelings .

then what about mine ?

they said they understood me .

yes, they mayb there for me when i need them.

but when it comes to understanding of my true feelings ,

they never do .

i ended up suffering alone .

keeping all my pains to myself again .

I'M SORRY .