` NOT MY DAY !

todae is definately not my day . things are not going smoothly & its making me freaking pissed off by it . i realli wanna apologsied jessica & jia en for venting my anger during sms . i'm realli sorry .

my left contact lens went missing out of no whr from my casing in the morning . i remembered putting in at nite . i saw that it was in the container somemore . it just went missing in the morning. yeahs ~ just like dat ? weird rite ? thats my mon blue . sighhh ~ i still cant get it how cld it just go missing just like dat ? contact lens is one of my precious thing in my life which i cant do without . now i haf to depend on my spects. T_T .

did OT todae during work as i simply had too much to do . 1hr OT . hehs hehs . though i earned extra amount bud it doesnt cover up my MC cost . =( . didnt meet dar becos he had to settle his camp stuffs . he's going away todae till fri. sigh ~ . again , i almost teared in the office while sorting out D/O bud i managed to hold back . i forgotten why do i felt this way . well , at least working does realli keeps my mind away for a little . better than being alone at home right ? at least i haf my colleagues to talk to . they cheered me up a little & gave me encouragements.

met da sao at bugis to choose pig for CNY . then both of us went queensway to meet my bro & mom . bro bought his shirt while me went to do my contacts . gotta replace a new one. got disposable one first as i nd it urgently plus, i forgotten which side i gotta replace . so decided to get the disposable one first . fastest wld be wed . haishhhh ~ in my heart i was thinking, why cant i get it immediately ?

i was realli exhausted when i was in queensway . my mood turned foul or shld i say in the morning its like this already . only during work it gets better a little then after work it comes back again .

I HATE THIS !
I SIMPLY HATE THIS !

i didnt wanna go anywhr after work .ve no idea why my eyes hurts when i blink. i just wanna go home & haf a good rest .
SIGH ~
i dun ve a choice. for the sake of my contact lens .

wanted to settle my JAE tonite. i ve decided wad courses i ve in mind . however , it was less than 12 . i nd to make 12 choices . it realli gives me a big headache . i'm already in a foul mood . its making it worse . i kept on looking thru the website of polys plus the jae booklet . i am still undecided becos some courses that i wanted , i cant get in . i gortt so pek check & stressed up wid myself that i went into my room and teared . i just felt so terrible .

neither do i wan to take leave either from work . i haf no choice but to do it . gonna go wid my mom to NP & SP tml morning to do my D.A.E . hopefully it wld be appealed just in case my posting for 1st choice or 2nd choice wasnt succesful. afterall , going to poly is more impt than work ehhs ? so , i ve no choice but to take urgent leave .

i'm surpposed to haf my vocal audition tml as i was planning to take vocal lesson at music clinic. looks like i ve to delay for another one more month . i dun ve the mood to do anything now . will wait till my posting of sch and course before i can start my plans again .

Now , my internet server is making me probs !
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhs ~
wad haf i done wrong now that nth is doing well for me todae ?!!!!!

i'm realli sorry
for making u ppl worried for me .
i dun mean .
i realli dun mean.
u all know .
it simply hurts deep inside my heart.
its realli tough for me to be back to myself once again .
i'm currently very depressed .
it takes time for me to heal .
thanks for yea concern !
every msg from u ppl realli makes me tear as well .

i'm trying my very best to cheer myself up .
bud sometimes, i just cant do it no matter how hard i tried.
i nd more tyme .
once again ,
I'M SORRY .